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Getting dumber

RazielRaziel Registered User regular
edited April 2009 in Help / Advice Forum
I'm kind of in a bind here.

See, I've been out of school for about five years now. Didn't actually finish my journalism degree, but I got a job working for a small-town newspaper in my last semester. That turned out to be a big mistake. I got isolated, frustrated with the quality of the reporting, intimidated by the close-knit social structure of the town, and eventually fell into a pretty serious depression.

I spent the next few years bouncing around from job to job, not really going anywhere. Quit writing altogether, quit thinking, started drinking more. Just basically retreating into some ridiculous hole of self-pity.

These days, my confidence is shot, I have no faith in my intellectual abilities, and I'm paralyzed by the thought of putting any element of myself into my work.

It all kind of came to a head today. A friend of mine asked my input on an art history essay she's writing. Just bouncing some ideas off me and stuff, not cheating off me or anything. After a valiant effort, I felt like a simpleton. My ideas felt muddled, my thoughts came slowly, and I was pretty much unable to express myself clearly. As it stands I don't know if this post is just coming across as gibberish.

At any rate, I'm feeling pretty dumb these days. I've been thinking of going back to school, but I'm not sure I can hack it.

So, what can I do to get my confidence back? I used to be a pretty bright guy, and the thought that my brain is drying up is really bumming me out.

So, tl;dr, I swear I'm getting dumber by the day. How do I get my intellectual confidence back?

Read the mad blog-rantings of a manic hack writer here.

Thank you, Rubacava!
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  • troublebrewingtroublebrewing Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    don't feel bad man. I can relate to your story in a lot of ways.

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  • TychoCelchuuuTychoCelchuuu PIGEON Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Read books.

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  • underdonkunderdonk __BANNED USERS regular
    edited April 2009
    How old are you? I noticed, starting about 29, that I started to slow down a bit. Research recently released noted significant aging changes in the brain start to occur at 27. Maybe you're just getting older and feeling less "sharp" than in your younger years?

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  • ThylacineThylacine Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Art history has a way of making people feel dumb anyway sometimes. I've taken 5 semesters of it, and finally feel like I have the swing of it with contemporary art history.

    Also, you're probably freaking out because you hold yourself to a higher standard than the average person. I will get stressed out about essays and classes and worry about my grades. I'll end up with an A on my paper, and my friend who was all "I've got this nailed" will get a C or something. It's all relative.

    The problem is, the more you learn...the more you realize you don't know and it can shake your confidence. Don't worry, just go back and you'll do fine. Things will come back to you faster than you think.

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  • RazielRaziel Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Just turned 25 last month. I guess things do slow down.

    I mean, you guys are right and I thank you for the reasoned responses. I mean, to go from high school honour student and all around bright kid to this is simply terrifying.

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    Read the mad blog-rantings of a manic hack writer here.

    Thank you, Rubacava!
  • Santa ClaustrophobiaSanta Claustrophobia Ho Ho Ho Disconnecting from Xbox LIVERegistered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Read books.

    This, basically. Read stuff, write stuff, etc. As you get older, you'll simply begin losing skills you don't use at faster rates. Drinking or drugs won't necessarily help with retention either. Especially in excess.

    And as Thylacine says, it's probably all relative. I used to be an honors student when I was younger and I've forgotten plenty of things. I'm still usually in the upper percentile of the people I'm around on a daily basis.

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  • RingoRingo He/Him a distinct lack of substanceRegistered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Take a class. Something that interests you. You'll get your mind back into shape without the overload of a full school schedule.

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  • PlatyPlaty Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    #3
    Read books.
    All kinds of books.

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  • Locust76Locust76 Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    "Read books" is not a good answer. Sorry, bookfans, but lots of books are purely entertainment. In OP's case, it would be like watching TV... just mindless processing of input.

    What you SHOULD do is learn something that interests you. You'll have the opportunity to "read books," but the difference will be that you will want to think critically, process and store the information you're reading.

    I was pretty much in the same boat. I left college, joined the military and felt just stupid... but when I started studying for my degree, I realized that the ability to be intelligent was still there, it was just dormant.

    Pick a subject that you think might be interesting and pick up some books or even DVDs on the subject. Dive into the information and attempt to bring out as much as you can. You'll even be better than you were before, because you want to learn.

