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what do you live for?

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  • CrowbawtCrowbawt Member of the Midnight Crew Registered User regular
    That's why I appreciate my mom so much. It's like she took the choice out of my hands.

    I mean yeah, it's dumb and there's nothing actually stopping me from breaking the promise, but it's like another barrier I'd have to cross.

  • StaleStale Registered User regular
    Rorus Raz wrote:
    Stale wrote:
    Rorus Raz wrote:
    Man, I've never had serious suicidal thoughts.

    That's gotta be a bad spot to be in

    and once you seriously consider the option, it will never. ever. leave your head.
    very, very true. It's like a tumor you can never totally cut out.
    Well that is something. I'm sure everyone has had low points with tons of bullshit in their lives and feel like it'd be best to just jump off a bridge that sort all of that out. But it's, I dunno, not really a serious consideration and you're just fatigued. I always imagined a serious consideration would be much different.

    it is very different, and it never leaves you after that.

    it's not that you always want to kill yourself. It's just that in the back of your mind, anytime things start getting tough, that little whining voice is there, reminding you. and that's the worst part.

    you know that voice is you.

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  • DirtyDirtyVagrantDirtyDirtyVagrant Registered User regular
    I've never heard it described that way, but it's so true.

  • Baroque And RollBaroque And Roll Registered User regular
    Stale wrote:
    [it is very different, and it never leaves you after that.

    it's not that you always want to kill yourself. It's just that in the back of your mind, anytime things start getting tough, that little whining voice is there, reminding you. and that's the worst part.

    you know that voice is you.

    This is real talk. First time it happened to me was about two years ago. And it fucking haunts you, man. And it's not even that hard to visualize.

    Got some sleeping pills? Alcohol? Bam, game over.

    This is the piece of you that you will never be able to silence.

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  • BYToadyBYToady Registered User regular
    Got bleach and ammonia in your house? Just huff that like you had a head cold and a steaming bowl of water. Won't take long for your lungs to melt. People do it to themselves accidentally every year.

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  • MateyMatey see, look how sad i am now give me your wallet.Registered User regular
    I had my first serious consideration when I was 5

    At this point it's just an option I weigh every morning

    Still got more life to live? Yes? Carry on.

  • Bobkins FlymoBobkins Flymo FF69B4 Registered User, Moderator mod
    This thread went to a dark place

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  • MateyMatey see, look how sad i am now give me your wallet.Registered User regular
    I think given the nature of the question it was kinda natural for it to dip into this territory

  • ceresceres Just your problem OooModerator mod
    edited October 2011
    Grandparents, for me. If I killed myself it would destroy my mother. And so I don't. When I get upset I get reckless more than anything else. It would have to be an accident, or at least look pretty convincingly like one.

    I really only focus on it when I'm pretty far down, but I have to say it's something that's always there. "It would be so easy..." and so forth.

    edit: Okay fine, and two other people probably wouldn't take it so great either.

    ceres on
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  • Bobkins FlymoBobkins Flymo FF69B4 Registered User, Moderator mod
    The best way to counter that is to consider how easy living is. Just remember to feed and water yourself daily.

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  • BYToadyBYToady Registered User regular
    I wouldn't ceres, I'd be pretty cross with you.

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  • Bobkins FlymoBobkins Flymo FF69B4 Registered User, Moderator mod
    I'd be pretty sad if I heard that anyone here killed themselves. Even you, ceres.

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  • TonkkaTonkka Some one in the club tonight Has stolen my ideas.Registered User regular
    Don't worry everyone, I'm not going anywhere.

    Ever.

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  • Munkus BeaverMunkus Beaver Registered User, ClubPA regular
    Stale wrote:
    I live because I am stubborn.

    I live because I'm not done yet.

    When I finally give up, I imagine I'll just collapse into dust. Like a vampire.

    I just don't have anything better to do than spite the world.

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  • Bobkins FlymoBobkins Flymo FF69B4 Registered User, Moderator mod
    To be fair, the world has it coming.

