So, long story short, because of an event in my life about 10 years ago i stopped hanging out with friends. As a result, my social skills never really built up and now i'm in a pickle. I feel super lonely but i don't know how to act with people outside of work.
I have friends right now but my only interactions with them are through texting/online chatting. I want this to change, though. Sadly, an extra complication in the situation is that i have a crush on a lot of my friends. I don't really want to pursue relationships with them because A) They're already in relationships and B) I'm asexual and they're not.
So, my questions.
-What's a good way to suggest an activity with (a) friend(s). Is it better to go for group activities?
-What are common activities for young adults. I just turned 30, most of my friends are in the latter half of their 20s. Also i met all of them working in the games industry so we're all pretty nerdy.
-Are there good resources for learning social skills? I really
don't wanna blow it with my friends but on the rare occasion where i go out with them, i end up being aloof and distant and weird, then leaving early, because i'm so afraid of doing it wrong.
-Again, i have a crush on many of my friends. It's probably more obvious for some. I can't really control that and i don't want to make things awkward. Anything to look out for?
I realize this is pretty weird but I've dug myself a hole to protect myself and it's no longer comfortable, so i need help coming out of it.