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Can't find Jerry on depression

Bobby98989Bobby98989 Registered User new member
edited October 2011 in Social Entropy++
Hey, I was hoping you could help me out. I've been searching for several hours now trying to find where Jerry talked about his anxiety and depression and his (then) constant thoughts of violent suicide. I can find Mike's writings on his issues, but I'm having trouble finding Jerry's. I knew they exist, but my google-fu has returned little.

Maybe it was in one of the old podcasts? I don't know. It's -not- the PATV Drugs episode, the commentary tracks or the deleted scenes, as those mostly focus on Mike's experience and it doesn't seem to be a news post on the site (I'd like to think it'd turn up in the searches I've done were that the case).

Any direction would be greatly appreciated.

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  • Speed RacerSpeed Racer Scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratchRegistered User regular
    Bobby98989 wrote:
    Hey, I was hoping you could help me out. I've been searching for several hours now trying to find where Jerry talked about his anxiety and depression and his (then) constant thoughts of violent suicide. I can find Mike's writings on his issues, but I'm having trouble finding Jerry's. I knew they exist, but my google-fu has returned little.

    Maybe it was in one of the old podcasts? I don't know. It's -not- the PATV Drugs episode, the commentary tracks or the deleted scenes, as those mostly focus on Mike's experience and it doesn't seem to be a news post on the site (I'd like to think it'd turn up in the searches I've done were that the case).

    Any direction would be greatly appreciated.

    He talks about it a bit in the podcast for The Law of Unintended Consequences, the one about Infamous 1

  • OrikaeshigitaeOrikaeshigitae Registered User, ClubPA regular
    He's also talked about it a fair bit on twitter.

  • BahamutZEROBahamutZERO Registered User regular
    edited October 2011
    I remember a few comics with associated newsposts along these lines (pictures link to the newsposts):
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    I can never remember which one is Mike and which one is Jerry!

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  • BeastehBeasteh THAT WOULD NOT KILL DRACULARegistered User regular
    edited October 2011
    mike krahulik = gabe

    jerry holkins = tycho

    i had no idea that they both struggled with depression, and this is interesting

    Beasteh on
  • GatsbyGatsby Registered User regular
    They've been fairly open about it, especially what specific thoughts plagued them and their own concerns about their children showing similar early signs.

  • Bobby98989Bobby98989 Registered User new member
    SpeedRacer, that was the podcast I was looking for. Thanks ever so much.

  • VixxVixx Valkyrie: prepared! Registered User regular
    edited October 2011
    you know maybe it's because I just finished a Mental Health exam yesterday

    but those comics seem to demonstrate a profoundly poor understanding of anxiety disorder and the medications used to alleviate its symptoms

    Vixx on
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  • CampionCampion Registered User regular
    Gatsby wrote:
    They've been fairly open about it, especially what specific thoughts plagued them and their own concerns about their children showing similar early signs.

    There was one bit on PATV where Tycho's kid was like "I'm sad. I don't know why" and it was just like maaaaaaaaaaan.

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  • VixxVixx Valkyrie: prepared! Registered User regular
    There is a genetic component to depression, yes, but in children the best defense is to build their resilience. Resilience has been demonstrated to be the best prevention against the onset of depression and can be built from childhood well into adulthood, but a lot of people disagree on precisely HOW to build resilience.

    I actually have a serious problem with the way Jerry and Mike talk about their concerns over their children (because in retrospect you could seeing things that aren't necessarily there, just the things that you are afraid they COULD be), but this problem is mostly around how misinformed they seem to be and where on earth their information comes from. However I do respect their openness and experience and it's different for everyone, so there's that!

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  • DepressperadoDepressperado I just wanted to see you laughing in the pizza rainRegistered User regular
    how would you build resilience? Like, I don't understand what that means.

    Teach me, Vivivine

  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    edited October 2011
    how would you build resilience? Like, I don't understand what that means.

    Teach me, Vivivine

    A recurring theme in therapy (in my experience, at least) was the need to try and change your way of thinking. Instead of dwelling on negative thoughts that can hasten the slide into a depression "spiral", so to speak, one must basically try to think "happy thoughts" when they recognize the onset of sadness.

    So basically, try and reinforce positivity.

    godmode on
  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    how do you build a resistance to a serotonin deficiency exactly?

  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    edited October 2011
    PiptheFair wrote:
    how do you build a resistance to a serotonin deficiency exactly?

