So a while back I made this stupid thread about this thing I had to build for a class I wish I'd never taken. I never did really find better instructions (although most of my class did use the ones from the website I posted here), but with a picture of how it works, a picture of someone using a professionally made one, and brainstorming with my husband about what we had around the house (as well as springing for the stuff we didn't at the craft store, which was most of it), I ended up building something that not only worked well, but didn't really look like anything anyone else in my class came up with. I cited the images I used in the paper I had to write, made sure everything jived with the syllabus, and turned it all in.
Time, effort, not a few dollars, and a lot of stress went into making a project that worked. I got a D. A D that is uncomfortably close to an F, as a matter of fact, and I've had some trouble with this class, so this D really hurts. Thanks to this project I will probably have a D for the term, which not only isn't passing as far as my degree is concerned, but it also may well be damaging enough to my GPA to keep me out of grad school.
I emailed her, twice. I said I did everything she wanted and everything the syllabus said, so I really don't understand this grade. She said I could come in Monday around noon to see the rubric she used. I agreed, and said again that I don't understand this.
I've been in tears since I found out about this, 24 hours ago, more or less. The more effort I seem to put into this class the worse my grade is, and I just don't get it. I'm not unaccustomed to getting D's, it's just that... well.. frankly, if I get a D I usually earned it. I feel like this is going to ruin my prospects and I just don't know what I did wrong. And I never should have taken this class.
So now I have to leave in about 6 hours to go talk to her about this. I'm looking more forward to the dentist appointment I have afterwards. I feel like I am going to walk in there, look at this woman, and break down in tears all over her desk.
I'm pretty sure she hates me. If you got a D on something you put so much into, that looked better than all but one of the other 11 projects turned in, what would you
think? And I feel like she'll leave me no choice but to try to contest it, and I doubt I'd win, and I'm not even sure that winning would really be winning, if you know what I mean. I respect this teacher's work, and wanted to go into similar. I was hoping to get her support.
Tl;dr: I'm a wreck about a grade I don't feel I deserve from a teacher I respect and I can only imagine hates me. In the morning I am going to go in so she can explain the grade. Help me not cry bitter tears of hatred all over her office and if possible stand my ground because I can't afford this grade.
People fall in love without reason, without even wanting to. You can't predict it. That's love.
She didn't have it in her to keep tabs on everyone else's emotions and then fit her own emotions in without stomping on people. It was all she could do to keep on top of herself.