And then I buck the fuck up beacuse I annoy myself when I'm depressed.
This usually involves going to a kick ass band and sharing a picter with friends.
I tried going to a club this last weekend, which normally cheers me up for a bit. However, the DJ was pretty horrific who neither had any sort of mixing skills nor any sense of track flow. Also, he delved into horrible sub genera such as dub step and early 90's 'rave' sounding crap.
And Cass I also thought Effexor was complete shit when I was on it.
Edit: and Pony and whoever else has noticed this
What changed, if you don't mind sharing?
It wasn't a single thing, but a process that took years. It did start with me spending some time in a psych hospital for depression. That was good for temporarily removing me from the family and school problems that were a major contributing factor. They also did a good job of helping me recognize behavioral habits that indicated depression, so that a little light would go off saying "Hey. That thing you're doing right now? That's a sign that you're slipping back into your old habits. Stop that."
But mostly it was a long process of cutting ties to a lot of things and working on myself. For years I saw very few friends and didn't persue any romantic relationships. I don't know if this is necessarily the best approach, but my depressive behavior caused me to ruin the most important relationship I ever had, so I adopted a sort of "Not ever again" attitude.
I guess I don't have that good of an answer. I just worked on one thing at a time over a long period of time. Exercise, going out with friends more often, getting more sleep. Not having to live with my mother anymore also helped.
And Cass I also thought Effexor was complete shit when I was on it.
Edit: and Pony and whoever else has noticed this
What changed, if you don't mind sharing?
It wasn't a single thing, but a process that took years. It did start with me spending some time in a psych hospital for depression. That was good for temporarily removing me from the family and school problems that were a major contributing factor. They also did a good job of helping me recognize behavioral habits that indicated depression, so that a little light would go off saying "Hey. That thing you're doing right now? That's a sign that you're slipping back into your old habits. Stop that."
But mostly it was a long process of cutting ties to a lot of things and working on myself. For years I saw very few friends and didn't persue any romantic relationships. I don't know if this is necessarily the best approach, but my depressive behavior caused me to ruin the most important relationship I ever had, so I adopted a sort of "Not ever again" attitude.
I guess I don't have that good of an answer. I just worked on one thing at a time over a long period of time. Exercise, going out with friends more often, getting more sleep. Not having to live with my mother anymore also helped.
No, your answer makes sense. Thank you for sharing, I appreciate it.
I don't think I have social anxiety so much as general anxiety
Which I suppose what the diagnosis is
But yeah I have crazy anxiety over just about everything
You seemed to be doing very well when I met you so... congrats on learning to control it?
Basically I'm just happy to have met you.
Yeah it's something people don't tend to notice unless they know me really well. All the spazzing goes on inside my head :P
Also there are moments when I'm just hanging out with cool people or playing videogames or whatever where I'm not anxious. There is stupid anxiety about stupid things mixed into those situations as well, but it's not as prevalent.
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Yeah it's something people don't tend to notice unless they know me really well. All the spazzing goes on inside my head :P
Also there are moments when I'm just hanging out with cool people or playing videogames or whatever where I'm not anxious. There is stupid anxiety about stupid things mixed into those situations as well, but it's not as prevalent.
And being aware of these anxieties, rather than just sort of going along with them, helps, eh?
and only the most base chains like Boston Pizza or Swiss Chalet, places that are the lowest on the restaurant food chain
Because every time I go somewhere new I start sweating and panicking. My thought process goes like this
Okay okay what is this I don't even know if I like it
oh man I ruined a date once because I ordered the more expensive hamburger at some dumb chain restaurant and didn't like it
And as I'm trying to make talk with honeybun, the whole time I ate it I felt worse and worse, because I was wasting food and money, so I was waiting for someone to yell at me.
Eventually she asked me what was wrong and I could not really explain it well.
Yeah it's something people don't tend to notice unless they know me really well. All the spazzing goes on inside my head :P
Also there are moments when I'm just hanging out with cool people or playing videogames or whatever where I'm not anxious. There is stupid anxiety about stupid things mixed into those situations as well, but it's not as prevalent.
And being aware of these anxieties, rather than just sort of going along with them, helps, eh?
One of the really interesting things about anxiety I found the few times I saw someone was that "managing anxiety" was my priority. She said everyone with GAD says this. And she made me realize that people operate without ANY anxiety at all at times. That people that have anxiety disorder don't even realize there's such a thing as not being anxious. Just thought that was interesting.
Yeah it's something people don't tend to notice unless they know me really well. All the spazzing goes on inside my head :P
Also there are moments when I'm just hanging out with cool people or playing videogames or whatever where I'm not anxious. There is stupid anxiety about stupid things mixed into those situations as well, but it's not as prevalent.
And being aware of these anxieties, rather than just sort of going along with them, helps, eh?
That and Xanax :P
But yeah I compare it to doing debate and theater in high school.
Both of those things I ended up being good at, but it took a shitload of willpower to get over my anxiety about speaking or acting in front of a crowd. But when I did, those were some of the most rewarding experiences of my life.
So yeah I learned to force myself to go forward with things that cause anxiety in the same way, by reminding myself that it is totally worth it.
This doesn't work all the time, by any means. I'm still really bad about a lot of things.
I got Thai food with Pony and that turned out to be enjoyable
Next he wants me to see an action movie
bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeurgh.