    Medication is usually necessary to fix chemical imbalances, therapy to address the mental aspect.

    godmode on
  • The Lovely BastardThe Lovely Bastard Registered User regular
    look all you need to do to not be depressed is knock it off

    or become batman

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  • DepressperadoDepressperado I just wanted to see you laughing in the pizza rainRegistered User regular
    oh so it's the same shit that everybody tells you when you got your mope on that doesn't actually work okay

  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    godmode wrote:
    PiptheFair wrote:
    how do you build a resistance to a serotonin deficiency exactly?

    Medication is usually necessary to fix chemical imbalances, therapy to address the mental aspect.

    right yes ok

    but the root cause of clinical depression cannot be abated by saying "be happy bro" when you physically cannot be happy

  • AphostileAphostile San Francisco, CARegistered User regular
    PiptheFair wrote:
    how do you build a resistance to a serotonin deficiency exactly?

    You punch that god damned deficiency right in its smug little face.

    Nothing. Matters.
  • DepressperadoDepressperado I just wanted to see you laughing in the pizza rainRegistered User regular
    in related news, fuck discontinuation syndrome

    sure would be great if I had health insurance

  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    oh so it's the same shit that everybody tells you when you got your mope on that doesn't actually work okay

    I'm well aware that it's not that simple, but the therapy and change in thought process is supposed to help. When combined with medication, the hope is to manage depression, if you cannot eliminate it entirely.

  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    edited October 2011
    PiptheFair wrote:
    godmode wrote:
    PiptheFair wrote:
    how do you build a resistance to a serotonin deficiency exactly?

    Medication is usually necessary to fix chemical imbalances, therapy to address the mental aspect.

    right yes ok

    but the root cause of clinical depression cannot be abated by saying "be happy bro" when you physically cannot be happy

    Correct. That's why the best treatment (again, in my experience) is the combination of those two treatments: therapy and medication.

    godmode on
  • The Lovely BastardThe Lovely Bastard Registered User regular
    pip it is physically possible for me to punch you in the face

    i will continue to do so until you stop moping

    psychology, give me all your money

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  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    pip it is physically possible for me to punch you in the face

    i will continue to do so until you stop moping

    psychology, give me all your money

    try and hit me all the way up here stumpy

  • DepressperadoDepressperado I just wanted to see you laughing in the pizza rainRegistered User regular
    like, I understand what it means, what they're getting at, you definitely can't dwell on shit, but it's not nearly as easy or off-hand as "you gotta think happy things!" implies.

  • The Lovely BastardThe Lovely Bastard Registered User regular
    PiptheFair wrote:
    pip it is physically possible for me to punch you in the face

    i will continue to do so until you stop moping

    psychology, give me all your money

    try and hit me all the way up here stumpy

    wait until i get my step stool

    then we'll see who is laughing

    (it will be me, because I am able to be happy)

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  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    like, I understand what it means, what they're getting at, you definitely can't dwell on shit, but it's not nearly as easy or off-hand as "you gotta think happy things!" implies.

    Indeed. That is why therapy alone failed for me twice in the past, but I've finally felt my general state of mind improve once I started an SSRI.

  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    oh I can be happy now

    I get real happy when I do that thing where you put your hand on a short dude's head and he tries to hit but he can't

  • The Lovely BastardThe Lovely Bastard Registered User regular
    PiptheFair wrote:
    oh I can be happy now

    I get real happy when I do that thing where you put your hand on a short dude's head and he tries to hit but he can't

    see you think that would work

    but then it ends with you getting kicked in the nards

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  • VixxVixx Valkyrie: prepared! Registered User regular
    edited October 2011
    how would you build resilience? Like, I don't understand what that means.

    Teach me, Vivivine

    Resilience is essentially your ability to "bounce back" from negative life events like trauma, loss, or an otherwise unwelcome change. It's governed by your adaptability and sense of self. A good indicator of resilience is how efficiently someone returns to "normal" function after such a life event has occurred (NOTE: efficiency is not the same as speed of recovery!).

    Building resilience can be done in many ways. Positive modeling for managing major life stressors, for example. Learning good coping skills by example or education. A good support system and a supportive family that validates your feelings and then teaches you how to manage them. Teaching kids or even adults different ways of coping can help build resilience by giving them more tools to use in defense of things like trauma.

