The only thing I've ever been 'officially' diagnosed with was ADD, although I suspect there may be other things such as mild Aspbergers or something related. The thing is, compared to my younger brother (who has moderate Autism) I look and act completely normal. So, unless I go through vigorous testing, I'll probably never know. Also, I get nervous very easily, and misinterpret social cues as threats (Boss didn't greet me with a smile in the morning ohmygodImintroubleandgoingtogetfired)
I also had a very scary bout of paranoia for a month and a half a few years back. I never knew what caused it, but my brain was convinced my parents were going to kill me while I was sleeping. My parents, instead of being supportive, and taking me to a professional immediately, were insulted when I confessed to having these thoughts. Thankfully, I've never had suicidal, or self-harming thoughts.
As I'm now a grown up, and live on my own, I've been living medication free for a while. I'm thinking I should take something for the ADD, but the side effects of Ritalin and Respiridol were horrendous on me. Have there been improvements on the ADD pill markets? I could really use some medication that doesn't give me an impending sense of doom (although I miss the appetite supressent portion, I could use something to curb my hunger)
I'm pretty much neurotic, don't leave the house only a few times a year. Work at home in the comic book industry, but would rather play games or sleep, wanting to get more into the graphic/web design side of things and maybe one day do sites and such for game and comicbook companies. I have learning to do to make that happen but lack the motivation. Also haven't had a girlfriend in like 5 years, every time I almost have one I just push her away because there is like one or two things that annoy me about her.
I've had a case of the sads for the last few months but I don't think it's serious brain problems. My on again-off again girlfriend died in a motorbike accident like four days after a guy at work died of a heart attack.
I guess I'm just still working my way through it and it'll take a while, but I just wanted to whinge about it for a little bit
Since things are wrapping up with my wife, and my son came out perfectly healthy, I'm feeling a lot less depressed, but the baseline depression is always there. Luckily I have things managed very well, ever since I got my ADD diagnosis and medication. I feel productive, things have improved tremendously with my wife and the little things I have to do every day no longer feel overwhelming. I'm also much more social, and don't feel nearly as misanthropic, but SE++ people had a lot to do with my believing that people can be generally good.
I'm graduating in December and even though I'm 30, I feel like I'm just now turning into a grown-up since I'm finally managing all the brain problems that are a result of my genetics/terrible childhood. But it's a good feeling. For a long time over the past 9 months, I was having a lot of unwanted thoughts about suicide. I don't have them anymore and am really positive about life.
I've had a case of the sads for the last few months but I don't think it's serious brain problems. My on again-off again girlfriend died in a motorbike accident like four days after a guy at work died of a heart attack.
I guess I'm just still working my way through it and it'll take a while, but I just wanted to whinge about it for a little bit
Tef, you are one of the most awesome people I know, and I'm not saying that lightly because I do know a lot of awesome people. Hang in there, man. I'm sorry to hear about your sadness, and I hope things improve for you sooner rather than later.
Despite some really dumb things, I am really enjoying The Walking Dead. So, if you like zombies and people getting eaten and stuff, I really recommend it.
Does it pick up in season 2, Josh? I watched the first season and I found it pretty hard going. It was like watching a daytime soap than the relationships of people dealing with a zombie apocolypse
Does it pick up in season 2, Josh? I watched the first season and I found it pretty hard going. It was like watching a daytime soap than the relationships of people dealing with a zombie apocolypse
I actually liked the first season best, then the second half of the second season, then the first half of the second season. So it may be that I gave you a bad recommendation.
Hello brain problems thread
I've been diagnosed with Avoidant personality disorder
It's gotten a lot better recently
I feel mostly happy and positive and can function in social situations such as going to class and hanging out with my friends
Stuff like asking out a girl or applying for a job still appear utterly impossible
Going to be spending this fine saturday night drinking alone and posting on them here forums :ar!
Hello brain problems thread
I've been diagnosed with Avoidant personality disorder
It's gotten a lot better recently
I feel mostly happy and positive and can function in social situations such as going to class and hanging out with my friends
Stuff like asking out a girl or applying for a job still appear utterly impossible
Going to be spending this fine saturday night drinking alone and posting on them here forums :ar!
