My mother died on the 10th.

MegoDrDoom

Wipe.

D.T.

People react to and deal with death in different ways, brother.

My mom died when I was in my senior year too, and my reaction was similar to yours. I broke down the day it happened, and cried some the day after. After that, though, I functioned pretty normally - aside from random, sudden feelings of emptiness whenever the reality of the fact that she's gone for good would hit. Those pass fairly quickly, though.

It might hit you sometime later - that sometimes happens with people. They're seemingly okay with what happened, but something down the road will trigger their emotions and they'll break down, as if it were the day it happened, long after the actual event occured. Some people have a much easier time dealing with it, and it may never bother you the way you think it should. Neither of these scenarios are wrong or weird.

If it does end up hitting you in a big way later, don't hold it back. Let it out, and look to your family for mutual support and comfort. In the meantime, don't feel guilty about how you feel now, and just go with the flow.

By the way, I'm very sorry for your loss and my thoughts are with you and your family. If you need someone to talk to in the future, feel free to PM me.

Yall

Sorry for your loss man.

Like D.T. said, everyone has their own way of dealing with death. Don't fret about your reaction to it.

Corvus

Losing a parent sucks, alot. My dad passed away last April and it still fucks me up some times. This will sound like a retarded cliche, but it really does get easier over time.

As D.T. said, it may hit you later. I found that the intial few days afterwords were taken up with all sort of stuff like planning funerals, helping my Mum out, etc. It wasn't really until a little while later that I started to freak out a lot. Thats just my personal experience though.

If you feel like talking to a friend, or relative at some point, do so. You can also consider school counsellors or helplines if you want an impartial person to talk to. If you want to do something to honour your mum's memory at some point, go for it. Don't feel guilty about going on with your day to day life that is, I'm sure, what your parents want for you.

Bionic Monkey

I'm sorry man. My dad died last September, so this kind of loss is still fresh for me. His birthday was the 14th, so it was all brought up again recently too. And like someone else said, everybody deals with loss differently. You'll deal with this when you're mind and body are ready to deal with it. Just don't make an effort to actively suppress it.

powerss

Sorry for your loss. My father died in much the same way, unexpectedly, from a Pulmonory Embolism, and we found him.

Biggest thing is to try and be there for everyone else, and remember the very best times with your mother.

Hamju

I'm sorry for your loss. My dad died suddenly from a cerebral hemorrhage about a year and a half ago and it hit me pretty hard at first. After the funeral though I thought I was pretty much over it. I ended up seeing a counsellor (at the suggestion of my family and fiancee) but didn't think I really needed it. Talking about it can help. Have you had the funeral yet? I found planning the funeral to be soothing in a weird kind of way. Also, after the funeral was done I downed a few bottles of wine and felt a bit better, although I really don't suggest this.

MegoDrDoom

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kingmetal

one of my best friends died suddenly when I was 18 and I still haven't cried about it. that was just how I dealt with it, and I can openly talk about him and remember good and bad times we had together and feel good (although of course I still miss him!). it sounds like you're moving on and dealing with it, don't let people around you tell you how to feel or make you feel like you're doing anything wrong. I also agree that planning the funeral is soothing, so if most of the arrangements are made, maybe you could plan an intimate event after the service (which may be called a wake, but I'm not sure) with the people closest to you and your mother. good luck to you and my sympathies for your loss.

saikocat

People deal with things in different ways, never feel bad or guilty for the way you're reacting or feeling, everyone is different. It can take a while to sink in as well. Don't be afraid to talk to friends and if you feel like you're going to cry, don't hold back.

And I'm really, really sorry for your loss.