I feel alone. I feel like crying I just want someone to be there for me. I am insecure neurotic control freak.
Everyday I am surrounded with ppl. But these ppl don't actually care about me. I have friends. But I can't open up to them. They all have their own lives and besties.
What led me to finally get out of the fake smile thing which I always have and I am pretty sure that has become my normal face.
I was humiliated teased and left alone like always in a supposed fun friends trip.
I may be overreacting being a drama queen etc. But I am weak. I can only handle so much. These thought make me wanna sucide but I am too much of a coward to do it.
Each comment even just for fun makes me wanna cry nowadays. Thats how pathetic I am.
I just want to talk to someone. Pls understand and don't judge.