That wiki makes that sound super familiar.
I dunno, I think my diagnosis is just anxiety disorder.
I am slipping back into a time in my life where I isolated myself completely from everything.
I don't want that because while I don't remember it well I don't think it was a good time.
Then again I've had way worse times since I started trying to change.
But I don't want to give up.
It just sucks that I am down to 2 friends, my brother is somehow more distant than ever, and I feel stuck even in my own body because I am now having trouble moving much due to a bad back...
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blixaphonicsthe french champagneRegistered Userregular
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i've had some major panic attacks since i was back in elementary school. at first i kinda thought it was either a) totally normal or b) something that only i had and was too afraid to ask a doctor about because they'd be like "we have something weird here! lock him up in the sanitarium for future study!" (yeah it sounds ridiculous, but come on, i was like 12 years old with a major anxiety issue, so it's not TOO hard to imagine.)
full-on lightheaded sensation, chest pains, almost like a heart attack or something - really fucked up my ability to, like, socialize beyond a very small group in my childhood. i was in the last year of junior high when i finally went to a doctor about it, and he put me on paxil (which i only took for like 2 weeks because SSRIs are POISON and it only made me feel shittier... besides, depression was never my issue, just panic attacks) and clonazepam (which i used for a year or so until i realized upon doing some research i didn't have generalized anxiety disorder, but rather a panic disorder - so i didn't need to be on some long-lasting benzodiazepine every day... made me cool with the anxiety stuff but useless in general). finally got put on a proper med for my specific disorder (alprazolam/xanax) and i only take it when i feel an attack coming on or am in a situation where i KNOW it's bound to happen. i'm scripted like 2mg a day but i only take .5 and that's when it's absolutely necessary.
a lot of people don't like benzos, due to their huge potential for abuse/addiction (not to mention seizure-causing withdrawals from large doses), but they enabled me to actually live my life, meet new people, get a girl, and generally progress with a career that i love (but would otherwise be unable to do, since i manage a large group of workers and that's not something that would be possible with panic attacks)... so, for me, they basically let me exist in a way that doesn't have me choking on fear/anxiety in anticipation of the day's events every time i wake up. even knowing i have the proper medication in case an attack hits me was enough for me to do things with more confidence, and not constantly be worrying about the potential for panic attacks.
i seriously disdain doctors that prescribe SSRIs for anxiety issues, since they tend to not do ANYTHING to handle the actual problem, and not to mention SSRIs have some really shitty side effects. of course, if you've got depression AND anxiety issues, it's understandable... but even on my shittiest of days, i've always been of good humour, so depression was never a problem for me.
so yeah, benzos rock and let people with serious anxiety issues live a normal life. just don't abuse 'em or take 'em if you don't need to, because then... well, it's bad news.
Hello brain problems thread
I've been diagnosed with Avoidant personality disorder
It's gotten a lot better recently
I feel mostly happy and positive and can function in social situations such as going to class and hanging out with my friends
Stuff like asking out a girl or applying for a job still appear utterly impossible
Going to be spending this fine saturday night drinking alone and posting on them here forums :ar!
That wiki makes that sound super familiar.
I dunno, I think my diagnosis is just anxiety disorder.
I thought I had regular old social anxiety
But my psychologist sent me to a specialist to examine if I could have asperger's or something
I didn't have any form of autism but all the tests pointed to avoidant personality disorder
So yay?
Hello brain problems thread
I've been diagnosed with Avoidant personality disorder
It's gotten a lot better recently
I feel mostly happy and positive and can function in social situations such as going to class and hanging out with my friends
Stuff like asking out a girl or applying for a job still appear utterly impossible
Going to be spending this fine saturday night drinking alone and posting on them here forums :ar!
That wiki makes that sound super familiar.
I dunno, I think my diagnosis is just anxiety disorder.
I thought I had regular old social anxiety
But my psychologist sent me to a specialist to examine if I could have asperger's or something
I didn't have any form of autism but all the tests pointed to avoidant personality disorder
So yay?
Yeah wish I could get these competence tests done that my doctor wants me to do.
Bluh, gotta find a place that will do them.
