It's no secret that I've got more issues than Time, but anyway, I think I'm finally ready to open up and share just what has made it so hard to move on from my 1st true love.
She came from the shittiest home environment imaginable. Take all of your stereotypes about white trash gulfcoast Texas, and then pat yourself on the back.
I'm not quite sure how I first met her. It might have been at my birthday my Freshman year, or maybe it was that Christmas. I don't know which for sure, but she was the best gift ever.
Oh man, did I love her. We started off best friends. It was crazy. Yeah, it was weird how it worked. I mean, take your sappiest Disney movie. And multiply it 100x but without the commercial tie-ins.
Rikki was fucking wild though. That's no lie. She was the toughest bitch ever to have walked through my door. Catty bitchs would front, but no, ma'am Rikki would have none of that. She took down dumbasses 5 times her size. What's even weirder is that my brother and I shared her equally. Don't judge. She loved us both. Before I never would have believed it could happen, but yeah, I was in one of those
You should have seen how she dressed in winter. Haha, like she was going to break into houses. She totally would have been up for that. Rikki was up for anything any time.
And back to the brother thing. Don't fucking judge. You don't know me. Tell me it's not a beautiful thing to see the girl you love more than any other make your best friend and rival so full of joy. I fucking dare you.
I do think she loved me more though. I left for college. And she stayed back home in Highlands. I visited as often as I could, but still, it was hard.
And well, I learned what they meant when they said that the brightest candles burn the fastest. God, was she bright. You had to squint when you looked at her if you were attached at all to your sight.
But of course, every great love ends. They always do. I didn't make that rule, but it is there nonetheless. It was when we were together on Easter break that I realized our time was going to be cut short far sooner than I could have feared possible.
Rikki, I came home as soon as I could when I heard about the cancer. It was the hardest day of my life. I couldn't believe that evil could have grown inside of you so fast. I was just there for spring break. You were as awesome as you ever were. I can't even understand why you went after Ginger, but hey, it was fucking hilarious.
God, why did you give her cancer? If only there was a way to bring her back. But there isn't, and I'm ready to love again.
It will not diminish what Rikki and I shared. She will always be my first. I still dream about her sometimes. At first they were so realistic. And I was just so happy she was back. As I've gotten older, I realize it's just a dream, and I don't care for one night, I'm in love again.
Rikki, I'm sorry, but I'm ready to love again. I only hope he/she is half as awesome as you were.
I love you,
p.s. You were really the best ferret I'll ever have.