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The crwth Tapestry for Stalin Enthusiasts

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  • VeldrinVeldrin Sham bam bamina Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I usually only sleep around 5-6 hours a night, but I've been fighting a nasty sinus infection for the past month and I'm fluctuating between going 48 hours with no sleep and sleeping 12-15 hours at a time with a couple hours uptime to eat

    sucks a big ol' butthole imho

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  • Rhesus PositiveRhesus Positive GNU Terry Pratchett Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    Now that it's summer my cat wakes me up far too early by coming to sleep on my legs as the sun comes up

    I've tried closing the bedroom door but then she wakes me up by scratching at it

    I've turned her heated sleeping pad back on to try and entice her away from the bed; hopefully this works tonight

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  • Tequila SunsetTequila Sunset Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I can't even dive into a pool face first, absolutely not

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  • DepressperadoDepressperado I just wanted to see you laughing in the pizza rainRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    man I might get to take a little nap today, how exciting

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  • DarmakDarmak RAGE vympyvvhyc vyctyvyRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    I'm not napping nearly as much as I'd hoped for on this three day weekend. Even when I do it's more just laying in bed with my eyes closed for 1-3 hours than actual sleep going on. Still restful I suppose but I was hoping depression naps would involve more unconsciousness instead of lying there thinking about stuff

    At least I'm getting some good nighttime sleep so there's that, maybe it'll be enough

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  • BahamutZEROBahamutZERO Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I had the worst night sleep I've had in a while last night, feel awful, bluh

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  • DarkPrimusDarkPrimus Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I went to bed early last night and still ended up with a bad night's sleep due to nightmares.

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  • ZonugalZonugal (He/Him) The Holiday Armadillo I'm Santa's representative for all the southern states. And Mexico!Registered User, Transition Team regular
    edited April 10
    Saturday I woke up at 3 AM to do a 54 mile relay race with five friends.

    I ran the first leg, a quaint 5k, at 6:30 AM and then another 5k at 11:30 AM.

    I'm here to tell you, that has FUCKED! up my sleep schedule something fierce.

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  • IronKnuckleIronKnuckle This is also my fault Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I went to bed an hour early last night as a little treat for myself. It didn't help.

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  • PoorochondriacPoorochondriac Ah, man Ah, jeezRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    I had two dreams last night, neither especially remarkable on their own but Doing Something in their juxtaposition.

    In the first, wife and I were playing with our baby when she spoke for the first time. She was playing with her real-life favorite bath toy, a turtle, and she said turtle. There was much celebration. In real-life, she's still a good long while from talking, so it was a sweet little anticipatory fantasy. One kind of dream.

    Second dream, I was working some restaurant job. Black Dickies, black t-shirt, non-slip shoes, whole deal. I was walking home from work, drinking a PBR tall boy. A man shouted from his porch, "Are you gonna drink in my driveway EVERY night?" and I shouted back, "I'm not drinking HERE, I'm WALKING" and he sprayed me with a hose. Different kind of dream.

    Inside us there are two wolves, etc etc

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  • ZonugalZonugal (He/Him) The Holiday Armadillo I'm Santa's representative for all the southern states. And Mexico!Registered User, Transition Team regular
    edited April 10
    I had a dream Saturday night that I was smoking a gigantic cigar in a theater, against the building protocols.

    And I was politely, but firmly, escorted out of the theater and off the premises by Ethan Hawke and his posse.

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  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] regular
    edited April 10
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  • DarkPrimusDarkPrimus Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    Gustav wrote: »
    My sleep paralysis finally stopped happening for whatever reason, but it's been replaced by another raw deal. Waking nightmares. Apparently my nightmare thing is waking up and ripping my face off and then waking up and my fiance pulling her face off and rinse and repeat for god knows how long

    You heard about that Face/Off sequel, huh

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  • crwthcrwth THAT'S IT Registered User regular
    we’re all getting older. a lot of us posted here in our mid to late teens and now we’re lookin at the top of the hill

    my dad is getting older. his balance has been fucked for years but now it’s getting worse. he keeps having falls. too stubborn to do anything about it…can’t live with me. would rather jump off a cliff than be sent to a home. my mom had a massive heart attack a couple years ago. she’s ok now but it fucked up her left hand

    how do we grapple with getting older? with our loves ones getting older? the day will come someday, and i’ve never been totally comfortable with it

  • CoinageCoinage Heaviside LayerRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    Denial until darkness takes me

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    Happiness is within reach!
  • xXx_bLunTmaSTeR_420x69?xXx_bLunTmaSTeR_420x69? Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    35,000 days, at best, to figure out how to do a backflip

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  • Undead ScottsmanUndead Scottsman Cybertronian Paranormal Eliminator Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I plan on the world ending before I get too much older, so I don't think about it other than complaining about my body falling apart to my friends and coworkers.

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  • UrielUriel Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I plan to live until April the 20th 2056

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  • ChicoBlueChicoBlue Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I can feel the wisdom accruing in my arteries.

    The foolish elasticity and firmness of youth being replaced by the enlightened sag and billow of the years.

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  • Bizarro EchoBizarro Echo ski-bap ba-dapModerator, Administrator admin
    edited April 10
    reVerse wrote: »
    I still have nightmares about being late to class or having forgot my homework.

    One of my somewhat frequently recurring dream scenarios is being back in school, and skipping math class specifically.

    I never skipped math class.

    And last week I dreamed about overdue library books.

    Brain, stop it.

