I just had coffee. I dunno, I also got some bad news the other day, I haven't slept well for 2 nights. I think it was the bad news.
Edit: Man, I'll confess something to you guys, I'm really negative lately. I am a bit depressed. This last Japan adventure kinda killed me inside. I put all my heart in it, only to see it craaaaash.
As for Japan, I spent so much money getting my stuff out to the companies. I got really positive feedback, but everyone told me "You're great, but you don't have a visa". I didn't let it get me down but on my last day, I got an interview. I changed my air ticket, skipped 6 days of work and bought a suit to be interviewed.
I was really optimistic! Everything went well, I had the necesary experience and they all rememberd my portfolio from the last time I applied, I speak English and Japanese. Then they said "Well, we've gone with another candidate". I sacrificed so much to be there; money, time and emotion only to get shot down.
It takes a lot to bring me down. That one interview didn't do it by itself. It was the year long rejection, one after another. I've been turned down by everyone, from JET to the Military. That's a bit discouraging when it happens over and over for the course of a year.
I'm not giving up. No way! I really want this! But right now, my heart is in the lowest place it's ever been.
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I just had coffee. I dunno, I also got some bad news the other day, I haven't slept well for 2 nights. I think it was the bad news.
Edit: Man, I'll confess something to you guys, I'm really negative lately. I am a bit depressed. This last Japan adventure kinda killed me inside. I put all my heart in it, only to see it craaaaash.
Yeah, if you have any reason to throw up, Coffee will put you right over the edge.
Also, just take a break. I mean, I know you want to be with your girlfriend and all, but putting so much effort into something like that is going to take its toll on you. Take a few days or even a couple weeks to actively work on the parts of your life that have nothing to do with japan.
Mass Effect 2:
In a pleasant surprise, I now have a geth teammate.
I know who's going to be in my bedroom by the end of the game
Actually, Metal, as for my GF, she's comming over to PR for a couple of years. When it comes to that part of my life, I'm relaxed. But in the job sense I feel like I've failed so catastrophically. But you're right, I should find something else to do for a while.
Edit:
Sorry for being dramatic, guys.
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Actually, Metal, as for my GF, she's comming over to PR for a couple of years. When it comes to that part of my life, I'm relaxed. But in the job sense I feel like I've failed so catastrophically. But you're right, I should find something else to do for a while.
Well just remember that you know damn well you'd be regretting it on your death bed if you never gave japan a try. You made every reasonable effort to get there and the hit your job took is a small price to pay considering the alternative.
So I'm thinking I should stop talking to/hanging out with this dude I'm badly crushing on. Because I don't think it's going to go anywhere, and knowing that, it all seems like a painful waste of time. Emphasis on painful.
But we have mutual friends, which could make things awkward.
What I don't get is why nobody understands is that this is what puts my assholery into sharp contrast. Same reason the Vogon fleet commander writes poetry.
Because I don't think it's going to go anywhere, and knowing that, it all seems like a painful waste of time. Emphasis on painful.
Why is that now?
[Morning, in bed together (nope, no sex but physical affection) we're mucking around and playfighting. After a series of hard pokes to my ribs--]
d.robots: Gagh! Stop it!
HIM: Why!
d.robots: I guess I'd rather experience other forms of physical attention?
HIM: Well that's not going to happen.
I get the feeling the guys a pathological flirt and our mutual friends appear to agree. Can't help the way I feel though. I feel really stupid about it.
Because I don't think it's going to go anywhere, and knowing that, it all seems like a painful waste of time. Emphasis on painful.
Why is that now?
[Morning, in bed together (nope, no sex but physical affection) we're mucking around and playfighting. After a series of hard pokes to my ribs--]
d.robots: Gagh! Stop it!
HIM: Why!
d.robots: I guess I'd rather experience other forms of physical attention?
HIM: Well that's not going to happen.
I get the feeling the guys a pathological flirt and our mutual friends appear to agree. Can't help the way I feel though. I feel really stupid about it.
I like the guy a lot. I think we'd make awesome friends. I just can't do that with all this infatuation static in the air all the time. Urgh.
Well, I don't know why he's acting like that, whether its to keep you interested because that's all he can handle with his crippling fear of rejection, or keeping you on the hook in case some other plan of his doesn't work, or because he's afraid his friends wouldn't approve. But I do know that he's a damned toolbag for doing it, so ditch his ass and make him jealous by making out with someone who's willing to
One more peice of relationship advice (for anyone, not specific to the situation): "It's not you, it's me" is a perfectly good reason to break up with someone, as in "I don't want to go out with you/ I'm disgusted by your appearance/ I think you're a goddamn tool" Just, you know, don't actually use the phrase "It's not you, it's me" and use some tact otherwise.
When I walk around anywhere (down the street or in town or whatever), I greet people with friendly hellos and such. But ever since I got a short new haircut, the only greetings coming back from old ladies are the bitter looks they're giving me.
Everybody else seems fine with this haircut. I don't know what these old ladies' problem could be. Maybe I look like a famous, early 1900s misogynist. Or something?