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BeastehTHAT WOULD NOTKILL DRACULARegistered Userregular
i probably have a lot of things wrong with my head but i feel a lot better not having them diagnosed
Yeah, and I also think 'Hey, I kinda like the way I tick tock. I'd rather not have someone taking an active interest in changing the tilt of the gears in my head.'
Having someone to cuddle and hold and physically show you love, is really dope.
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
Oh how I miss it.
I've got it now. Me and this girl are so much closer than we were before, she's even made plans for us to move back to oklahoma for me to finish school. She's more than likely not doing anything bad at all. But i get lost in my head sometimes and its all i can think about.
Its like im waiting for something to happen
Man I have opinions about this
oh i already know what i should do and what everyone thinks about it
its why i dont tell anyone i dont want to be pushed into a corner into something i really dont feel comfortable doing
and like i said, its probably so much better now and the person (i believe) she is wouldnt do that again
i know im taking a huge risk and she for sure doesnt deserve it, but i would rather live in happiness for an indefinite amount of time, than have to start from the ground up
im not good alone, its why ive been single for maybe 6 months in the last 7 years
Heh never had a relationship with a girl that wasn't just us being friends. Which is awesome don't get me wrong. I don't blame them its hard to want to be around some one who dislikes them self irrationally and has low self esteem.
But now its a goal for when the time is right. Because I still get sad about it but I have to change first damnit.
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I also had a very scary bout of paranoia for a month and a half a few years back. I never knew what caused it, but my brain was convinced my parents were going to kill me while I was sleeping. My parents, instead of being supportive, and taking me to a professional immediately, were insulted when I confessed to having these thoughts. Thankfully, I've never had suicidal, or self-harming thoughts.
As I'm now a grown up, and live on my own, I've been living medication free for a while. I'm thinking I should take something for the ADD, but the side effects of Ritalin and Respiridol were horrendous on me. Have there been improvements on the ADD pill markets? I could really use some medication that doesn't give me an impending sense of doom (although I miss the appetite supressent portion, I could use something to curb my hunger)
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Dear Satan.....
I guess I'm just still working my way through it and it'll take a while, but I just wanted to whinge about it for a little bit
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better
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I hate that I wake up stressed nowadays. I can't be foggy and relaxed, just goes straight for the tense muscles.
Annie's gonna be at work all day, hope I can find a way to keep busy. More ME3 probably.
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Since things are wrapping up with my wife, and my son came out perfectly healthy, I'm feeling a lot less depressed, but the baseline depression is always there. Luckily I have things managed very well, ever since I got my ADD diagnosis and medication. I feel productive, things have improved tremendously with my wife and the little things I have to do every day no longer feel overwhelming. I'm also much more social, and don't feel nearly as misanthropic, but SE++ people had a lot to do with my believing that people can be generally good.
I'm graduating in December and even though I'm 30, I feel like I'm just now turning into a grown-up since I'm finally managing all the brain problems that are a result of my genetics/terrible childhood. But it's a good feeling. For a long time over the past 9 months, I was having a lot of unwanted thoughts about suicide. I don't have them anymore and am really positive about life.
Tef, you are one of the most awesome people I know, and I'm not saying that lightly because I do know a lot of awesome people. Hang in there, man. I'm sorry to hear about your sadness, and I hope things improve for you sooner rather than later.
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better
bit.ly/2XQM1ke
It cheered me right up.
Satans..... hints.....
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better
bit.ly/2XQM1ke
The commercials make it look so bad!
Satans..... hints.....
Yeah it's not exactly high brow entertainment, but it's to put on and chill out to. I've only seen three episodes though
Blake nah it's called Grimm, which is different from Once Upon A Time
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better
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Vivienne is watching that and while bareable.
Is kinda girly.
Satans..... hints.....
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better
bit.ly/2XQM1ke
grimm always struck me as a low-rent Fringe but with fairy tales
This is very accurate. I was thinking the same thing myself.
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better
bit.ly/2XQM1ke
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better
bit.ly/2XQM1ke
My best friend doesn't seem concerned.
:?:
I actually liked the first season best, then the second half of the second season, then the first half of the second season. So it may be that I gave you a bad recommendation.
