I'll start from the beginning and make this simple as I can.
Alright, Since I've gotten back from college after the first week i had terrible nights. I was having these hot flashes at night, Headaches and sinus pressure, waking up dehydrated, my mind was racing and there was no clear thought just a bunch of jammer, and when I go off to school that in the afternoon I would feel terrible. I went to the doctor and he said It sounded like I might have gotten a sinus infection so he prescribed me some antibiotics.
There are no longer any hot flashes, My antibiotics have been taken in full, I still feel anxiety at times and depression, and I'm still losing some sleep. The loss of sleep though i think may be that my thoughts are still going and that occasionally I hear a random sound. One night i heard knocking on my window, then my door. I just dismissed the sounds. It was probably some drunks since I live on the ground level of our apartment complex and hear them occasionally yell or rev up their vehicles at night. Every once in awhile I would get a headache in all of this, so I went to the store and picked up some Tylenol PM. It would help me sleep, and I took it for a few days but the headaches are wearing off and tonight was the night I stopped and now I'm back to an irregular sleep schedule it seems.
Some of my friends have shown concern for me and have asked if I was doing ok or that I wasn't looking like my usual self. I would confirm that yes, I've been feeling under the weather and have been losing sleep. I think what has really been giving me trouble is that I can't remember things and I've found it hard to concentrate for longer then 30 minutes. When I get back to the apartment I would just sit down for awhile and go blank. Usually in front of the TV. Yea... that's not a good idea.
I've been combating this depression and anxiety for the past couple weeks, along with the side effects of antibiotics. (It destroyed my probiotics. Let's just say, I've had everything come out bad on the other end.) This kind of runs in the family, and my parents have been talking to me about it. I have had this looming depression in and out when I was in High school, but I just hammered through it. This is my first year away from college, but I never felt like this the first semester away.
I want medication to be the last option to take. The side effects are what raise a red flag. Especially the "thoughts of suicide or increased thoughts." I haven't had any of these, but I have been through a past in which I lost a dear friend. I know the pain it brings, the anger, and evil it brings out in people. I do not want to put my family or anyone for that matter through that.
Here is a list of things I have changed:
Cut down my portion sizes, eating healthier and making sure I get more fruit and veggies
Lowered my Caffeine Intake. I was chugging this stuff down over the break, but when i got back I only have a cup of coffee every few days or so. Now It just makes my stomach sick.
Going to the gym at least twice a week, Trying to keep a routine and ease myself into it and not going at it full and pissed off.
Trying to record my day and see where I am wasting time and where I could spent it wisely.
Drinking plenty of water and keeping myself hydrated.
Reconnecting and keeping my Spiritual side healthy.
This month I have lost... probably somewhere between 10 to 15 pounds. So I'm not sure I made progress, or that my body is telling me something.
"Life is a storm my young friend, you will bask in the sunlight one moment be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes."