okay, fine, you want details? i'll give you details. i'll give you details that will make me wish i didn't.
i'm a real shut-in. I have been ever since a really bad bromance break-up caused by my own assholish nature. That happened about 8-10 years ago. Basically, my best friend kinda dropped me for other, better friends and i never really healed.
Problem is, I get lonely every once in a while because, as introverted as i may be, being a shut-in is not fun all the time.
One thing i never managed to do but wanted to is play an actual real-life tabletop RPG campaign with people. And i really would love to do that. i tried online Tabletop RPGs, with programs, over IRC or play-by-post and it just doesn't really work for me.
Anyway, until I can manage to heal over that time when a person i considered my best friend decided that i was a bad person, I think i'll keep getting lonely every once in a while. it's kinda hard to get a better sense of self-worth when you also struggle with depression, tho.
Aaaanyways, i hope that's enough details.
Have you thought about mending that bond?
Might help, or, at worst, give you some closure that you need.
Find a group that gets together and join them for the tabletop thing. If it doesn't work or you don't like it, don't go back again.
The past is useless
The worst thing you can do is allow someone who wronged you to define your life for a second longer than you need to get over them
Your life will not change unless you change it yourself
Moving forward is painful and scary and hard but if you work at with enough intensity and drive it will drown out the agony you feel about the past (I speak from experience)
Matt, I thought the conversation you were in in the Tube thread about RL names vs forum names was super interesting. Do you just not like Pony because it's Pony or because it's not your real name though? Like, if it was something else, would you be more comfortable being called it?
Edit: Wait, sorry for calling you Pony in a post about why you don't like being called Pony *headdesk*
to answer your question directly
I don't like being called Pony for two reasons
1. Is I don't like MLP and I never have and I don't want to be associated with it, this username predates the existence of MLP:FiM and its meteoric rise in popularity and the "brony" phenomenon and I want to be as far away from that as humanly possible. Hence why I don't use an actual pony avatar anymore, for example.
2. The name Pony I associate with the forumer identity Pony, and who I used to really be on this forum and the kind of things I used to do and say. I do not like that person and do not want to be associated with that person anymore. It's bad memories, bad feelings, bad history. I want to walk away from it. I have grown up a lot in the ten years I've been posting here and I am not the person I was when I started. I am not really Pony anymore.
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Oh god, Hakkekage Polygon got some new deets on this Fire Emblem thing. The good news is that this new one has same-sex marriage in it! Cool, good for you Nintendo! Except not only does it sound like they are definitely going to do the two completely separate versions thing, but gay male relationships are exclusive to one game, and gay lady relationships are exclusive to the other.Conquest has man on man action, Birthright for your waifu on waifu needs.
Matt, I thought the conversation you were in in the Tube thread about RL names vs forum names was super interesting. Do you just not like Pony because it's Pony or because it's not your real name though? Like, if it was something else, would you be more comfortable being called it?
Edit: Wait, sorry for calling you Pony in a post about why you don't like being called Pony *headdesk*
to answer your question directly
I don't like being called Pony for two reasons
1. Is I don't like MLP and I never have and I don't want to be associated with it, this username predates the existence of MLP:FiM and its meteoric rise in popularity and the "brony" phenomenon and I want to be as far away from that as humanly possible. Hence why I don't use an actual pony avatar anymore, for example.
2. The name Pony I associate with the forumer identity Pony, and who I used to really be on this forum and the kind of things I used to do and say. I do not like that person and do not want to be associated with that person anymore. It's bad memories, bad feelings, bad history. I want to walk away from it. I have grown up a lot in the ten years I've been posting here and I am not the person I was when I started. I am not really Pony anymore.
but could you be just a little bit chad? i want to know a chad... i dont know one... can somebody be my chad Q_Q
Matt, I thought the conversation you were in in the Tube thread about RL names vs forum names was super interesting. Do you just not like Pony because it's Pony or because it's not your real name though? Like, if it was something else, would you be more comfortable being called it?
Edit: Wait, sorry for calling you Pony in a post about why you don't like being called Pony *headdesk*
to answer your question directly
I don't like being called Pony for two reasons
1. Is I don't like MLP and I never have and I don't want to be associated with it, this username predates the existence of MLP:FiM and its meteoric rise in popularity and the "brony" phenomenon and I want to be as far away from that as humanly possible. Hence why I don't use an actual pony avatar anymore, for example.