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  • ThreeCubedThreeCubed Registered User
    My mom and sister always get me through the dark hours. I couldn't leave them. Everyone else would be fine after some time, but I know they wouldn't be.

    In the not-so-dark times? Well... I dunno. I've been pondering that more and more lately. I've been trying to find something to live for, to make my life have some meaning. Somedays I feel like I want my life to leave a mark on others. I want to make a difference. This drives me to work extremely long hours, seek out others in need, or get motivated to CHANGE ALL THE THINGS.

    Others days, I get nihilistic, remember that no one expects anything of me and that I'm just a single cog in this giant human clockwork machine. On those days, I go into work from 9am-5pm, do a decent enough job, and come home to veg out to Dragon Ball Z on bluray for the rest of the evening.

    I try not to let that happen too often.

    I'm watching DBZ RIGHT NOW you guys.

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  • BusterKBusterK Negativity is Boring Cynicism is Cowardice Registered User regular
    Life is full of so much crazy awesome shit that you never would have expected or planned for.
    I know it can get shitty
    Real shitty
    So shitty you start to think it will always be shitty
    But then another day comes and guess what?
    You can't tell the future
    Your life, given enough time, is going to have even worse moments
    And also moments that are so incredible you could never ask for them because they blow the shit out of your wildest imagination

    I was thinking about this because I was thinking about deals with the devil
    Which suicide kind of reminds me of
    Choosing terrible certainty instead of not knowing what will happen
    But certainty, no matter what you ask for, even if it's the best thing in the world
    Is a suckers bet
    It kills hope
    You think of the most successful people in the world
    In whatever criteria you could think of
    If you could go to them in the past and ask them for the best future they could imagine for themselves
    They'd probably sell themselves short
    I know the odds are against you
    But you can't know for sure unless you find out
    Life is a sucker's bet
    But only a sucker can win


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  • BYToadyBYToady Registered User regular
    I get through my low phases by reminding myself that by next month I'm gonna be happy again. Like clockwork.

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  • MateyMatey see, look how sad i am now give me your wallet.Registered User regular
    @ceres

    For whatever it's worth

    From what I've read over the years and listening to others opinions of you

    The world is a better place for your existence

    I think sometimes people don't hear that enough

    Just thought I'd let you know

  • OrikaeshigitaeOrikaeshigitae Registered User, ClubPA regular
    Matey wrote:
    I think given the nature of the question it was kinda natural for it to dip into this territory

    i was hoping it would stay upbeat, but i suppose i could have phrased it better.

    @ceres. you know i'd notice.

  • BusterKBusterK Negativity is Boring Cynicism is Cowardice Registered User regular
    Reasons to live

    1. Chocolate Chip Cookies
    2. Chocolate Malted Milkshakes
    3. Waffles on a Sunday morning
    4. Driving down the open road with your favorite song blasting through the speakers
    5. New Batman movie
    6. Movies in the future are not just going to be 3D, the seats are going to move along with action scenes in a movie, like a roller coaster
    7. Telling a joke and someone starts laughing so hard they look like they're gonna die and you caused that
    8. That moment when no one knows how to solve a problem and suddenly you have the answer
    9. There's a good chance your favorite song of all time hasn't even been written yet
    10. There's at the very least, one person out there, even if you haven't met them yet, who could love you so much that even being apart from you for a few hours hurts them in their soul
    11. Star Wars: The Old Republic
    12. New Star Tours ride at Disneyland

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  • DruhimDruhim Registered User, ClubPA regular
    edited October 2011
    fuck that, I don't even care for 3d movies
    don't want my seat to move around to clumsily simulate moving through the world of the movie

    Druhim on
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  • Bobkins FlymoBobkins Flymo FF69B4 Registered User, Moderator mod
    They already do that at theme parks

    Who remember Star Wars: The Ride?

