I know it's not fair for me to be complaining because comparatively my life isn't bad; I'm employed and making good money at my current job. But I feel very unhappy with the path my life has taken (read: no path) and I'm out of ideas as to what I'm doing wrong.
I have a BS and MS in mechanical engineering and I currently work as a contractor at my current position, where I've been for four years now. My pay is good but the benefits are bad (one week of paid vacation a year, for example), I am regularly made to feel expendable, and I don't like what I'm doing. I'm assigned to fire protection, which I despise, and is not what I was hired to do, but nobody else wanted it and as a contractor I got stuck with it (read: I mentioned that I had no interest in the field and was vaguely threatened with termination of my contract). No big deal, right? Just find another job! Well, I've been trying to do that, off and on, for two years now. I've sent out well over a hundred applications and had a grand total of 2 interviews, and never heard back from either. One of them was for an engineer 1 position at a different branch of my own company doing *basically* what I'm doing now, and I couldn't even get that! How the hell
does that happen?
All of this would at least be tolerable if my romantic life was... anything. But it's not. I haven't been on a date in years. I basically never meet women to interact with. There's few enough at my job, and I don't have any local single friends that would go out to bars with me or anything. I've tried online dating a couple of times but without success (just last week I ran out of women on Tinder). A few months back I started volunteering with a tutoring group to potentially meet some women, and I actually met somebody really cool, but I got shot down when I asked her out. Now I feel guilted into continuing to tutor even though I now have to share a room with the woman that rejected me and the whole thing has been a bust.
I feel like there's something wrong with me, something obvious that spending 10 minutes in a room with me is enough to make anyone want to stay as far away as possible. The evidence is piling up. I graduated five years ago, and in my head, I had a very different mindset for what my life would look like right now. I thought I'd be married or at least on the way to engaged, and at least a couple of promotions up or working for another company. I've spoken to my family (who are probably the only part of my life I'm happy with right now) and they're supportive, but they haven't been able to provide me with any useful advice other than "keep plugging along." I'm tired of plugging along. I've been spinning my wheels in the snow for four years. I want something to change. And I absolutely do not want to look back in another 5 years and be in the same place I am right now.
TL;DR: Nobody's buying what I'm selling in any respect, and I don't know what I'm doing wrong.