i guess the bright side is that last time i went on these drugs i gained a bunch of weight. with nausea, i'm sure to lose weight!
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ArtreusI'm a wizardAnd that looks fucked upRegistered Userregular
edited February 2011
Yeah on my last meds I lost a ton of weight. I was 6' and 112 for a little while. Was just nauseous almost all of the time. This time I'm only nauseous some of the time but then whoops I have to throw up.
Fortunately my roommate made a ton of rice so I am going to try eating that instead.
I have my first appointment with a therapist tomorrow, so that'll be interesting. I'm kind of on a motivational upswing (hence making the appointment at all) so hopefully that doesn't effect my ability to get across what I feel when I'm in a down period. Also she's just a psychologist so no drugs for me yet I guess.
I have my first appointment with a therapist tomorrow, so that'll be interesting. I'm kind of on a motivational upswing (hence making the appointment at all) so hopefully that doesn't effect my ability to get across what I feel when I'm in a down period. Also she's just a psychologist so no drugs for me yet I guess.
I found the talk/behavioral therapy to be just as useful (if not moreso) as meds, but I guess it depends from person to person.
Right now my biggest issue is needing to sleep more/better, but that can probably be attributed mostly to my stress levels/insane amount of physical laziness
I'm expecting a call from a low-income psychotherapy place up near Stanford, gonna figure out the minimum they can charge me, because I can't really afford it at all.
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I have my first appointment with a therapist tomorrow, so that'll be interesting. I'm kind of on a motivational upswing (hence making the appointment at all) so hopefully that doesn't effect my ability to get across what I feel when I'm in a down period. Also she's just a psychologist so no drugs for me yet I guess.
keeping a journal helps with that.
I'm glad you're getting treatment. Feels like I haven't seen you in a dog's age, though that's mostly my fault.
A journal is a good idea, I was actually using 750words.com to write down thoughts for a while so I might refer back to that tomorrow before I go to my appointment.
A journal is a good idea, I was actually using 750words.com to write down thoughts for a while so I might refer back to that tomorrow before I go to my appointment.
That is a really good idea, I did something like that!
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edited February 2011
I like maybe a negative percentage of the poetry i've written while depressed
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A magician gives you a ring that, when worn, will let you see the world as it truly is.
However, the ring will never leave your finger, and you will be unable to ever describe to another living person what you see.
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edited February 2011
yeah.
i don't really like reading it because it reminds me of how many enemies I made purely by being an intractable shithead
especially my old v-day poetry
like it's amazing the lies i would convince myself of to convince myself of how bad my life was.
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A magician gives you a ring that, when worn, will let you see the world as it truly is.
However, the ring will never leave your finger, and you will be unable to ever describe to another living person what you see.
I don't even have but a vague idea what poetry is.
Is it supposed to rhyme or something?
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ZoelI suppose... I'd put it onRegistered Userregular
edited February 2011
its' like what eminem does but with less money at stake
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edited February 2011
silly uriel
there are many forms of poetry
such as haiku, bro
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ArtreusI'm a wizardAnd that looks fucked upRegistered Userregular
silly uriel
there are many forms of poetry
such as haiku, bro
Someone needs to explain poetry to me.
In Rap form.
So you think your life is whack
parents won't cut you know slack, your soul it doth wrack
got you wearin' black, working 'till you bleed down at Radioshack
Come home half past five, got this dark in your soul
heart filled with holes, life takin' its tole,
you whip out a quill and you throw down a scroll, what,
and you ain't about to hold back
put them to the rack
twist on the screws 'till you hear the crackity crack, hey
You a poet motherfucker, man of the page
bring a new age,
working mininimum wage, and
and you ain't gonna suffer no fools,
ain't gonna follow no rules,
gonna whip out your tools, blue Bic and a notebook your parents got you for school, work
An' all the bitches who won't give you the time
Gonna beg to spend time
gettin' wet to yo' rhymes
'Cause ya gonna
post on the internet, put up a site,
Show'em yo might, gonna show 'em you right,
Double-you-double-you-double-you dot "Voice of the Night"
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Don't really want to throw up again but I don't wanna waste this food and I need food also.
And it didn't make me vomit last night so that is a plus
Fortunately my roommate made a ton of rice so I am going to try eating that instead.
well shit
now I feel like a horse's ass
I found the talk/behavioral therapy to be just as useful (if not moreso) as meds, but I guess it depends from person to person.
Right now my biggest issue is needing to sleep more/better, but that can probably be attributed mostly to my stress levels/insane amount of physical laziness
Twitch (I stream most days of the week)
Twitter (mean leftist discourse)
keeping a journal helps with that.
I'm glad you're getting treatment. Feels like I haven't seen you in a dog's age, though that's mostly my fault.
it is now 06:00 am
I need to be awake at 08:00 am for work
how can a day already be terrible before it has even begun
how, I ask you
but then if i get disappointed which is what i do because i got so stoked then i am just like fuck fuck fuck stop being excited
rinse repeat
That is a really good idea, I did something like that!
i always attempt it but i feel silly for some reason
or save texts or instant messages
I don't want people to find out about stufffff in real life
my heart is a black abyss
gazes
overwhelmed by
high school
However, the ring will never leave your finger, and you will be unable to ever describe to another living person what you see.
Special.
I had some that made me throw up the other day.
i don't really like reading it because it reminds me of how many enemies I made purely by being an intractable shithead
especially my old v-day poetry
like it's amazing the lies i would convince myself of to convince myself of how bad my life was.
However, the ring will never leave your finger, and you will be unable to ever describe to another living person what you see.
I usually just wrote down stories I was thinking of, but then I always hated and deleted those to.
A potentially potent cure for my depression lies in writing more, but school has just made me so adverse to writing lately.
I should go back to updating my journal/blog.
Is it supposed to rhyme or something?
However, the ring will never leave your finger, and you will be unable to ever describe to another living person what you see.
there are many forms of poetry
such as haiku, bro
Nah my new meds are just making me hella nauseous every once in a while again. I'm hoping it wears off soon.
Someone needs to explain poetry to me.
In Rap form.
EDIT: That sucks art.
seven seven seven sev
five five five five five
So you think your life is whack
parents won't cut you know slack, your soul it doth wrack
got you wearin' black, working 'till you bleed down at Radioshack
Come home half past five, got this dark in your soul
heart filled with holes, life takin' its tole,
you whip out a quill and you throw down a scroll, what,
and you ain't about to hold back
put them to the rack
twist on the screws 'till you hear the crackity crack, hey
You a poet motherfucker, man of the page
bring a new age,
working mininimum wage, and
and you ain't gonna suffer no fools,
ain't gonna follow no rules,
gonna whip out your tools, blue Bic and a notebook your parents got you for school, work
An' all the bitches who won't give you the time
Gonna beg to spend time
gettin' wet to yo' rhymes
'Cause ya gonna
post on the internet, put up a site,
Show'em yo might, gonna show 'em you right,
Double-you-double-you-double-you dot "Voice of the Night"