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  • RazielRaziel Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Oh yeah, I read.

    Past couple weeks I've gone through Christopher Moore's new book, a collection of Canadian journalist Gwynne Dyer's articles, finally read The Naked Ape. So I mean, I'm pretty diverse with my reading. Even more so lately as I try to re-connect with my interests.

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    Read the mad blog-rantings of a manic hack writer here.

    Thank you, Rubacava!
  • HypatiaHypatia Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    I've found that playing Brain Age and doing the training every day actually does make me feel a lot more mentally agile. It definitely gives a little boost in terms of confidence and it's easy to do -- not that I've been doing it lately, but I keep saying to myself, "Remember how much sharper you feel when you do it for a few days? You need to get back on the wagon!" :D

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  • ChalkbotChalkbot Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Brain Age really works? I've kind of been feeling the same as the OP lately (I'm 27) and am actively seeking ways to turn it around. I've almost eliminated caffeine from my diet, and I'm trying to eat healthier as I've been told that a lot of foods (processed, sugars, etc.) can slow or muddle your thinking. I felt smart in highschool, despite a report card full of C's and D's (depression, boredom) I scored 155 on an IQ test. Now I feel like I'd be very lucky to score 120. I always imagine my highschool self calling me a dumbass.

    I've been starting all kinds of projects to learn new things, but for the most part I haven't had the motivation, concentration, or focus to finish any of them. I'll work on a project for maybe 1/2 hour then decide I'd rather be playing computer games... that don't require me to figure something out. My brain is lazy!!

    I'm glad someone thought to post this thread, my brain would have never thought of it.

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  • The Crowing OneThe Crowing One Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Read lots of Books.

    Then talk about them with other people. Meetup.com comes to mind.

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  • Santa ClaustrophobiaSanta Claustrophobia Ho Ho Ho Disconnecting from Xbox LIVERegistered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Locust76 wrote: »
    "Read books" is not a good answer. Sorry, bookfans, but lots of books are purely entertainment. In OP's case, it would be like watching TV... just mindless processing of input.

    This is wrong. Reading stimulates the mind into comprehending the words and the meanings behind them. It isn't mindless processing of input unless you're just looking at the words on the page without actually reading them. Too bad that there is some actual corroboration on this, eh?

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  • LurkLurk Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Do something that interests you. I don't think you are getting dumber but instead a lack a creative output. You wanted to get a Journalism degree, go write something. Maybe start a blog for yourself. Accomplish something to get more confidence in your abilities.

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  • durandal4532durandal4532 Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Read lots of Books.

    Then talk about them with other people. Meetup.com comes to mind.
    Lots and lots. Lay science and Sci-Fi are what make me feel smart, but I'm pretty sure anything likely to use big ol' fancy words instead of trashy grunts will make you feel better. Short story collections are best for fiction in my opinion. Part of why I love SF is that usually, you can get one idea per story minimum. Sure, they may not be useful, but the more ideas you have in your head the smarter you get to be.

    And of course, start doing a thing. Something that you're decent at, but want to be good at. Do that, tell people about it, get roundly praised and then probably bed beautiful women.

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  • HypatiaHypatia Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Chalkbot wrote: »
    Brain Age really works?

    I don't know about anyone else but it works for me, like I said I find that my mind feels more agile after I've been keeping at it for 4-7 days. Oddly enough, it also makes coding seem a lot easier and I say that as someone who doesn't enjoy coding.

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  • FellhandFellhand Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    Raziel wrote: »
    Just turned 25 last month. I guess things do slow down.

    I mean, you guys are right and I thank you for the reasoned responses. I mean, to go from high school honour student and all around bright kid to this is simply terrifying.

    Find a complex hobby that interests you. Iv'e decided to try to build a telescope this summer. Two years ago I taught myself how to homebrew. If things come together a little better I may do a small film. Just find something that interests you (even mildly) and explore it. In particular, read all about it. Read the news and keep up on current events and discoveries too.

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  • Grid SystemGrid System Registered User regular
    edited April 2009
    How are you treating yourself physically? Are you eating and sleeping well? Exercising? Don't discount the effect that your body has on your mind.

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