So I woke up at the house around seven or eight this morning and, at first, couldn't remember who I was. Not that unusual, generally it takes me a few minutes to put things together (like the fact that I graduated high school four years ago, so no, I don't need to be stressed out about a French test tomorrow). Eventually, I was able to pull together my memories; I knew my name, where I was, what day it was; but I felt very detached from this info, like I knew the words, but didn't feel any real connection with them, and I couldn't shake the feeling that there was someone else, hiding in the corners of my brain, and that my life got flipped-turned upside down.
Obviously, I started freaking out, assuming I'd had some severe mental breakdown. Now, obviously I'm familiar with the phrase "You're not going insane if you think you're going insane," but clearly something was wrong with my head, and if I thought 'Man forget it' - I could be going insane.
I got in one little fight, ran into the bathroom and splashed water on my face, trying to shake this fog and detachment. I pull out my droid and do a google search for "I feel like there's someone else in my head" (without quotes) and rather than the first few results being health related, it's a bunch of song lyrics and some fresh college kid complaining about how a couple of guys, who were up to no good, started making trouble in my neighborhood - they never had to study in high school, but now that they're in college they have to actually put in an effort and they're still struggling and having trouble concentrating on studying since they've never done it before (Oh noes, I'm sure that hasn't happened to most people who didn't really study in high school). Clearly, Google had let me down, so I came to the forums and considered making a thread in HA, as I'm sure there were some people on the West Coast still up, not to mention people in other countries. However, considering that I'm still living in my parents' house for the next three weeks and both of my parents are doctors, I figured a direct approach might be better.
I got up, woke up my parents (who are awesome since they didn't complain about it once) and described how I was freaking out in my head. They both agreed that it's probably an anxiety attack, and that I had none of the signs of schizophrenia. My mom asks me if I want to go to the hospital, but tells me that she once went to the hospital for a panic attack and there really wasn't anything they could do for it, you just had to wait it out (although she did give me some pill that helps with panic attacks). They both stayed up with me for an hour, over which time I calmed down, though I still wasn't feeling back to normal, still felt a little detached from my memories. My mom got scared, she said 'You're movin' with your auntie and uncle in Bel Air'. I whistled for a cab and when it came near, the license plate said fresh and it had dice in the mirror.
Now, if anything I can say is that this cab was rare but I thought 'Man forget it, yo home to Bel Air on a scale of serious brain problems from 1-10, panic attacks are probably about a two, so poor me. There are plenty of people (including many on this forum) with worse stuff going on in their heads. Also, this strikes me as a really good excuse to not do drugs, because if I panic from my head being foggy at 4 in the morning, I don't even want to know how I would react to the stuff drugs can do to me.
I saw The King's Speech last week and it was great
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edited January 2011
Also I get panic attacks pretty bad if there's a chance people will be focusing on me or if I am not incredibly well versed or practiced in something I am about to do
I use to have massive anxiety as well, but after seeing my sister who had it much worse than me, it just went away when I realized how relatively good my brain is.
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edited January 2011
every now and then i get a slight pain in the back right or back left of my head, when this happens i usually have some weird stuff going on with one of my eyes.
about 6 months ago the entire right side of my face felt numb for about 30 minutes, though i could still move all the muscles.
other than that its just the general every few months completely losing any train of thought in the middle of a sentence and not really understanding what is going on. but that's more akin to 'out of body experience' type of feeling than anything else.
Kochikens. I just checked out that that is on wikipedia. Can you not smell anything at all?
Nothin'.
It's more common than you think, there's probably a few more people here that can't, it's just not something you'd ever notice unless they told you. We often pretend to smell in normal conversation just to avoid the hour long conversation.
I'm in a professional writing program and there are a ton of young writers who are convinced they are going to be the next Hunter S. Thompson. So there's parties where people do coke, because a lot of writers did drugs.
Also a lot of people are obsessed with mental illness and think that is the ultimate key for some profoundly deep writing.
So one girl was showing off her (very low dosage of) antidepressants really proudly.
I wanted to punch her in the face
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I'm in a professional writing program and there are a ton of young writers who are convinced they are going to be the next Hunter S. Thompson. So there's parties where people do coke, because a lot of writers did drugs.
Also a lot of people are obsessed with mental illness and think that is the ultimate key for some profoundly deep writing.
So one girl was showing off her (very low dosage of) antidepressants really proudly.
I wanted to punch her in the face
That would drive me mad.
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edited January 2011
I've had depression issues in the past, some social anxiety, which used to be a lot worse than it is now, and sometimes I wonder if I have some minor bi-polar issues but other than that, I'm awesome.
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WeaverWho are you?What do you want?Registered Userregular
edited January 2011
I've been doing pretty good off of meds but I started thinking about going back on a few days ago. It'd be nice to have wider emotional range than slight elation - flat - mild annoyance
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Zonugal(He/Him) The Holiday ArmadilloI'm Santa's representative for all the southern states. And Mexico!Registered Userregular
edited January 2011
I used to get panic attacks when I was really younger.
Spelling Bees were the worst.