I need to chop my hair. It has grown out. There's about an inch and a half of brown under the purple, which is pretty distressing. It also won't stick up anymore.
I need to chop my hair. It has grown out. There's about an inch and a half of brown under the purple, which is pretty distressing. It also won't stick up anymore.
Me too!
Although mine is more due to my nice hair cut slowly morphing into a mullet.
i am semi-seriously thinking about shaving a maple leaf into the back of my head for the olympics. my hair is just over 1/8" right now so it'd show up pretty well but be basically grown out by the end of the festivities.
Because I don't think it's going to go anywhere, and knowing that, it all seems like a painful waste of time. Emphasis on painful.
Why is that now?
[Morning, in bed together (nope, no sex but physical affection) we're mucking around and playfighting. After a series of hard pokes to my ribs--]
d.robots: Gagh! Stop it!
HIM: Why!
d.robots: I guess I'd rather experience other forms of physical attention?
HIM: Well that's not going to happen.
I get the feeling the guys a pathological flirt and our mutual friends appear to agree. Can't help the way I feel though. I feel really stupid about it.
Yup. Ditch him quick.
Yup get rid of him Robuts, flirts are a pain in the ass when you're attracted to them.
I hear Brad from the Bachelor is free and probably gay.
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Only the first three. I recommend stopping after that.
That said, The Mule is one of my favorite villains ever.
Quit eating bad food.
I just had coffee. I dunno, I also got some bad news the other day, I haven't slept well for 2 nights. I think it was the bad news.
Edit: Man, I'll confess something to you guys, I'm really negative lately. I am a bit depressed. This last Japan adventure kinda killed me inside. I put all my heart in it, only to see it craaaaash.
As for Japan, I spent so much money getting my stuff out to the companies. I got really positive feedback, but everyone told me "You're great, but you don't have a visa". I didn't let it get me down but on my last day, I got an interview. I changed my air ticket, skipped 6 days of work and bought a suit to be interviewed.
I was really optimistic! Everything went well, I had the necesary experience and they all rememberd my portfolio from the last time I applied, I speak English and Japanese. Then they said "Well, we've gone with another candidate". I sacrificed so much to be there; money, time and emotion only to get shot down.
It takes a lot to bring me down. That one interview didn't do it by itself. It was the year long rejection, one after another. I've been turned down by everyone, from JET to the Military. That's a bit discouraging when it happens over and over for the course of a year.
I'm not giving up. No way! I really want this! But right now, my heart is in the lowest place it's ever been.
Yeah, if you have any reason to throw up, Coffee will put you right over the edge.
Also, just take a break. I mean, I know you want to be with your girlfriend and all, but putting so much effort into something like that is going to take its toll on you. Take a few days or even a couple weeks to actively work on the parts of your life that have nothing to do with japan.
Mass Effect 2:
Edit:
Sorry for being dramatic, guys.
Well just remember that you know damn well you'd be regretting it on your death bed if you never gave japan a try. You made every reasonable effort to get there and the hit your job took is a small price to pay considering the alternative.
But we have mutual friends, which could make things awkward.
Bleh, damn you faulty human heart!
What I don't get is why nobody understands is that this is what puts my assholery into sharp contrast. Same reason the Vogon fleet commander writes poetry.
[Morning, in bed together (nope, no sex but physical affection) we're mucking around and playfighting. After a series of hard pokes to my ribs--]
d.robots: Gagh! Stop it!
HIM: Why!
d.robots: I guess I'd rather experience other forms of physical attention?
HIM: Well that's not going to happen.
I get the feeling the guys a pathological flirt and our mutual friends appear to agree. Can't help the way I feel though. I feel really stupid about it.
Yup. Ditch him quick.
I'm pretty sure this is good advice.
edit: oh, and your advice was appreciated too Forbe.
Now have a tuna salad for lunch.
Well, I don't know why he's acting like that, whether its to keep you interested because that's all he can handle with his crippling fear of rejection, or keeping you on the hook in case some other plan of his doesn't work, or because he's afraid his friends wouldn't approve. But I do know that he's a damned toolbag for doing it, so ditch his ass and make him jealous by making out with someone who's willing to
One more peice of relationship advice (for anyone, not specific to the situation): "It's not you, it's me" is a perfectly good reason to break up with someone, as in "I don't want to go out with you/ I'm disgusted by your appearance/ I think you're a goddamn tool" Just, you know, don't actually use the phrase "It's not you, it's me" and use some tact otherwise.
Change of pace:
Old ladies hate my new haircut.
When I walk around anywhere (down the street or in town or whatever), I greet people with friendly hellos and such. But ever since I got a short new haircut, the only greetings coming back from old ladies are the bitter looks they're giving me.
Everybody else seems fine with this haircut. I don't know what these old ladies' problem could be. Maybe I look like a famous, early 1900s misogynist. Or something?
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Me too!
Although mine is more due to my nice hair cut slowly morphing into a mullet.
awesomely lame, but awesome all the same.
or: Aweslame!
Yup get rid of him Robuts, flirts are a pain in the ass when you're attracted to them.
I hear Brad from the Bachelor is free and probably gay.