Death of a loved one

BahamutZERO

I'm sitting beside my grandmother. She is laying in her bed, breathing raggedly and laboriously, eyes open but unresponsive. She's probably mostly unconscious. She is 94 years old, and was diagnosed with cancer half a decade ago, but until just a few months ago the tumor didn't appear to do much. She had been losing weight rapidly over the last year or so and lost her appetite, but other than that she seemed healthy. Now in the last few months the tumor suddenly metastasized and she seems to be at the end of her life. She is my last living grandparent, but the first that I have been with during the end. Just a week ago she could still mostly move around under her own power, and was capable of speech even if it was slurred and she was often confused. It is terrifying and sad to watch someone you have known your whole life gradually slip away.

Mortal Sky

Oh geez, dude. My condolences.

At the very least, she had 94 good years, and her family is with her to help her. I'd call that pretty good.

Sheri

HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGS

Tallahasseeriel

My condolences BahamutZERO.

durandal4532

Hugs man, it is fucking awful to lose a person you love.

Label

I hope you have a support network.

good luck

CaptainNemo

This is gonna sound kind of bad, but don't worry if you don't feel anything, and don't let other people tell you how to feel about it. You grieve at your own pace. Only you can know how to feel about this.

Raijin Quickfoot

Deaths are always tough. My mom's mom is probably going to die very soon and I'm upset that I haven't seen her since I was 9 and I really don't care about her dying other than the normal care I have for the loss of human life. I have a ton of family up in New York that fits the same criteria because I just don't know them.

Brainleech

My mother had a point
Try to remember who they were to you rather than how they died.

GoldenSeducer

Hang in there, dude. I just lost my grandfather earlier this month, and it's been super rough. Just be there for your family and they'll be there for you. Also, tell as many silly stories about your grandmother that you can remember, because laughing and smiling helps a lot with the grieving process.