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  • UrielUriel Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I don't have many school dreams but then

    I barely went

    But yeah I'm not a fan of getting older. It sucks to get sick or watch my friends get sick.

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  • Speed RacerSpeed Racer Scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratchRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    I can feel myself aging as I wait for you to go to the store

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  • Endless_SerpentsEndless_Serpents Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    Unironically I accept the finite life I have and the inevitability of the death of those I love. Live in the moment and hold ‘em close until the curtain drops. I also find trying to reverse the damage corpos have done to the environment is helping me immensely. Just do what you can, but also sometimes say fuck it, put ice cream in your whiskey, play some good tracks and do nothing. Everything in moderation, even moderation.

    Also: Commit crimes against your government, speak out, protest, slit the tires of fascists this is a joke post it cannot be used in a court of law.

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  • HeadCreepsHeadCreeps NOW IS THE TIME FOR DRINKING! Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    reVerse wrote: »
    I still have nightmares about being late to class or having forgot my homework.

    And I'm not wearing pants :worried:

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  • Garlic BreadGarlic Bread i'm a bitch i'm a bitch i'm a bitch i'm a Registered User, Disagreeable regular
    edited April 10
    Unironically I accept the finite life I have and the inevitability of the death of those I love. Live in the moment and hold ‘em close until the curtain drops. I also find trying to reverse the damage corpos have done to the environment is helping me immensely. Just do what you can, but also sometimes say fuck it, put ice cream in your whiskey, play some good tracks and do nothing. Everything in moderation, even moderation.

    Also: Commit crimes against your government, speak out, protest, slit the tires of fascists this is a joke post it cannot be used in a court of law.

    yeah, all of this + take transgender hormones is pretty much what i was gonna say

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  • crwthcrwth THAT'S IT Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I can feel myself aging as I wait for you to go to the store

    did you feel like continuing this bit in a thread where i’m trying to grapple with the inevitability of my parents death and in turn my own in the future, leaving my son to experience the same dread was cool and good to do

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  • PoorochondriacPoorochondriac Ah, man Ah, jeezRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    My family has often had a very matter-of-fact relationship with death. Both sides of my family have passionate geneaologists, which meant a lot of childhood trips to graveyards. I had an aunt who purchased her own coffin because it was on sale and she'd "need it some day," who proceeded to use it as a coffee table for years.

    In my 20s I lived recklessly and self-destructively; I was pretty sure I was gonna die at 27, be part of the 27 club. I had not made any art that anybody cared about (nor should have). This did little to dissuade me of my romantic certainty. "No point REALLY trying, I'm almost out of here." And then I kept going, which annoyed me at the time. Felt like I had fucked up, or something. Blew my shot.

    And then my 30s have been the best years of my life, by a lot. Started actually making art instead of just fantasizing about Being An Artist. Got married. Got my dream career. Got a kid.

    Somewhere in there, folks in my life started dying. My wife's father, my grandparents, more relatives, more friends. A few years of getting walloped by grief every six months, every five. And each of those people has missed something amazing - there are a lot of folks that I wish could've met my daughter.

    Which doesn't make me despair, but rather makes me cheesily, cornily grateful to age. "Every extra year I get is more opportunity to find something special, something I want to share, something someone I loved would have loved." Imagining how they'd have reacted, imagining them happy with me, bringing them forward with me.

    If the pricetag for meeting my daughter is that my knee clicks when I get up from sitting on the floor with her, well, that kind of makes me love the clicking.

    Here is a poem that makes me cry.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBWcnGjfadY

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  • Speed RacerSpeed Racer Scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratch scritch scratchRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    crwth wrote: »
    I can feel myself aging as I wait for you to go to the store

    did you feel like continuing this bit in a thread where i’m trying to grapple with the inevitability of my parents death and in turn my own in the future, leaving my son to experience the same dread was cool and good to do

    I will admit

    I woke up, saw the thread title, and hit reply without reading the op

    I apologize

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  • KadithKadith Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    trying to balance setting things up so we can be generally self sufficient and comfortable once we get even older but also being present and taking care of the important stuff happening now

    i thought i'd be able to lean on my mom more considering my dad passed a few years ago (thx cancer) but she's spending the majority of her time with her new bf in illinois so our family unit is truly becoming an island

    doing my best not to ignore my body when something hurts or i can't do something like i used to

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  • ShadowfireShadowfire Vermont, in the middle of nowhereRegistered User regular
    edited April 10
    reVerse wrote: »
    I still have nightmares about being late to class or having forgot my homework.

    I have bad dreams about previous jobs. Being stuck there while customers keep coming in on Christmas Eve or whatever and "we're not allowed to tell them to leave" so I end up working straight through Christmas Day.

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  • DarkPrimusDarkPrimus Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    Can someone hook a fella up with a back massage? This thing is killing me

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  • UrielUriel Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I think I got a pinched nerve around my shoulder or neck and it blows ass

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  • FlarneFlarne Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I refuse to grow old. Hoping for de-aging treatments becoming a thing in my lifetime. Or put me in a robot body, whatever.

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  • LabelLabel Registered User regular
    edited April 10
    I have spent the last week in and out of the hospital, being the caretaker of my dad. He is seemed to have a mental episode, and we are now doing the early stages of figuring out how to take care of things if he's no longer capable.

    This whole time, I am nearly forty with fast-dwindling hope for ever having relationships of my own, and the question that will not leave the back of my mind is "Who is going to do this stuff for me, when I am his age?"


    it has been...

    grand

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