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I'm in a professional writing program and there are a ton of young writers who are convinced they are going to be the next Hunter S. Thompson. So there's parties where people do coke, because a lot of writers did drugs.
Also a lot of people are obsessed with mental illness and think that is the ultimate key for some profoundly deep writing.
So one girl was showing off her (very low dosage of) antidepressants really proudly.
I wanted to punch her in the face
The S. Thompson people, tell them they ain't shit until they get their own sports column
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Raijin QuickfootI'm your Huckleberry YOU'RE NO DAISYRegistered User, ClubPAregular
edited January 2011
My social anxiety used to be pretty bad but I never wanted to get on meds. I don't have a problem with people who use them but I never felt they were for me.
My Dad was a serious drug addict and alcohol so I'm really weird about becoming dependent on anything because of this so I worked through the social anxiety on my own.
I'm still not great around people I don't know and large groups but I'm a hell of a lot better than I used to be.
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WeaverWho are you?What do you want?Registered Userregular
Most everything I think is related to my severe depression to the point of suicidal tendencies and attempts.
I've even gained a sorta nervous tick from trying to overdose once.
Getting better, but not great yet. Suck because I used to be an A student, and now I'm in danger of going back on probation until I graduate because I can't give a shit or get anything done if I'm not well medicated.
Just run of the mill anxiety and depression here. Currently trying the forced optimism and going to the gym instead of medication method. We'll see where I'm at in a couple of months.
I saw The King's Speech last week and it was great
I saw Green Hornet last night, quite enjoyable. But then I was feeling the fake buttered popcorn at 4, all "great, i'm freaking out and feel like I'm gonna puke."
Manic depressive with violent compulsive tendencies and PTSD from my early childhood in tha hizzzzouse!
I have been in the service industry so long that I now look at most people as morons because they are incapable of reading a menu, a sign pointing them to the bathroom or one that says 'employees only.'
I seethe at most human interaction most days; other days, I remember the simple life as a jarhead when people respected the fact that you had ready access to firearms.
Ive been having memory problems lately. Mostly little stuff like I lost my winter hat and didnt think to check the coat pocket for a week or two which sucked. And not remembering that I took a day off last week to go to a funeral. I think its just part of getting older though.
Also depression and possibly ADD. Though the medication has done wonders for me. (on lexapro just like mike and jerry)
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(actually I'm mostly normal nowadays)
Yes, always wanted to be black.
Last night there were radishes and lettuce
It was cold
whats a bummer
the stutter or the no smell
i mean it's not so bad since it's congenital, so you don't know what you're missing
does it affect your sense of taste as well?
I thought that said you had amnesia and then I read your first sentence and thought you made a clever joke
even farts
especially farts
the only time it's annoying is when I can't tell if food has gone bad, or when my toast always burns.
about 6 months ago the entire right side of my face felt numb for about 30 minutes, though i could still move all the muscles.
other than that its just the general every few months completely losing any train of thought in the middle of a sentence and not really understanding what is going on. but that's more akin to 'out of body experience' type of feeling than anything else.
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Nothin'.
It's more common than you think, there's probably a few more people here that can't, it's just not something you'd ever notice unless they told you. We often pretend to smell in normal conversation just to avoid the hour long conversation.
Also a lot of people are obsessed with mental illness and think that is the ultimate key for some profoundly deep writing.
So one girl was showing off her (very low dosage of) antidepressants really proudly.
I wanted to punch her in the face
Hey stop talking about me.
Also got depressions. Bad.
all
i've read fear and loathing in las vegas and seen the movie look i smoke cigarettes nyoro~~~n
That would drive me mad.
Spelling Bees were the worst.
The S. Thompson people, tell them they ain't shit until they get their own sports column
My Dad was a serious drug addict and alcohol so I'm really weird about becoming dependent on anything because of this so I worked through the social anxiety on my own.
I'm still not great around people I don't know and large groups but I'm a hell of a lot better than I used to be.
my very first day of school I panicked so bad I tried to climb the wall to get away
Most everything I think is related to my severe depression to the point of suicidal tendencies and attempts.
I've even gained a sorta nervous tick from trying to overdose once.
Getting better, but not great yet. Suck because I used to be an A student, and now I'm in danger of going back on probation until I graduate because I can't give a shit or get anything done if I'm not well medicated.
Just run of the mill anxiety and depression here. Currently trying the forced optimism and going to the gym instead of medication method. We'll see where I'm at in a couple of months.
I saw Green Hornet last night, quite enjoyable. But then I was feeling the fake buttered popcorn at 4, all "great, i'm freaking out and feel like I'm gonna puke."
Edit: Fuck you Droid!
I have been in the service industry so long that I now look at most people as morons because they are incapable of reading a menu, a sign pointing them to the bathroom or one that says 'employees only.'
I seethe at most human interaction most days; other days, I remember the simple life as a jarhead when people respected the fact that you had ready access to firearms.
Also depression and possibly ADD. Though the medication has done wonders for me. (on lexapro just like mike and jerry)
Oh Weaver...