kirkland gays make a dude wanna commit hate crimes
why kirkland gays into cocaine and family guy?
Atlanta does have a gay culture, but I think it's more that in a lot of communities here, gay just ain't a thing. We're not really a post-hetero-normative culture, but there are days it could be. You just wake up and don't think about it.
My rant is that I can't sleep because it's hot, and I somehow feel restless with so much energy that I'd take a plane to anywhere in the world to do anything at all.
But I feel like that pretty often lately, and it led to some pretty great times.
Hopefully I can channel part of that energy to get my perfect body of age 20 back, an some of it into something useful for uni..
But somehow this whole drive to do something feels more destructive than constructive.
I spent five hours at work calling people who reserved a copy of the last twilight book to see if they would like to reserve a new moon dvd. the last book came out a few years ago so half of them didn't remember they reserved, or the numbers had changed, and they demanded to know how I got their number and that I take them off my list.
I might have to go to work at midnight the day it's released to have a twilight party
I got some confused old men, one guy who was nice but had just recently gotten that number so didn't know what I was talking about, and a few husbands who told me to call their wives
the more i think about it lately, the more i'm convinced that i need to at least try studying something "hard," something math-y and difficult. physics, computer science, straight up math... i don't know, anything. i just feel like an idiot knowing nothing of anything really difficult, and i'm so bored with everything else.
the problem is that somewhere really early on, for some dumb reason, i decided i "wasn't a math person". probably it had to do with the idiotic need i had as a child to keep intact this image of myself as a little genius (nope) who never had any trouble with anything. so the minute i found something (math) that wasn't necessarily a breeze for me i decided i didn't care about it. that's retarded, of course--i've always math and hard science fascinating, but deciding they weren't for me sabotaged my education in that regard and now i don't know shit about them.
and even though i'm only 19 i feel like it's just too late for me to start fixing that gap in my education. my friends are in math and physics courses at berkeley and usc etc the names of which i don't even understand, and meanwhile i'm at a shitty junior college (i was an awful student in high school) taking fucking algebra ii. i'm not that dumb, and i'm convinced i could do fine (or maybe more than fine) with harder material, but at this point i'm so far behind, both in terms of which courses i'm taking and which school i'm at, that i don't think i'll ever get a chance to find out.
how can i justify spending a whole ton of time (and my parents' money) studying something i might turn out to be interested in/good at when it would be so easy to transfer as an english major and just deal with the fact that it's not really what i'd want to study? it's hard for me to accept that stupid decisions i made back when i was 13 and had yet to let go of my inflated self-image could really determine the course of my entire academic career, but i think that's just the way it is. i don't know what else i could reasonably do.
i had a pretty great moment of releasing pent up anger on some neighbors
my old man shoveled out these cats driveway so i figure, hey
maybe i'll ask these cats for some help startin' my ma's car out, get a jump. small town, friendly cats?
naw. knocked on their door, and they just stared out their windows at me. i asked nicely for some help for a jump. nothing. then they shut their blinds before shrugging like shruggers
started screaming that i hope i don't wake their fat baby and that they have tons of fun at the mickey dees tomorrow
baby starts balling so loud it's audible outside as the snow is falling and the wind is blowing
study what you love and have a passion for or you will not be happy in university.
or in life, really
i don't know whether i have a passion for any of that stuff, though. it fascinates me in theory and i'm pretty sure i could handle it, but i can't know for sure whether i'm built for it until i've actually studied it for a while and right now i don't even have the prerequisites. i don't think i can justify spending more time and money on the chance i'll love it, but if i don't then i'll never know (and i'll always feel like i'm missing an important part of my education)
study what you love and have a passion for or you will not be happy in university.
See, if this were the case I'd be a philosophy major. Realistically speaking you're paying a large sum of money to obtain a degree that's actually useful to you in life and your happiness is inconsequential if your purpose is to use your degree to get a career. If you're wealthy and have parents that are paying for your schooling, then I imagine this is different for you, but some people don't have the luxury of taking a course of study that's necessarily fun for them as it's a means to expand their income rather than a rich person's buffer into the real world. That said, I've learned to enjoy what I'm studying and simply having any degree at all is a step up into getting a career.
