feeling Emo

Raziel078

So stuff going on in my life

Dad just had double bypass open heart surgery

I just quit smoking

I just failed all 5 classes I took last semester and am repeating 4 of them

I have 15 classes to go, still. I was supposed to be down to 10 left

Dad has been on dialysis (sp?) for about a year, as far as I know its a only a matter of time now

I just started working out seriously again.

I have been in college since 2002, I had a one year gap begining in 2004 and ending in 2005.

I have almost no will to go to school right now.

I have really close friends who would help me if I asked but its never been in my nature to ask for help. (In person, at least)

so anyways feeling emo, I'm not sure if I'm just wanting to bitch or what... just.. God I feel like I'm 10 minutes away from downloading a Good Charlotte album and putting on eyeshadow followed by boy kissing

CangoFett

So, a bunch of bad stuff is happening, and its making you sad?

Thats no emo, thats human.

As far as school, just get your priorities right, do what you gotta do, etc etc.

Theres no shame in asking for help, and any friend who would mock you over a legitimate request for help isnt a friend. So try that.

Raziel078

they wouldn't mock they would really and genuinely help to the best of their abilities but I've never asked for help before on anything. And a lot of people say that but I mean it. never in school, never in my personal life, never at work. Never in any kind of meaningful way at least.

Malkor

Then maybe you should learn to ask for help. You could start with a counselor if your school provides those types of services. Once you feel comfortable with that, then work on informing your friends of your problem. Building a good support network is important, don't think of it of 'just asking for help', its a process that builds relationships with people and makes connections you already have stronger.

PirateJon

Raziel078 wrote:

I just started working out seriously again.

Good. Keep at it. It'll help.

Black Ice

My really chill friend I've known since middle school brought up a serious issue in my junior year of high school. I never thought he had problems or anything; he never showed them. It didn't bother me to talk to him about it at all.

Your friends (if they are close friends as you say) will probably feel the same as I did and be willing to help..

4rch3nemy

Part of the problem could be not enough sleep and not eating properly, and since those weren't mentioned at all I'm just going to throw that out there.

Helped me to eat right.
Taking St. John's Wort also really helped me.
Not getting enough sunshine is really vital around this time of year when everyone's just cooped up inside. It has a dramatic effect on your happiness.

Good luck man, I'm manic so I know all about the downtimes (and a crappy few weeks is NOTHING in the long run.. I went through about 5 whole years of it). Just remember you can always ALWAYS pick yourself up and there's no such thing as too sad to keep going.

Hazzelhoff

Raziel078 wrote:

I just quit smoking

I just failed all 5 classes I took last semester and am repeating 4 of them

I have 15 classes to go, still. I was supposed to be down to 10 left

I have been in college since 2002, I had a one year gap begining in 2004 and ending in 2005.

I have almost no will to go to school right now.

these ones sound like they're related to a little something called world or warcraft. Please tell me they're not. If they are, you're not the only one feeling this pain.

Raziel078

No, I'm too poor to afford a gaming rig. See my other thread to see the crying shame that is my dead comp. In order

I quit smoking because a year ago I got incredibly sick and I thought I was going to die. I started to get sick again so I was like fuck it, not worth it to get that sick again. I'm so bored and stressed out. I don't have a gf and I don't drink that often or do drugs and you can only really jerk off so much before you hurt yourself so I'm constantly bored and stressed out

I dicked around for no good reason and am paying for it

I failed 5 classes, for reasons why see beforehand

2004 is when my dad started getting really sick

apparently I've been secretly emo this whole time

I don't eat right, I'm trying to do better. I'm an insomniac, late to bed early to rise. Its only about 1/2 the time though. The insomnia comes and goes.

Blake T

Dump on your friends. That's what they are there for. My old man's sick with fuck knows what and has become generally useless in terms of doing stuff, so lately I've been relying on them. And they hold it up and are being great friends, and it just feels good knowing that they are there to back me up.

Go visit your friends.