I am reasonably drunk though. We got sushi and she ended up not like sake so I had to drink two bottles of sake on my own because goddamn if I'm gonna let good booze go to waste.
Dating in your 20s - The excitement of standing on a tall cliff
Dating in your 30s - The release of finally seeing the oncoming train
Trying to date in your 40's a vast desert of despair
At least in the mid-late 40s the kids are usually nearly adult or already moved out.
At 30, everyone has kids now and I am not interested in being third/fourth wheel in that family unit or stepdad.
The already vanishingly small date pool is even smaller if you exclude smokers and people with kids. Plus all the drama related to baby daddys stepping in and out constantly if my facebook high school friends are any indication of what they deal with.
bowen on
not a doctor, not a lawyer, examples I use may not be fully researched so don't take out of context plz, don't @ me
+2
Options
StraightziHere we may reign secure, and in my choice,To reign is worth ambition though in HellRegistered Userregular
That depends pretty wildly on your social group and surroundings, to be fair
Where I grew up, I feel like most people didn't have kids until they were 30, at least, and I knew quite a few people where that was more like mid to late thirties
And like right now, I'm 30, and there are only a couple of people in my general friend circle with kids
Yeah at early 30's my problem is more people who want kids, and not being able to tell from dating profiles if that means "hypothetically someday" or "right away" when I'm still not sure what I want.
DepressperadoI just wanted to see you laughingin the pizza rainRegistered Userregular
ugh, I slept for too long a time and it made my back hurt, and then forgot to take my brain pills when I woke up and now my body is like WHERE ARE THE CHEMICALS I CRAVE and I'm all "I just took them stop making my brain static please just wait fifteen minutes"
Sat in the cafe listening to like, 12 minute long prog rock soundscapes it seems, while reading about the Hapsburgs (all mental)
Happy Saturday morning!
gotta keep those bloodlines pure
One of my projects in History back in high school was basically that chart. I gave a detailed description of how badly inbreeding fucked that family up. I think I got a B.
I gotta go blow some leaves for my friend's parents. They're gonna give me 30 dollars! lol
I'm gonna smoke beforehand because sober yardwork doesn't feel right.
edit: oh did I mention I got my Medical Marijuana... certification? I'm gettin' my card in the mail! Finally, my crippling anxieties are good for something.
Depressperado on
+4
Options
DepressperadoI just wanted to see you laughingin the pizza rainRegistered Userregular
holy moly blowing leaves is a pain in the ass
the backyard was fine 'cause it was just like, "aim at the creek" but the front yard you gotta gather them into big piles and then scooch the piles back to the aforementioned creek, constantly course correcting to keep the pile together.
I've been chatting here and there with someone on hinge.
It just makes me think about how I really don't know how to talk to people. Because it's been so sporadic. And I dunno how to initiate a deeper conversation or ask good questions.
I have been dealing with some annoyingly persistent depression/anxiety lately and it’s, well, annoying and shitty
I oughta dig out my therapy lamp because i imagine the persistent gray skies and raininess aren’t helping
+4
Options
DepressperadoI just wanted to see you laughingin the pizza rainRegistered Userregular
"What is the thing that you're best at, and what thing do you wish you were best at?"
"what was the worst party you ever attended and why was it so bad?"
"[vague and romantically suggestive song lyrics]"
"If you were a serial killer, what would your MO be?"
"You’re in a desert walking along in the sand when all of the sudden you look down, and you see a tortoise, crawling toward you. You reach down, you flip the tortoise over on its back. The tortoise lays on its back, its belly baking in the hot sun, beating its legs trying to turn itself over, but it can’t, not without your help. But you’re not helping. Why is that?"
I don't have a lot of good conversations, though, so like, probably don't use those.
I have been dealing with some annoyingly persistent depression/anxiety lately and it’s, well, annoying and shitty
I oughta dig out my therapy lamp because i imagine the persistent gray skies and raininess aren’t helping
It's the opposite for me I quite like the persistent grey skies and rain. I do miss it. compared to the endless sun
But it's the fight with the city and state over various things part of me just wants to run screaming into the night and not stop
As it's just frustraiting to deal with state tax officals who just don't want to do their job with the city and how I could not take care of my yard because of the shittyness of work landed me in jail and in a fight with the city
part of me with manic glee likes how it's all falling apart for the city/state as they richly deserve it for all the half assed and I will do it tomorrow ideals they have pushed. But I am stuck here in the middle of it.
I don't know what to say as the state in the unemployment offered a Project Manger job to me from the city I have 70% of the things for as I partly know why no one will take it {who in their right mind will accept a 35k a year job requiring a Masters or 3 years with a bachelor's degree of civil engineering it's little wonder no one has taken it
Sigh I really should take the VA finance officer's advice just leave he even offered to put me on a bus to anywhere on his expense as he knows far more than I have told anyone else about my problems here.
I found my therapy lamp and used it for a bit, and I do feel quite a bit better now.
Weird that it's really hitting me in my second PNW fall rather than the first, but maybe the first I was still in my 'honeymoon phase' of living up here, or whatever.
Anyway, I should make this an every day thing.
0
Options
Blake TDo you have enemies then?Good. That means you’ve stood up for something, sometime in your life.Registered Userregular
You also had like a bunch of moving to a new place things to do when you first got there as well, which may has distracted you as well.