2. The name Pony I associate with the forumer identity Pony, and who I used to really be on this forum and the kind of things I used to do and say. I do not like that person and do not want to be associated with that person anymore. It's bad memories, bad feelings, bad history. I want to walk away from it. I have grown up a lot in the ten years I've been posting here and I am not the person I was when I started. I am not really Pony anymore.
but could you be just a little bit chad? i want to know a chad... i dont know one... can somebody be my chad Q_Q
scheck chad was inside you all along
wait
yes.
life's a game that you're bound to lose / like using a hammer to pound in screws
fuck up once and you break your thumb / if you're happy at all then you're god damn dumb
that's right we're on a fucked up cruise / God is dead but at least we have booze
bad things happen, no one knows why / the sun burns out and everyone dies
Matt, I thought the conversation you were in in the Tube thread about RL names vs forum names was super interesting. Do you just not like Pony because it's Pony or because it's not your real name though? Like, if it was something else, would you be more comfortable being called it?
Edit: Wait, sorry for calling you Pony in a post about why you don't like being called Pony *headdesk*
to answer your question directly
I don't like being called Pony for two reasons
1. Is I don't like MLP and I never have and I don't want to be associated with it, this username predates the existence of MLP:FiM and its meteoric rise in popularity and the "brony" phenomenon and I want to be as far away from that as humanly possible. Hence why I don't use an actual pony avatar anymore, for example.
2. The name Pony I associate with the forumer identity Pony, and who I used to really be on this forum and the kind of things I used to do and say. I do not like that person and do not want to be associated with that person anymore. It's bad memories, bad feelings, bad history. I want to walk away from it. I have grown up a lot in the ten years I've been posting here and I am not the person I was when I started. I am not really Pony anymore.
but could you be just a little bit chad? i want to know a chad... i dont know one... can somebody be my chad Q_Q
I knew a Chad once! He had magnificent eyebrows.
Also we had a dog named Chad. He was a terrible dog.
Speaking of names and internet identities, my friend and I have been introducing ourselves with our real names when recording our podcast and I'm wondering if that's something I'm comfortable with. I mean, this is what everybody on every podcast seems to do already, and no one will ever really listen to mine I'm sure, but at the same time it's not as if I am just going around volunteering my first and last name to the [chat] thread normally, right? That would seem like a silly thing to do, and why would anybody do it? But if I were to post a link to this podcast, I would be doing just that. Not sure what to do, could just do first names?
I was never more nervous than when I went to meet everyone at PAXSouth.
Like, beyond nervous.
but why? you're awesome, meeting friends is awesome, what's to worry about?
well what if every terrible thing I said on the internet was read back to me
and then there was a small room where everyone shared their feelings about everything I said
and like spool32 and family hated me for being a jerk on the internet
that was my biggest fear
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Matt, I thought the conversation you were in in the Tube thread about RL names vs forum names was super interesting. Do you just not like Pony because it's Pony or because it's not your real name though? Like, if it was something else, would you be more comfortable being called it?
Edit: Wait, sorry for calling you Pony in a post about why you don't like being called Pony *headdesk*
to answer your question directly
I don't like being called Pony for two reasons
1. Is I don't like MLP and I never have and I don't want to be associated with it, this username predates the existence of MLP:FiM and its meteoric rise in popularity and the "brony" phenomenon and I want to be as far away from that as humanly possible. Hence why I don't use an actual pony avatar anymore, for example.
2. The name Pony I associate with the forumer identity Pony, and who I used to really be on this forum and the kind of things I used to do and say. I do not like that person and do not want to be associated with that person anymore. It's bad memories, bad feelings, bad history. I want to walk away from it. I have grown up a lot in the ten years I've been posting here and I am not the person I was when I started. I am not really Pony anymore.
but could you be just a little bit chad? i want to know a chad... i dont know one... can somebody be my chad Q_Q
*sigh*
*opens costume closet and fishes out puka shell necklace*
Thousands of hot, local singles are waiting to play at bubbulon.com.
I'm fine with being called Ron. And I will always call Jordan Jordan.
Internet handles are eh.
many of the older generation are very guarded about their names
shrug
I am not, personally, but I understand where they are coming from
The only internet community I know of that routinely meets in real life and uses handles instead of names is the Enforcers.
Pretty much every other group I've met with goes straight to first names.
life's a game that you're bound to lose / like using a hammer to pound in screws
fuck up once and you break your thumb / if you're happy at all then you're god damn dumb
that's right we're on a fucked up cruise / God is dead but at least we have booze
bad things happen, no one knows why / the sun burns out and everyone dies
Matt, I thought the conversation you were in in the Tube thread about RL names vs forum names was super interesting. Do you just not like Pony because it's Pony or because it's not your real name though? Like, if it was something else, would you be more comfortable being called it?
Edit: Wait, sorry for calling you Pony in a post about why you don't like being called Pony *headdesk*
to answer your question directly
I don't like being called Pony for two reasons
1. Is I don't like MLP and I never have and I don't want to be associated with it, this username predates the existence of MLP:FiM and its meteoric rise in popularity and the "brony" phenomenon and I want to be as far away from that as humanly possible. Hence why I don't use an actual pony avatar anymore, for example.