MACHETE
I am not watching a movie where someone uses someone elses intestines to rappel down a building.
also don't go see Piranha 3D
it's so gory that it actually pushed my comfort levels to their edge
and we all know what a hardcore bad-ass i am 8-)
(as i type this post i am listening tori amos on my itunes awwwww jeah)
i will go through some movies that are out/coming up and find a good one that is actiony but not necessarily gory
i think you do need to expose yourself more to the LOUDNESS of the gunshots and shit in a theater since that's a potential trigger for you that you need to work through
but there's a way to baby-step to that, i'll find one
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I tried going to a club this last weekend, which normally cheers me up for a bit. However, the DJ was pretty horrific who neither had any sort of mixing skills nor any sense of track flow. Also, he delved into horrible sub genera such as dub step and early 90's 'rave' sounding crap.
I have PTSD. I don't currently take any meds for it, and instead have been given an aggressive therapy schedule.
It wasn't a single thing, but a process that took years. It did start with me spending some time in a psych hospital for depression. That was good for temporarily removing me from the family and school problems that were a major contributing factor. They also did a good job of helping me recognize behavioral habits that indicated depression, so that a little light would go off saying "Hey. That thing you're doing right now? That's a sign that you're slipping back into your old habits. Stop that."
But mostly it was a long process of cutting ties to a lot of things and working on myself. For years I saw very few friends and didn't persue any romantic relationships. I don't know if this is necessarily the best approach, but my depressive behavior caused me to ruin the most important relationship I ever had, so I adopted a sort of "Not ever again" attitude.
I guess I don't have that good of an answer. I just worked on one thing at a time over a long period of time. Exercise, going out with friends more often, getting more sleep. Not having to live with my mother anymore also helped.
I got Thai food with Pony and that turned out to be enjoyable
Next he wants me to see an action movie
bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeurgh.
the (NOS) in my diagnosis means "Not Otherwise Specified", ie "there's something wrong here but fuck if we know what!"
basically my psych thinks i'm an asshole to the point that's it's a medical disorder, but isn't sure what to like
you know
do about it?
See a porn movie instead
then argue that humping is technically an action.
https://twitter.com/Hooraydiation
No, your answer makes sense. Thank you for sharing, I appreciate it.
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Man, you think that's bad, mine makes me talk about my feelings.
"How does that make you feel?"
"Angry."
"Elaborate"
"Very angry."
Last time I went the waitress apologized that they didn't have a free desert for me to try. So she just gave me a big hug instead.
I love that place.
Yeah it's something people don't tend to notice unless they know me really well. All the spazzing goes on inside my head :P
Also there are moments when I'm just hanging out with cool people or playing videogames or whatever where I'm not anxious. There is stupid anxiety about stupid things mixed into those situations as well, but it's not as prevalent.
MACHETE
I just beat my coworker in it so now I think I'm hot shit at Risk and want to battle.
i will go with!
See if Than does if you want a sound beating. He won the dominion tournament at PAX.
And being aware of these anxieties, rather than just sort of going along with them, helps, eh?
Face Twit Rav Gram
It was okay. The Expendables was better.
Yes basically due to my anxiety
I only eat at chains
and only the most base chains like Boston Pizza or Swiss Chalet, places that are the lowest on the restaurant food chain
Because every time I go somewhere new I start sweating and panicking. My thought process goes like this
Okay okay what is this I don't even know if I like it
What if I get it and I hate it and everyone thinks I'm disgusting or gets mad at me
Oh God I'm taking so long to order
Everyone else has decided
They are going to be so mad at me for not being done yet
I just want a burger and fries
Oh, this is Dominion the Risk clone, not Dominion Dominion.
Also inqui I got Risk: Gaylo Wars and Ravenloft the boardgame this week.
Honestly I was not really impressed with Ravenloft.
ahem ahem
her therapist just told her to eat a restaurant she doesn't eat at normally
i suggested thai food 8-)
I am not watching a movie where someone uses someone elses intestines to rappel down a building.
Play an action videogame, instead. Like, a really gory one.
*gasp*
Get Dead Rising 2 when it comes out next week and we can multiplay!
I can't imagine having anxiety from food, it sounds uncomfortable.
Face Twit Rav Gram
oh man I ruined a date once because I ordered the more expensive hamburger at some dumb chain restaurant and didn't like it
And as I'm trying to make talk with honeybun, the whole time I ate it I felt worse and worse, because I was wasting food and money, so I was waiting for someone to yell at me.
Eventually she asked me what was wrong and I could not really explain it well.
stupid anxiety
I was on the fence about Ravenloft myself, I think I'd rather just play D&D or a different boardgame than some hybrid of the two.
There is a Halo Risk?
I'm engaged.
One of the really interesting things about anxiety I found the few times I saw someone was that "managing anxiety" was my priority. She said everyone with GAD says this. And she made me realize that people operate without ANY anxiety at all at times. That people that have anxiety disorder don't even realize there's such a thing as not being anxious. Just thought that was interesting.
Having met the two of you, you are just too adorable together. This news makes me pleased as punch.
That and Xanax :P
But yeah I compare it to doing debate and theater in high school.
Both of those things I ended up being good at, but it took a shitload of willpower to get over my anxiety about speaking or acting in front of a crowd. But when I did, those were some of the most rewarding experiences of my life.
So yeah I learned to force myself to go forward with things that cause anxiety in the same way, by reminding myself that it is totally worth it.
This doesn't work all the time, by any means. I'm still really bad about a lot of things.
Congrats!
:^:
also don't go see Piranha 3D
it's so gory that it actually pushed my comfort levels to their edge
and we all know what a hardcore bad-ass i am 8-)
(as i type this post i am listening tori amos on my itunes awwwww jeah)
i will go through some movies that are out/coming up and find a good one that is actiony but not necessarily gory
i think you do need to expose yourself more to the LOUDNESS of the gunshots and shit in a theater since that's a potential trigger for you that you need to work through
but there's a way to baby-step to that, i'll find one