Sorry for the rant, I just don't have anyone who would understand my problem right now and I don't know what to do. I feel like no no one is every going to love me. I've never had a real boyfriend, although I've had a few one night stands. What always happens is that boys will have sex with me but don't want a relationship. I should have got used to rejection by now, but I keep letting my hopes get raised, and I really thought this one might be different.
I met him at a party last week, and I thought we really hit it off. We danced all night, and then he walked me home. I don't know why, but I suddenly thought I should take a chance, and he seemed like he was really into me, so I kissed him, and invited him in. One thing led to another, and the sex was really different to before - he was really attentive, and it was amazing for me. Guys are not usually that into my body, and to be honest I know I'm not classically good looking.
After we had sex again the next morning I thought that things had gone really well, and assumed we would see each other again. I was in tears that night when he didn't call, and two days later I broke down and called him. I was hoping he might have forgotten my number, but instead he sounded distracted, and said that he really liked having sex with me, and really liked parts of my body, but didn't see the relationship going anywhere because his frat buddies had 'standards' about physical attractiveness.
I was devastated - I really thought he might have liked me, and I had let myself fall for him far more than I should.
How can I get over this, and more importantly, am I doomed to have this happen to me every time?