Dealing with constant apathy and doubt.

Liller

I'm a twenty something veteran and I've been going to school for over a year now, but I have no direction and my anxiety over math has kept me from moving forward. My grades have been okay, but I've been dragging my feet when it comes to my math prerequisites and I'm going nowhere. I didn't do particularly well in school growing up, but I wasn't diagnosed with ADHD until I was in my twenties. I spent most of my childhood feeling inadequate, and my father didn't help. He put me down quite often, or reacted inappropriately when I made simple mistakes. I was also short and a bit of a late bloomer, so my classmates weren't much nicer. I didn't like being at school, and I didn't like myself either.

I've been going to community college for over a year and I've basically just fucked around. I really enjoyed genetics, botany, soil science, and ecology but I don't know where to go from there. I don't get any coverage from the VA because my ADHD wasn't caused by the service and I don't even know if I have access to a therapist/psychiatrist. I haven't been medicated since I left the service in 2015 and I honestly don't know much about my healthcare options at all. The answers I've been given have been mixed.

I'm wasting my benefits and drowning in what seems to be a mix of depression and ADHD, I don't know what to do. I feel like I won't be able to move forward and get an education unless I find a way to work out these issues.

dispatch.o

Liller wrote: »

I'm a twenty something veteran and I've been going to school for over a year now, but I have no direction and my anxiety over math has kept me from moving forward. My grades have been okay, but I've been dragging my feet when it comes to my math prerequisites and I'm going nowhere. I didn't do particularly well in school growing up, but I wasn't diagnosed with ADHD until I was in my twenties. I spent most of my childhood feeling inadequate, and my father didn't help. He put me down quite often, or reacted inappropriately when I made simple mistakes. I was also short and a bit of a late bloomer, so my classmates weren't much nicer. I didn't like being at school, and I didn't like myself either.

I've been going to community college for over a year and I've basically just fucked around. I really enjoyed genetics, botany, soil science, and ecology but I don't know where to go from there. I don't get any coverage from the VA because my ADHD wasn't caused by the service and I don't even know if I have access to a therapist/psychiatrist. I haven't been medicated since I left the service in 2015 and I honestly don't know much about my healthcare options at all. The answers I've been given have been mixed.

I'm wasting my benefits and drowning in what seems to be a mix of depression and ADHD, I don't know what to do. I feel like I won't be able to move forward and get an education unless I find a way to work out these issues.

Get an appointment with a primary care physician and referral to a therapist. If your previous medications worked, tell your primary care and they can get you on them again. It's really not as expensive as you might think, lots of ADHD and Anti-depressant drugs have been around so long there are very cheap generics.

Approach things one step at a time. There are a lot of current and former service members on this forum and if you ask specific questions about acclimating to civilian life I'm sure you'll get solid answers and help.

Edit: Give the military thread in this very sub forum a browse and you'll notice lots of people have lots of questions.

ceres

I was just going to point you to the military thread, but yeah. Some of them may be able to share experiences or help you figure out where to start.