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  • Kuribo's ShoeKuribo's Shoe Kuribo's Stocking North PoleRegistered User regular
    did somebody say D-Box

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  • DruhimDruhim Registered User, ClubPA regular
    Rorus Raz wrote: »
    They already do that at theme parks

    Who remember Star Wars: The Ride?

    yeah, and I'm saying I don't want that shit

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  • BusterKBusterK Negativity is Boring Cynicism is Cowardice Registered User regular
    did somebody say D-Box

    Yes, I wanted to go to a Harry Potter showing with that but the opportunity came and went

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  • Kuribo's ShoeKuribo's Shoe Kuribo's Stocking North PoleRegistered User regular
  • BusterKBusterK Negativity is Boring Cynicism is Cowardice Registered User regular
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    God, I wish I could have been alive when this first came out

    How can anyone not just want to live forever
    But forever in the past too
    Everywhere you turn there's awesome shit like getting your butt zapped while watching a B movie

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  • Kuribo's ShoeKuribo's Shoe Kuribo's Stocking North PoleRegistered User regular
    Vincent Price wants to give YOU the Tingler.

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  • MateyMatey see, look how sad i am now give me your wallet.Registered User regular
    I wish Vincent Price would give me the Tingler

  • godmodegodmode Nooo-ooo-ooo... That ain't dancin', SallyRegistered User regular
    Tam wrote:
    I genuinely don't know any more

    If it's any consolation, your art is truly a delight.

  • FutoreFutore Registered User regular
    Stale wrote:
    I live for that blissful quasi-orgasmic look on a person's face when they bite into something I made and it's so good. I love to feed people, and little else brings me as much pleasure.

    I'm the same way with cocktails. I love making good drinks for friends and talking them through it and damn it's just so great.

    Cocktails and pleasuring someone. But more consistently, cocktails

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  • Kuribo's ShoeKuribo's Shoe Kuribo's Stocking North PoleRegistered User regular
    Margarazzi wrote:
    I'm watching DBZ RIGHT NOW you guys.

    I'm Kuribo's Shoe, and I approve this message.

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  • ToxTox I kill threads Registered User regular
    ceres wrote:
    Grandparents, for me. If I killed myself it would destroy my mother. And so I don't. When I get upset I get reckless more than anything else. It would have to be an accident, or at least look pretty convincingly like one.

    I really only focus on it when I'm pretty far down, but I have to say it's something that's always there. "It would be so easy..." and so forth.

    edit: Okay fine, and two other people probably wouldn't take it so great either.

    I was the same way. Even when I was at my worst, I was too worried about what it would do to my mother.

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  • Tommy2HandsTommy2Hands what is this where am i Registered User regular
    Just got back from a marching band competition

    gotta say, having your score announced and being only 2 points below sweepstakes is pretty exciting

    too bad our color guard dragged our score down like whoa

    Tumbling
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    Baka!
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  • ToxTox I kill threads Registered User regular
    And with that, I'm going to get some sleep.

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    James Dean was the actor, Jimmy Dean was in the sausage business.

    James Deen is both an actor AND in the sausage business.
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  • MetroidZoidMetroidZoid Registered User regular
    I came here to say how I live for taking care of plants and living things (mostly plants, because I don't have the time or resources to take care of a bunch of adopted animals as much as I want to). Something about growing, tending, raising, and spreading all that work to friends and family. It was the highlight of my summer to grow so many tomatoes and potatoes and peppers and peas that I was looking for people to give them too. Food bank one week, a family I knew the next. Best feeling.

    But the other thing I live for, and I've only really acknowledged this and embraced it lately, is to enjoy life. See the humor in things. Help people out when they need it, be there for them when they do. It keeps me from getting depressed, especially as horrible humanity can seem at times.

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  • The Lovely BastardThe Lovely Bastard Registered User regular
    I have been to a screening of The Tingler with the proper seating

    It was amazing

    I love William Castle

    Also I have no idea what I live for

    I just ain't wanna be dead yet

  • Bobkins FlymoBobkins Flymo FF69B4 Registered User, Moderator mod
    I live for the users

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  • AntimatterAntimatter Registered User regular
    i believed in users once before

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