the virus doesn't leave your system, it just gets locked down in the ganglia of your spine
where it stays, kept in check by your immune system
this protects you from ever getting chicken pox again BUT if something happens to your immune system later in life (such as it did with me) then the virus gets loose and proceeds to wreck up the place arrrrooooooooo
so then you get the shingles
shingles is very contagious, but with a proviso: you can't catch the shingles, but if someone has the shingles and you've never had chicken pox, you can catch chicken pox.
there are people i work with who have not had chicken pox, so, i am not allowed to come into work until i've been cleared by a doctor, which won't happen until at least july 9th.
so instead i am going to sit the next two weeks on unemployment bangin' back opiods and hoping to god i don't develop an addiction to this stuff
the outbreak i am currently experiencing will likely pass in a week or two
but the virus will never leave my system ever and if something tanks my immune system like it did before then whoooosh shingles are back
and every time you get em it increases the chance that you will get them again
OH!
and also there is this thing called postherpetic neuralgia that is basically permanent nerve damage and i may have to deal with chronic pain for the rest of my life because of this
which may lead to permanently being on hydromorphone or something similar
hooray because it's not like i used to have a drug problem and spent a year in rehab or anything whooooo
between this and zonky thread this is just a poor night
the zonky thread made me cry a little
for totally self-centered reasons and if that makes me a prick i am sorry
i wasn't crying for zonky, i don't really mourn people, what with my brain being screwy and all
no it's that reading that thread and everyone being affected by the dude's life and then his passing it reminded of the thing i've been trying to put in the back of my mind for the past week, which is that my own death is quite likely imminent and i have no idea how much time i have left and i am terrifed and depressed and i am worried about the people i leave behind my fiancee especially
on the upside i think it is a sign that i am developing a better ability to empathize with others which is cool because i've been trying real hard at that for years
but on the downside empathy for others hurts i don't know how you people don't get driven insane by these things
but on the downside empathy for others hurts i don't know how you people don't get driven insane by these things
Pony the only thing I can tell you is that you have to take the good with the bad, I mean, getting engaged was a pretty neat experience right?
yeah you know what's not a pretty neat experience
allowing her to get close to me and trust me and let herself love me just for me to turn around and die
because you know that will do wonders for her self esteem and ability to care about anyone ever again
part of me wants to break up with her right now just because i am afraid that if i don't, when i croak within the next few months it's going to destroy her
i love her so much i want to save her that pain even if it hurts her now
but then i don't, because i don't want to give up hope that i ain't gonna croak and ultimately i can't stand the idea of choosing to hurt her
this is the new comic thread not the pony whines like a little bitch thread
let us move on
i do believe it is time for me to pop more drugs
Pony on
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edited June 2008
Pony look at it this way, if you die in the next few months (and I obviously hope you don't) regardless those few months may be the happiest you will spend with her, you don't really know. Or you will be hopefully fine in a few months and wont be with her in a few months because you foolishly broke up with her.
Point is that half the point of having feelings is taking risks for the rewards.
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really hope it gets better for you soon Pony
that sounds horrible
absolutely terrible
i have pleurisy and the shingles and recurring prostatitis
my body is falling apart
i may in fact be dying
nooooo
mammality? whalality?
beastiality?
do not die
crap man seriously that is not a thing to do
if both you and zonky die in the same month that would be fucking shit
if both you and zonky die in the same decade that would be fucking shit
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basically if you ever have had chicken pox
the virus doesn't leave your system, it just gets locked down in the ganglia of your spine
where it stays, kept in check by your immune system
this protects you from ever getting chicken pox again BUT if something happens to your immune system later in life (such as it did with me) then the virus gets loose and proceeds to wreck up the place arrrrooooooooo
so then you get the shingles
shingles is very contagious, but with a proviso: you can't catch the shingles, but if someone has the shingles and you've never had chicken pox, you can catch chicken pox.
there are people i work with who have not had chicken pox, so, i am not allowed to come into work until i've been cleared by a doctor, which won't happen until at least july 9th.
so instead i am going to sit the next two weeks on unemployment bangin' back opiods and hoping to god i don't develop an addiction to this stuff
Satans..... hints.....
you never seem to be able to catch a break for very long
Bel, you really need to start reading Dr McNinja if you haven't already.
yes and no
the outbreak i am currently experiencing will likely pass in a week or two
but the virus will never leave my system ever and if something tanks my immune system like it did before then whoooosh shingles are back
and every time you get em it increases the chance that you will get them again
OH!
and also there is this thing called postherpetic neuralgia that is basically permanent nerve damage and i may have to deal with chronic pain for the rest of my life because of this
which may lead to permanently being on hydromorphone or something similar
hooray because it's not like i used to have a drug problem and spent a year in rehab or anything whooooo
between this and zonky thread this is just a poor night
i did for a while, and then i fell out of the habit, so i am way way behind. some glorious day i will sit down and read it all over again.
i am way too flighty right now.
the zonky thread made me cry a little
for totally self-centered reasons and if that makes me a prick i am sorry
i wasn't crying for zonky, i don't really mourn people, what with my brain being screwy and all
no it's that reading that thread and everyone being affected by the dude's life and then his passing it reminded of the thing i've been trying to put in the back of my mind for the past week, which is that my own death is quite likely imminent and i have no idea how much time i have left and i am terrifed and depressed and i am worried about the people i leave behind my fiancee especially
on the upside i think it is a sign that i am developing a better ability to empathize with others which is cool because i've been trying real hard at that for years
but on the downside empathy for others hurts i don't know how you people don't get driven insane by these things
i guess!
Pony the only thing I can tell you is that you have to take the good with the bad, I mean, getting engaged was a pretty neat experience right?
Satans..... hints.....
also you cannot die until you write a book about your life
the world needs to know your story
yeah you know what's not a pretty neat experience
allowing her to get close to me and trust me and let herself love me just for me to turn around and die
because you know that will do wonders for her self esteem and ability to care about anyone ever again
part of me wants to break up with her right now just because i am afraid that if i don't, when i croak within the next few months it's going to destroy her
i love her so much i want to save her that pain even if it hurts her now
but then i don't, because i don't want to give up hope that i ain't gonna croak and ultimately i can't stand the idea of choosing to hurt her
either have a terrible life until you maybe die who knows when
or try to enjoy however much time you have left
I'm pretty sure this lady has a good idea of what she's gotten into with you
look at me abloo bloo ing all over this thread
this is the new comic thread not the pony whines like a little bitch thread
let us move on
i do believe it is time for me to pop more drugs
Point is that half the point of having feelings is taking risks for the rewards.
Satans..... hints.....
that panel 3 sure is funny huh guys
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:shock:
Satans..... hints.....
(I am a little also)
Satans..... hints.....