Okay, yet another Yalborap thread. Today we're focusing on something that's been bugging me as of late.
I have anger issues. I have these in the same variety that leads crazy people to shoot up schools and offices; I hold it all in, let it bubble up until it fills to the brim, then I explode when I can't hold it in any longer. Now, there is a significant chance this is one of those many things interlinked with my various issues.
We are not here to discuss those at length, however. We are here, purely, to focus on ways of letting anger out rationally and keeping stress levels down.
Here's what I've got so far:
-Violent videogames and the like. The main issue with this one is that if it's too easy I feel nothing, but if it's too hard it makes me even worse than when I started. Potential, but going to need a lot of fine-tuning. Or a god mode cheat. Either or.
-Hitting a pillow/punching my bed/etc. Works. Works very well. I REALLY don't like the relative lack of control it leaves me with, or the feeling I get in the actual act.
-Counting to 10, breathing deeply, etc. Does jack shit for me. Counted to at least 100 while thinking about this and writing the, still want to duct tape a weasel to a stick of dynamite on a model rocket and light the fuses.
-Going for a walk and the like. The main issue here is the simple fact that it is inherently linked to being able to go outside without issue. Potential in the afternoon, useless at 2 AM.
-Are there any healthy ways to express it in smaller doses? Would just speaking my mind bluntly and at the time and the like just make me a cock, or would it help?
That's all I can think of. Drugs are out, both pharmaceutical and otherwise. I've got nothing against them, but I do not like mind-altering substances, and I REALLY don't like tying not-freaking-the-fuck-out to their continued use.
Methods of getting endorphins without slamming too heavily against my social problems(working on that one step at a time, and this is one of those steps) help too, since keeping in a good mood in the first place is far better than defusing a timebomb of rage.
So, any ideas?