Yeah, last October we had JUST moved into this house so all the moving, arranging new furniture, decorating, etc definitely made it easier to ignore.
Plus as bad as it sounds, I've found having a little bit of a weed edible in the evenings does help the anxiety a LOT, and Rachel's mom is visiting so we've hidden all our weed stuff so she doesn't find out we're DEGENERATE WEED JUNKIES
+4
Options
Blake TDo you have enemies then?Good. That means you’ve stood up for something, sometime in your life.Registered Userregular
Got the jar that was labeled degenerate weed edibles and rotated it 180 degrees.
Posts
Got a nice ring to it!
Does owning 20% of something make you a king? I guess technically only one of those rooms is mine.
I think I’ll take the kitchen!
Trying to date in your 40's a vast desert of despair
I dunno every time I think it went ok I never hear from the person again so I guess we'll see.
We talked about doing a haunted house so maybe that's a good sign.
Ain't how mama raised me.
ALL the different ways?!?
And I have a runny nose and sinus headache... Gonna be hard to celebrate
Mine is Monday
Happy birthday Uriel
Wishing you all the best
This will be here until I receive an apology or Weedlordvegeta get any consequences for being a bully
You know; up, down, top, bottom, charm, strange.
please don't have sex with a haunted house
you will get genital ghosts
At least in the mid-late 40s the kids are usually nearly adult or already moved out.
At 30, everyone has kids now and I am not interested in being third/fourth wheel in that family unit or stepdad.
The already vanishingly small date pool is even smaller if you exclude smokers and people with kids. Plus all the drama related to baby daddys stepping in and out constantly if my facebook high school friends are any indication of what they deal with.
Where I grew up, I feel like most people didn't have kids until they were 30, at least, and I knew quite a few people where that was more like mid to late thirties
And like right now, I'm 30, and there are only a couple of people in my general friend circle with kids
Like Tinder, but explicitly for making babies. Swipe right if you want to make babies with this person.
Dutch Babies, sure
Democrats Abroad! || Vote From Abroad
Happy Saturday morning!
gotta keep those bloodlines pure
One of my projects in History back in high school was basically that chart. I gave a detailed description of how badly inbreeding fucked that family up. I think I got a B.
I gotta go blow some leaves for my friend's parents. They're gonna give me 30 dollars! lol
I'm gonna smoke beforehand because sober yardwork doesn't feel right.
edit: oh did I mention I got my Medical Marijuana... certification? I'm gettin' my card in the mail! Finally, my crippling anxieties are good for something.
the backyard was fine 'cause it was just like, "aim at the creek" but the front yard you gotta gather them into big piles and then scooch the piles back to the aforementioned creek, constantly course correcting to keep the pile together.
I've been chatting here and there with someone on hinge.
It just makes me think about how I really don't know how to talk to people. Because it's been so sporadic. And I dunno how to initiate a deeper conversation or ask good questions.
It's a bummer.
I oughta dig out my therapy lamp because i imagine the persistent gray skies and raininess aren’t helping
"what was the worst party you ever attended and why was it so bad?"
"[vague and romantically suggestive song lyrics]"
"If you were a serial killer, what would your MO be?"
"You’re in a desert walking along in the sand when all of the sudden you look down, and you see a tortoise, crawling toward you. You reach down, you flip the tortoise over on its back. The tortoise lays on its back, its belly baking in the hot sun, beating its legs trying to turn itself over, but it can’t, not without your help. But you’re not helping. Why is that?"
I don't have a lot of good conversations, though, so like, probably don't use those.
It's gonna be really hard to lose any at this point. Especially after hurting my back last weekend.
Time to look hella good in layers and also be depressed.
Steam Switch FC: 2799-7909-4852
It's the opposite for me I quite like the persistent grey skies and rain. I do miss it. compared to the endless sun
But it's the fight with the city and state over various things part of me just wants to run screaming into the night and not stop
As it's just frustraiting to deal with state tax officals who just don't want to do their job with the city and how I could not take care of my yard because of the shittyness of work landed me in jail and in a fight with the city
part of me with manic glee likes how it's all falling apart for the city/state as they richly deserve it for all the half assed and I will do it tomorrow ideals they have pushed. But I am stuck here in the middle of it.
I don't know what to say as the state in the unemployment offered a Project Manger job to me from the city I have 70% of the things for as I partly know why no one will take it {who in their right mind will accept a 35k a year job requiring a Masters or 3 years with a bachelor's degree of civil engineering it's little wonder no one has taken it
Sigh I really should take the VA finance officer's advice just leave he even offered to put me on a bus to anywhere on his expense as he knows far more than I have told anyone else about my problems here.
Weird that it's really hitting me in my second PNW fall rather than the first, but maybe the first I was still in my 'honeymoon phase' of living up here, or whatever.
Anyway, I should make this an every day thing.
Satans..... hints.....
Plus as bad as it sounds, I've found having a little bit of a weed edible in the evenings does help the anxiety a LOT, and Rachel's mom is visiting so we've hidden all our weed stuff so she doesn't find out we're DEGENERATE WEED JUNKIES
Satans..... hints.....
Pretty sure it wasn't permanent, though.