    Everyone is going to get knocked on their ass by trauma; you're not IMMUNE to it. It's about whether or not that triggers any genetic or psychosocial vulnerabilities you have, turning it into a mental health illness.

    Also I have to go to a driving lesson now but I can talk more about this in a little bit.

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  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    Vivixenne wrote:
    how would you build resilience? Like, I don't understand what that means.

    Teach me, Vivivine

    Resilience is essentially your ability to "bounce back" from negative life events like trauma, loss, or an otherwise unwelcome change. It's governed by your adaptability and sense of self. A good indicator of resilience is how efficiently someone returns to "normal" function after such a life event has occurred (NOTE: efficiency is not the same as speed of recovery!).

    Building resilience can be done in many ways. Positive modeling for managing major life stressors, for example. Learning good coping skills by example or education. A good support system and a supportive family that validates your feelings and then teaches you how to manage them. Teaching kids or even adults different ways of coping can help build resilience by giving them more tools to use in defense of things like trauma.

    Everyone is going to get knocked on their ass by trauma; you're not IMMUNE to it. It's about whether or not that triggers any genetic or psychosocial vulnerabilities you have, turning it into a mental health illness.

    that has nothing to do with clinical depression where you are literally incapable of controlling your mood

  • Dark Raven XDark Raven X Laugh hard, run fast, be kindRegistered User regular
    edited October 2011
    Ahem. What about depression with no trauma?

    EDIT: Dammit Pip.

    Yah. I'm depressed. It got hella bad last few months. 10 more mg of Citalopram and heeey everything's OK.

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    Oh brilliant
  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    ssri's and lythium are not things you take because your dog died and now you feel like shit, that's a natural feeling and a trauma that can eventually be overcome

    you take them because it is tuesday and your option are not eat for 3 days because you don't want to leave the bed even though you're hungry or to eat a fucking bullet, those are things that are not healthy or normal and not something you can bounce back from by willing it

  • AntimatterAntimatter Devo Was Right Gates of SteelRegistered User regular
    hey pip i love you just fyi

  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    Ahem. What about depression with no trauma?

    EDIT: Dammit Pip.

    Yah. I'm depressed. It got hella bad last few months. 10 more mg of Citalopram and heeey everything's OK.

    Are you on Celexa? If so, does it mess with your stomach? That is the only downside I've had from it so far.

  • NikolaiNikolai SSSSSSSSSSS Registered User regular
    Antimatter wrote:
    hey pip i love you just fyi
    pip has no feelings

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  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    Nikolai wrote:
    Antimatter wrote:
    hey pip i love you just fyi
    pip has no feelings

    you're telling that to a robot

    boy your face must be red

  • PiptheFairPiptheFair Frequently not in boats. Registered User regular
    edited October 2011
    I finished college and almost got a second degree(eventually), I have had jobs, I can engage in an actual relationship, I can go out when I want and when my friends want, I don't have a panic attack and stay in bed for 4 days in a row now

    5 years ago none of those things were possible for me, despite support from family and friends and shrinks and despite how strongly I wanted to be able to feel something other than the desire to not exist

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  • DepressperadoDepressperado I just wanted to see you laughing in the pizza rainRegistered User regular
    edited October 2011
    godmode wrote:
    Are you on Celexa? If so, does it mess with your stomach? That is the only downside I've had from it so far.

    Lexapro actually messed me up a lot more than Celexa did.

    All stomach hurting and giving me that awful top-of-your-head-falling-off robo-trip yawn, and for the first few days, made me like, crazy miserable.

    Depressperado on
  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    edited October 2011
    Yeah, man. I know what you mean. Looking back now, I wish I had sought help sooner, and asked about medication sooner. My life could be far different now if I had.

    @Pip

    godmode on
  • AntimatterAntimatter Devo Was Right Gates of SteelRegistered User regular
    i want to find a medication that works

  • godmodegodmode Southeast JapanRegistered User regular
    godmode wrote:
    Are you on Celexa? If so, does it mess with your stomach? That is the only downside I've had from it so far.

    Lexapro actually messed me up a lot more than Celexa did.

    All stomach hurting and giving me that awful top-of-your-head-falling-off robo-trip yawn, and for the first few days, made me like, crazy miserable.

    I've never tried anything else so I can't compare, but so far the Celexa gives me far more stomachaches than I'm comfortable with. I was going to talk to my doctor this month, but I had to cancel my appointment at the last minute and now I won't see him again until the end of November. So in the meantime, I'm just dealing with it.

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