When I turned 30 I had a real come-to-Jesus moment and took a hard look at myself. I looked at how I treated people and interacted with them.
I was a grown man trying desperately to always be the winner. And that is a very immature thing. Once I stepped back and accepted that simple fact, I think I became a far easier person to be around.
Still an arrogant cunt. But at least I'm not as obnoxious about it. I'd like to think the years since have shown me improving.
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I am 6 years older than my uni classmates and they just don't get how I don't want to go out and get wrecked each night like they do. There's a big difference between 18 and 24 sometimes.
There are now teenagers that were born after the millenium.
Teenagers
I think 13 is preteen, though.
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Theodore Flooseveltproud parent of eight beautiful girls and shalmelodorne (which is currently being ruled by a woman (awesome role model for my daughters)) #dornedadRegistered Userregular
Theodore Flooseveltproud parent of eight beautiful girls and shalmelodorne (which is currently being ruled by a woman (awesome role model for my daughters)) #dornedadRegistered Userregular
There are kids for whom Halo is like their first FPS
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No goldeneye? No PD?? No Quake????
That's cute.
Wolfenstein.
Nah bro, I'm right there with you
My first FPS's were Wolfenstein and Doom on SNES, though I mostly watched my older friend play them and (in Doom's case) played air guitar to the sick soundtrack
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True story; I played Wolfenstein 3D when I was 6 and had no idea what a Nazi was. I was genuinely surprised to find out Hitler wasn't a mecha death machine, just a bitter old crazy person.
I think about Naporeon telling me to never change, some years ago. As you get older, understand your convictions as best you can. It may very well be what keeps you alive.
Another thing I think about is the importance of love and family. I learned my grandfather has terminal lung cancer, and is now blind, shitting and pissing himself. After coming out, I was made aware the grandparents were kept in the dark, which made sense.
My father has had great difficulty coming to terms with his father's very soon and likely very painful death.
I reached out to dad, and reached out to grandma.
She asked me in great detail how I was living, and second guessed every decision I made leaving the state of Michigan, away from the safety net of the family.
She said I could say anything to her, and I mentioned the suicide attempts of Michigan, and enlisting the aid of mental health services in Washington, not mentioning the transition. Don't ever think of suicide, you're not just hurting yourself, she'd say.
I talked about my progress and the downturn and how it affected me at my income level. You've got to help yourself. Nobody else will.
She asked again, "why Washington" again. I'd had about enough of all the bullshit, I was ready to give the old bitch a heart attack and tell her everything. She said, it was okay, she didn't need to know everything and there was some things only my ma and dad and therapist needed to know. She told me she loved me, and "you can share anything with me, Matthew".
The diseased nature of the loving usage of helping myself as nobody will struck a chord. It was disgusting, but it was true. If I'm cross, or quick to anger with what I see you say, I speak plainly and without honey'd poison. My life inherently involves compromising truth and love, and people will die in my lifetime who call me family, that will never accept me as I am. It marks every bit of my being and I still try to live, however kneecapped.
Anya before you play Halo 9: Master Chief's Hawaiian Adventure, you're going to play Icewind Dale RIGHT NOW, missy
I refuse to let my son play Assassin's Creed 8: Ninja Pirate Viking Spartan Centurion Electric DNA-memories-aloo unless he successfully completes the wind tunnel jetski level of Battletoads on NES.
When and if I have children they're going to be introduced to Nintendo games around the same time as me - Kirby fairly early, first Zelda in the 10-year range when I think they'll be able to really get a handle on it
Sometimes I don't think I want to have kids, even though I love the idea of being a father
I don't mind the process of getting older. Getting weaker doesn't bother me - I'm only 25 and will continue getting swoler and stronger for years - but there's one thing
Sometimes when I get impassioned about something, or angry, or cut someone off, I can hear my father in my voice. Sometimes my mother.
I do not want to become my parents. In all my life I've had only a few immutable goals, but one of them has always been to be more than my parents, in deed and in presentation
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Theodore Flooseveltproud parent of eight beautiful girls and shalmelodorne (which is currently being ruled by a woman (awesome role model for my daughters)) #dornedadRegistered Userregular
I'm surprised whenever anyone mentions their skills in video gaming have declined from their childhood
games that were insurmountable for me as a kid I can just obliterate in a couple hours nowadays
I think the bigger hands help
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Theodore Flooseveltproud parent of eight beautiful girls and shalmelodorne (which is currently being ruled by a woman (awesome role model for my daughters)) #dornedadRegistered Userregular
I am 6 years older than my uni classmates and they just don't get how I don't want to go out and get wrecked each night like they do. There's a big difference between 18 and 24 sometimes.
