So to sum up me in a nutshell, I'm a socially repressed CompSci nerd in uni, took a lot of crap in school, but had a good close family to help me through a lot of it, although I feel it all left its mark. Never had a girlfriend, and never have many friends - in fact I have a tendency to alienate a lot of my friends.
So I realised a few months ago that I'm probably depressed and not doing much about it (actually, I have some of the threads in this forum to thank for that), so I'm trying something different this semester. I joined two clubs - a comedy club run by the arts department so I can do an improv workshop with them and another comedy-esque club run by the CS department. I also joined a gym, but I stopped going after a few months (mostly because it's frighteningly boring, and also because of travelling logistics, what with carrying gym clothes and all) Oh and I took a Psych course, mostly to meet new people other than the standoffish as hell and also already firmly-entrenched-in-groups CS crowd (CS == Computer Science, for those that didn't catch that)
The problem is with my existing friends, is that most of them are from my high school, a group of people I stubbornly hold on to, even though we only see each other at birthday parties and the like, they're the group of friends I hang out with most, on non-educational matters. This is unfortunate, because they prioritise their education (and understandably for many, uni friends and girlfriends) over hanging out (I get "I gotta study for a test", but it gets annoying when they use the same excuse no matter what time of the year). I've only made a half dozen friends in uni and I haven't really connected with them, in fact, I'm not sure I like them at all. This is why I'm desperately looking for new people.
I guess I'm getting cold feet. Are these steps in the right direction? Am I doing too many things at once? Is there something I could be doing better?
tl;dr My life sucks and I'm trying to make it better, but don't know how and am hence throwing the kitchen sink at the problem.
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