2. The name Pony I associate with the forumer identity Pony, and who I used to really be on this forum and the kind of things I used to do and say. I do not like that person and do not want to be associated with that person anymore. It's bad memories, bad feelings, bad history. I want to walk away from it. I have grown up a lot in the ten years I've been posting here and I am not the person I was when I started. I am not really Pony anymore.
but could you be just a little bit chad? i want to know a chad... i dont know one... can somebody be my chad Q_Q
*sigh*
*opens costume closet and fishes out puka shell necklace*
faded A&F t
puka shell necklace
some banging sandals and aviators
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I am tickled that you have a costume closet
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I was never more nervous than when I went to meet everyone at PAXSouth.
Like, beyond nervous.
but why? you're awesome, meeting friends is awesome, what's to worry about?
well what if every terrible thing I said on the internet was read back to me
and then there was a small room where everyone shared their feelings about everything I said
and like spool32 and family hated me for being a jerk on the internet
that was my biggest fear
well im glad it didn't go that way!
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what about ME
NNID: Hakkekage
The past is useless
The worst thing you can do is allow someone who wronged you to define your life for a second longer than you need to get over them
Your life will not change unless you change it yourself
Moving forward is painful and scary and hard but if you work at with enough intensity and drive it will drown out the agony you feel about the past (I speak from experience)
to answer your question directly
I don't like being called Pony for two reasons
1. Is I don't like MLP and I never have and I don't want to be associated with it, this username predates the existence of MLP:FiM and its meteoric rise in popularity and the "brony" phenomenon and I want to be as far away from that as humanly possible. Hence why I don't use an actual pony avatar anymore, for example.
2. The name Pony I associate with the forumer identity Pony, and who I used to really be on this forum and the kind of things I used to do and say. I do not like that person and do not want to be associated with that person anymore. It's bad memories, bad feelings, bad history. I want to walk away from it. I have grown up a lot in the ten years I've been posting here and I am not the person I was when I started. I am not really Pony anymore.
check out the rock star experience package
there's no way i'm not getting both
I think i will start with Conquest because that's supposed to be the easier one, right?
I need some practice before getting punished for poor strategy and having to restart my game 10 million times
NNID: Hakkekage
put that in your sig, maybe?
I'll try to remember, Matt.
Check out my site, the Bismuth Heart | My Twitter
but could you be just a little bit chad? i want to know a chad... i dont know one... can somebody be my chad Q_Q
Putting it in my sig or title is basically like trying to make fetch happen.
What about Raven?!?!
esp at pax
scheck chad was inside you all along
wait
yes.
fuck up once and you break your thumb / if you're happy at all then you're god damn dumb
that's right we're on a fucked up cruise / God is dead but at least we have booze
bad things happen, no one knows why / the sun burns out and everyone dies
I knew a Chad once! He had magnificent eyebrows.
Also we had a dog named Chad. He was a terrible dog.
I liked eyebrows Chad much better.
WHO BETTER THAN KANYON?!
Like, beyond nervous.
Internet handles are eh.
I just imagine Sylvester Stallone getting punched in the face too many times and yelling "AOOOWA!!!"
many of the older generation are very guarded about their names
shrug
I am not, personally, but I understand where they are coming from
fair enough.
I'll still make an effort to call you Matt.
Check out my site, the Bismuth Heart | My Twitter
But now there are a bunch of toddlers with the same name and their sudden appearance has been freaking me out.
whenever you are nervous about something like this, the key is to do it as wrong as possible
like throw in four extra vowels
like
Aweeoowaaweewa
and they know you're doing it on purpose and having fun
so that way you get corrected and now you know how to say it right
but why? you're awesome, meeting friends is awesome, what's to worry about?
YES
YES YES YES
Matt u r da bes
Probably because he outgrew the forum handle like 2 lifetimes ago. He's been here a long time.
i didnt think how it would get shortened at all
you're like, median age here or maybe even slightly young
Make up an alias with a cool last name?
and then there was a small room where everyone shared their feelings about everything I said
and like spool32 and family hated me for being a jerk on the internet
that was my biggest fear
*sigh*
*opens costume closet and fishes out puka shell necklace*
The only internet community I know of that routinely meets in real life and uses handles instead of names is the Enforcers.
Pretty much every other group I've met with goes straight to first names.
fuck up once and you break your thumb / if you're happy at all then you're god damn dumb
that's right we're on a fucked up cruise / God is dead but at least we have booze
bad things happen, no one knows why / the sun burns out and everyone dies
puka shell necklace
some banging sandals and aviators
well im glad it didn't go that way!
And median age?
I'll median KILL YOU.
(I'm not sure how that works)