@Uriel -
I should probably go and talk to someone about it, huh
Even clawshrimpy got scared when I used to do that shit.
Grimm is getting better! The most interesting thing about both Fringe and Grimm is the overall plot, which I find interesting.
I've been diagnosed with Avoidant personality disorder
It's gotten a lot better recently
I feel mostly happy and positive and can function in social situations such as going to class and hanging out with my friends
Stuff like asking out a girl or applying for a job still appear utterly impossible
Going to be spending this fine saturday night drinking alone and posting on them here forums :ar!
That wiki makes that sound super familiar.
I dunno, I think my diagnosis is just anxiety disorder.
But I'm more bummed than ever and all my actions seem hollow and fake
I am slipping back into a time in my life where I isolated myself completely from everything.
I don't want that because while I don't remember it well I don't think it was a good time.
Then again I've had way worse times since I started trying to change.
But I don't want to give up.
It just sucks that I am down to 2 friends, my brother is somehow more distant than ever, and I feel stuck even in my own body because I am now having trouble moving much due to a bad back...
full-on lightheaded sensation, chest pains, almost like a heart attack or something - really fucked up my ability to, like, socialize beyond a very small group in my childhood. i was in the last year of junior high when i finally went to a doctor about it, and he put me on paxil (which i only took for like 2 weeks because SSRIs are POISON and it only made me feel shittier... besides, depression was never my issue, just panic attacks) and clonazepam (which i used for a year or so until i realized upon doing some research i didn't have generalized anxiety disorder, but rather a panic disorder - so i didn't need to be on some long-lasting benzodiazepine every day... made me cool with the anxiety stuff but useless in general). finally got put on a proper med for my specific disorder (alprazolam/xanax) and i only take it when i feel an attack coming on or am in a situation where i KNOW it's bound to happen. i'm scripted like 2mg a day but i only take .5 and that's when it's absolutely necessary.
a lot of people don't like benzos, due to their huge potential for abuse/addiction (not to mention seizure-causing withdrawals from large doses), but they enabled me to actually live my life, meet new people, get a girl, and generally progress with a career that i love (but would otherwise be unable to do, since i manage a large group of workers and that's not something that would be possible with panic attacks)... so, for me, they basically let me exist in a way that doesn't have me choking on fear/anxiety in anticipation of the day's events every time i wake up. even knowing i have the proper medication in case an attack hits me was enough for me to do things with more confidence, and not constantly be worrying about the potential for panic attacks.
i seriously disdain doctors that prescribe SSRIs for anxiety issues, since they tend to not do ANYTHING to handle the actual problem, and not to mention SSRIs have some really shitty side effects. of course, if you've got depression AND anxiety issues, it's understandable... but even on my shittiest of days, i've always been of good humour, so depression was never a problem for me.
so yeah, benzos rock and let people with serious anxiety issues live a normal life. just don't abuse 'em or take 'em if you don't need to, because then... well, it's bad news.
Its awful because I can't seem to find a girl that is up to my standards that doesnt flake out on me all the time.
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I thought I had regular old social anxiety
But my psychologist sent me to a specialist to examine if I could have asperger's or something
I didn't have any form of autism but all the tests pointed to avoidant personality disorder
So yay?
Bluh, gotta find a place that will do them.
my boo
the one thing i want to do more than anything with the money i get from my new job is save up + visit you
Yeah, and I also think 'Hey, I kinda like the way I tick tock. I'd rather not have someone taking an active interest in changing the tilt of the gears in my head.'
I will show you a good time
Also we will demoralize tito until he comes (lol) too
oh i already know what i should do and what everyone thinks about it
its why i dont tell anyone i dont want to be pushed into a corner into something i really dont feel comfortable doing
and like i said, its probably so much better now and the person (i believe) she is wouldnt do that again
i know im taking a huge risk and she for sure doesnt deserve it, but i would rather live in happiness for an indefinite amount of time, than have to start from the ground up
im not good alone, its why ive been single for maybe 6 months in the last 7 years
STEAM!
But now its a goal for when the time is right. Because I still get sad about it but I have to change first damnit.