I know this is probably a topic you guys get every few weeks. Just hear me out.
For the last few months, I've had truly free access to my own PC for the first time in my life. I'm not liking the results. For the past few years, I've been pretty much an addict. Constant forum usage, always a download in the queue, always moving to the next youtube video. It's only gotten worse. I'll F5 multiple forums at once, just in the vain hope someone's maybe replied to something I was reading or even -ohgodhowIsubconsciouslyhopeforthis - quoted me
. If I'm not doing that, I'll have booted up STALKER or a pirated episode of some old Gundam show in glorious HD. Hell, chances are by the time I'm finished typing this, I'll have opened a few new tabs just to check random bullshit like my facebook.
I've admitted this before, and I've made attempts to fix it. In the end, however, my muscle memory just calls for that keyboard.
I'm fucking tired of it.
These days, I'm probably using this thing for as many as eight hours a day, though I'd say most days it's more like six. I haven't honestly done my homework in weeks, just barely doing enough to survive the course. I bought myself a new skateboard in October and have only used it once since. I haven't practiced guitar in weeks. I'm in Japan for what might just be the one opportunity in my life, and I'm squandering it on forums and STALKER. I've gained about ten pounds in the last couple of months. I'm not actually overweight yet, but I'm getting too close for comfort. Not to mention I'm becoming more and more physically unfit. And if the rest of my life goes this way, I have no doubts I'll be obese by 50 and dead by 70. That's about thirty years shorter than I'd like to try and last. Not to mention the extra fifteen-plus years of my life spent doing stupid shit like this.
At the same time, I need to be able to use a computer to get my homework done and to get my guitar's digital amp system set up without succumbing to the urge of F5ing facebook and PA for hours. That's gonna be the hard part of this.
So PA, just give me suggestions. This is a tough addiction to break, but I don't want to be a slave to this keyboard any longer. Neither my grades, my health, or my life can afford it.
EDIT: Alright, I think this is gonna be my plan:
-Take out my ethernet cable
-shut down my computer when I'm not using it
-put a sticky note on my monitor reminding me that the computer is for guitar and MS Word use only
-actually doing homework, practicing my guitar, and taking my skateboard out. Erry day.
-Reading and writing. I love writing, I love reading. I haven't done either in forever.
-Take a walk every day
-try and meet new people (subcategory: get a girl)
-If I must check my facebook or GMail, use the PSP. Once a day.
-No forums after tonight. Cold turkey.