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i wake up screaming about it
i have no idea how i lived with neville or potatoe or keith
I have been to Schlitterbahn 10 times. I have ridden the Master Blaster 10 times.
It has scared the shit out of me 10 times.
My rant is fuck these people for last minute work.
Although I think the LP thing might cause some different rants.
ARE YOU QUESTIONING ALLAH'S DIVINE WILL?????
edit: hahahaha see?
Lots of Olympics tonight anyway.
XBox LIVE: Bogestrom | Destiny
PSN: Bogestrom
Ass is the new Wagon.
But I feel like that pretty often lately, and it led to some pretty great times.
Hopefully I can channel part of that energy to get my perfect body of age 20 back, an some of it into something useful for uni..
But somehow this whole drive to do something feels more destructive than constructive.
I might have to go to work at midnight the day it's released to have a twilight party
I got some confused old men, one guy who was nice but had just recently gotten that number so didn't know what I was talking about, and a few husbands who told me to call their wives
the more i think about it lately, the more i'm convinced that i need to at least try studying something "hard," something math-y and difficult. physics, computer science, straight up math... i don't know, anything. i just feel like an idiot knowing nothing of anything really difficult, and i'm so bored with everything else.
the problem is that somewhere really early on, for some dumb reason, i decided i "wasn't a math person". probably it had to do with the idiotic need i had as a child to keep intact this image of myself as a little genius (nope) who never had any trouble with anything. so the minute i found something (math) that wasn't necessarily a breeze for me i decided i didn't care about it. that's retarded, of course--i've always math and hard science fascinating, but deciding they weren't for me sabotaged my education in that regard and now i don't know shit about them.
and even though i'm only 19 i feel like it's just too late for me to start fixing that gap in my education. my friends are in math and physics courses at berkeley and usc etc the names of which i don't even understand, and meanwhile i'm at a shitty junior college (i was an awful student in high school) taking fucking algebra ii. i'm not that dumb, and i'm convinced i could do fine (or maybe more than fine) with harder material, but at this point i'm so far behind, both in terms of which courses i'm taking and which school i'm at, that i don't think i'll ever get a chance to find out.
how can i justify spending a whole ton of time (and my parents' money) studying something i might turn out to be interested in/good at when it would be so easy to transfer as an english major and just deal with the fact that it's not really what i'd want to study? it's hard for me to accept that stupid decisions i made back when i was 13 and had yet to let go of my inflated self-image could really determine the course of my entire academic career, but i think that's just the way it is. i don't know what else i could reasonably do.
tldr wahhhhh
What the fuck.
I didn't take any damn unpaid leave and I gotta go and find why it was deducted.
That's how people end up in careers they hate
edit: this is to redhead, and also yeah what Teefs said
Probably not
my old man shoveled out these cats driveway so i figure, hey
maybe i'll ask these cats for some help startin' my ma's car out, get a jump. small town, friendly cats?
naw. knocked on their door, and they just stared out their windows at me. i asked nicely for some help for a jump. nothing. then they shut their blinds before shrugging like shruggers
started screaming that i hope i don't wake their fat baby and that they have tons of fun at the mickey dees tomorrow
baby starts balling so loud it's audible outside as the snow is falling and the wind is blowing
i love making people feel more horrible than me
i don't know whether i have a passion for any of that stuff, though. it fascinates me in theory and i'm pretty sure i could handle it, but i can't know for sure whether i'm built for it until i've actually studied it for a while and right now i don't even have the prerequisites. i don't think i can justify spending more time and money on the chance i'll love it, but if i don't then i'll never know (and i'll always feel like i'm missing an important part of my education)
See, if this were the case I'd be a philosophy major. Realistically speaking you're paying a large sum of money to obtain a degree that's actually useful to you in life and your happiness is inconsequential if your purpose is to use your degree to get a career. If you're wealthy and have parents that are paying for your schooling, then I imagine this is different for you, but some people don't have the luxury of taking a course of study that's necessarily fun for them as it's a means to expand their income rather than a rich person's buffer into the real world. That said, I've learned to enjoy what I'm studying and simply having any degree at all is a step up into getting a career.