I have two appointments, one on the 20th and one on the 28th. They are to see a therapist and a psychologist, respectively. I scheduled them weeks ago, and it's...hard. This was the first available instance of being able to see them, and I've waited and waited...no cancellations.
I'm going nuts. Having trouble seeing a point anymore--hardly want to get out of bed when I wake up in the morning, let alone go to the store, class, or cook food. It's actually getting to the point where I sit around hungry for half to most of a day, and then end up at a drive through, despite it taking longer to get to the drive through than it would to cook something, and being aware of that fact. When I go to the store, if I can actually make it there, I meander. I walk from aisle to aisle discrediting options inside my head--Spaghetti? Too much work and too many dishes. Cereal? Not fulfilling. Eggs? (I actually buy these...and then they sit in the fridge for gross amount of times, and then the trash)
I know I'm totally apathetic, and quite depressed. But, what the hell is the point? It's been weeks since school started and I feel totally alone. I'm on a first name basis with one other person, and given my last meeting with them, I'm quite sure that they're some kind of religious cultist.
What the hell do I do?
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When I was a junior in college, I had to do that because all I wanted to do was quit and go the fuck home. My mother talked me into seeing a school therapist. When I went in and said that, they all but told me I'd said the magic words. At that school, if you walk in saying you want to kill yourself or quit school, they have to hook you up with someone.
this is prolly the advice best any of us could give you.
Wonderful. I'll try it tomorrow.
I had to get a referrel to see the school psychiatrist but when I went to get the referrel I was a bad point. The person there said that if I needed to see someone right that moment then I could. So I agree with Ceres, just go to your school and say exactly that.
Good luck and I really do hope you feel better.
The advice in the thread is already great, I thought I'd just add this link because it has helped me in combination with other types of treatment. It's Australian-hosted but anyone can use it. I don't live in Australia myself.
On a side note there was a cancellation for one of the three psychologist's so I have an appointment to see one at 9:00 am today, and we'll see how that goes.