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I was a grown man trying desperately to always be the winner. And that is a very immature thing. Once I stepped back and accepted that simple fact, I think I became a far easier person to be around.
Still an arrogant cunt. But at least I'm not as obnoxious about it. I'd like to think the years since have shown me improving.
I'm pretty sure it's still just 6.
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its one of those things you do nearly every day of your entire life
and its remarkable how often you do it wrong.
seriously, i sleep wrong all the time
PARKER, YOU'RE FIRED! <-- My comic book podcast! Satan look here!
I was like ohhh nooo
Dunno what that is about.
Teenagers
PSN- AHermano
and I'm like
what about Catacomb Abyss MOTHERFUCKER
(granted Catacomb Abyss was even before my time but c'mon)
no, shut up, what are you dooooiiiiiiing
Hi
I think 13 is preteen, though.
The fact that "teen" is in the name thirteen means you are incorrect.
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like Baldur's Gate is pretty archaic now
how is she going to look at it in like 10 years when she's able to grasp some of the concepts of it
"Shut up dad I'm going to play Baldur's Gate: Reloaded: Remix: Deluxe Edition"
PSN- AHermano
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No goldeneye? No PD?? No Quake????
Doom was also okay.
Team Fortress 2 is forever.
Gettin old, man
Gettin old
PSN- AHermano
Okay wait, no, goldeneye was right before Halo
Halo was the first game I ever completed
That's cute.
Wolfenstein.
Satans..... hints.....
You and me, Blake.
You and me.
And then she'll play Dragon Age 5: The Grey Warden's Revengining. Now with DLC season passes, online multiplayer and sex scene censorship disable.
edit: 9? 8?
year old and I can't today.
Nah bro, I'm right there with you
My first FPS's were Wolfenstein and Doom on SNES, though I mostly watched my older friend play them and (in Doom's case) played air guitar to the sick soundtrack
I did beat Wolfenstein 3D on the hardest difficulty a few years back, though. So that's cool!
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Another thing I think about is the importance of love and family. I learned my grandfather has terminal lung cancer, and is now blind, shitting and pissing himself. After coming out, I was made aware the grandparents were kept in the dark, which made sense.
My father has had great difficulty coming to terms with his father's very soon and likely very painful death.
I reached out to dad, and reached out to grandma.
She asked me in great detail how I was living, and second guessed every decision I made leaving the state of Michigan, away from the safety net of the family.
She said I could say anything to her, and I mentioned the suicide attempts of Michigan, and enlisting the aid of mental health services in Washington, not mentioning the transition. Don't ever think of suicide, you're not just hurting yourself, she'd say.
I talked about my progress and the downturn and how it affected me at my income level. You've got to help yourself. Nobody else will.
She asked again, "why Washington" again. I'd had about enough of all the bullshit, I was ready to give the old bitch a heart attack and tell her everything. She said, it was okay, she didn't need to know everything and there was some things only my ma and dad and therapist needed to know. She told me she loved me, and "you can share anything with me, Matthew".
The diseased nature of the loving usage of helping myself as nobody will struck a chord. It was disgusting, but it was true. If I'm cross, or quick to anger with what I see you say, I speak plainly and without honey'd poison. My life inherently involves compromising truth and love, and people will die in my lifetime who call me family, that will never accept me as I am. It marks every bit of my being and I still try to live, however kneecapped.
I remember shareware
I refuse to let my son play Assassin's Creed 8: Ninja Pirate Viking Spartan Centurion Electric DNA-memories-aloo unless he successfully completes the wind tunnel jetski level of Battletoads on NES.
Secret Satan 2013 Wishlist
Sometimes I don't think I want to have kids, even though I love the idea of being a father
I don't mind the process of getting older. Getting weaker doesn't bother me - I'm only 25 and will continue getting swoler and stronger for years - but there's one thing
Sometimes when I get impassioned about something, or angry, or cut someone off, I can hear my father in my voice. Sometimes my mother.
I do not want to become my parents. In all my life I've had only a few immutable goals, but one of them has always been to be more than my parents, in deed and in presentation
games that were insurmountable for me as a kid I can just obliterate in a couple hours nowadays
I think the bigger hands help
oh shit shareware
I know those feels.
Younger me sucked at games and I've been getting better at them ever since
I find it difficult to imagine that I will get worse at them unless I start playing them a lot less. It's just a matter of practice