I've drawn since I was a little kid - I guess I've always kind of liked art. It's always in the back of my mind.
When I was in high school I had some experiences, in an art class, that made me never want to do art professionally. My teacher honestly made me hate art, made me want nothing to do with the community, or to expand in it. I was Young and it was stupid of me to let her talk down to me in that way - or at least to let it effect me so deeply, but it did.
I've started off a career in the Army, and one of my goals was to become an officer - so I needed a degree. It passed through me, that I could throw off old chains and do art - but I decided on Linguistics instead, because I was reasonably sure I could finish the degree in only three years.
Well, three years are up. I regret not having done the art degree. I regret it a lot.
I think, that I have wasted a lot of myself, a lot of my time - and honestly I'd just like to get good at art. I know I have deficiencies, and I'd like to work on them.
I can sketch fairly well - I think graphite is honestly my most comfortable medium
Here is a charcoal from about a year ago.
I have done some work in watercolors - and I like them, but I don't feel as though what I do is quite right. Depth is wrong.
Color is not quite right.
This is just not quite accurate.
I don't like how the wheels turned out on this one. And the colors aren't quite right.
I kind of like how this turned out, but to me it seems flat and empty.
I don't know. Like I said, there are things wrong, and I'd love to hear constructive criticism. I look at things I've done and I just remember the things my old art teachers have said, and I don't feel quite right. I draw, but am never satisfied by it. It feels like an empty hobby to me, and empty talent.
I'd like to find joy in it, find joy in doing it - not to feel as though it were a chore, and not to be disappointed with the outcome.
I try and put some time in every week - mostly it's just me sketching, doing nonsense things. Having aim or having projects to draw would probably help me but like I said, I don't want to feel as though it's a chore. I started a blog and tried for a while to put something up every week, but 22 credits and two jobs really choked the life out of it.
I would love to explore other mediums - oils etc.
I love classical and Baroque art - Pointillism is beyond cool. The expressionist movement has always been near and dear to my heart - but I have never been able to duplicate or come close to replicating that kind of work.
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