For the past 6 years I been running a local meetup group and honestly it's been probably the most fulfilling part of my life. Not only did becoming the organizer for it (A friend handed it off to me) help me grow tremendously in confidence and as a person, but I met tons of amazing people who ended up becoming friends, discovered a bunch of new hobbies and really learned about my city and all the cool or different spots. It's been an insanely huge part of my life.
This year though I started noticing a big decrease in attendance and sign up for the events that I would post, and nothing I really have done drums up more interest. I get why ( A lot of our regular members no longer attend as they can just hang out without the meetup/got married/etc, we as a group have gotten older, the Meetup scene in DFW seems to be less decreasing) and with the constant disappointment of putting up effort into setting up cool events and have almost no one show up for them has made me realize that I will be shutting it down in 2018. Rather go out somewhat on top, and I told myself that if it ever became annoying to run I would stop.
It may sound weird but I'm genuinely worried about what I'll do without it. I'm not too worried about filling my time, as I will still have a strong social circle, and I enjoy staying busy and active..it's more that I will feel like purposeless.For so long I been known as the "Meetup guy". Friends would ask me how the meetup was going when we were catching up, people would introduce me as the organizer of the meetup, etc. It kinda defined me and in a way I felt I was making a tiny impact on the world, helping all these people come together and make connections.
Has anyone gone through something similar? How did you deal with it?