I'm definitely going to be able to work from home monday and finish a coding thing
I'm also definitely going to be able to happily tool around for the rest of my fmla like a vacation for a few weeks
When the painkillers are fully effective there's not any discomfort at all (when they aren't it's not amazing but also not unbearable or anything)
Very curious to see what's under the bandages but I have to wait until wednesday
Also having these drains attached to me is super weird, it's like I have a potions bandolier or something very genre. Kind of annoying also cause I can't really see my new silhouette because the drains are making weird lumps under my clothes.
Anyway yeah, all is well, would recommend procedure 10/10
I'm definitely going to be able to work from home monday and finish a coding thing
I'm also definitely going to be able to happily tool around for the rest of my fmla like a vacation for a few weeks
When the painkillers are fully effective there's not any discomfort at all (when they aren't it's not amazing but also not unbearable or anything)
Very curious to see what's under the bandages but I have to wait until wednesday
Also having these drains attached to me is super weird, it's like I have a potions bandolier or something very genre. Kind of annoying also cause I can't really see my new silhouette because the drains are making weird lumps under my clothes.
Anyway yeah, all is well, would recommend procedure 10/10
Thanks to the tireless efforts of my sister, my parents still don't know about my transition.
They don't deserve to know. Fuck 'em.
What's it like having a rad sibling
Because mine sucks
It's good! She came with me for my first makeup shopping trip and was helpful despite being utterly fashion inept. She has her own troubles but she's a strong loving support and I would do anything to help her out.
Note that I have two shit siblings, though. It's a numbers game.
I have a really good support network of friends even before I include how awesome the friends I've made in this thread are. I am very very very very lucky in that respect and I thank my lucky stars every day.
Rainfall on
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Erin The RedThe Name's Erin! Woman, Podcaster, Dungeon Master, IT nerd, Parent, Trans. AMABaton Rouge, LARegistered Userregular
I did laundry, cooked some food, just ate a lemon. The girl I have a mile high crush on messaged me this morning and we talked about crushes and kissing Chris Hemsworth and then she asked me out to brunch tomorrow so kinda panicking about that.
Gotta wait until Tuesday to do paperwork for my gender change-up but I'm really excited for that.
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Erin The RedThe Name's Erin! Woman, Podcaster, Dungeon Master, IT nerd, Parent, Trans. AMABaton Rouge, LARegistered Userregular
Mmmm lemons.
Also congrats on the date! You got this. Just be your cool normal self and you'll kill it.
Mmmm lemons.
Also congrats on the date! You got this. Just be your cool normal self and you'll kill it.
We'll seeeee. It's stressful for sure, I gotta come clean about my crush on her otherwise this is never going to end.
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jaziekBad at everythingAnd mad about it.Registered Userregular
edited February 2018
I came out to my sister she is so amazing and supportive and I'm so overwhelmed right now.
I couldn't have wished for it to go any better! We talked a lot about gender, feminism, queer identity. She's already involved in the lgbt community so I didn't have to explain stuff, or give any terminology or anything. It was a huge relief to be able to skip the whole.."Ok this is what dysphoria is... This is what transition involves..." Steps and go straight to talking about how I know I'm transfeminine, but not sure whether I will end up identifying as a woman or enby, and have that not be a foreign concept to her. And also to have it met with complete acceptance and support, and understanding, and reassurance that my identity is valid, and she's on my side no matter what i choose. She told me about a bunch of trans youtubers / bloggers she follows, and suggested we go to a queer trivia night that one of her friends runs soon. She's the best.
Coming out to a family member is a huge hurdle that makes this all feel so much more real, and to have it be such a nice experience fills me with so much confidence that yes, I am doing the right thing.
I feel ... Calm, in a way that I don't think I've felt in a very long time. I just let out my deepest secret and the world didn't explode and I'm not dead and everything is still fine.
Hi I'm Vee!Formerly VH; She/Her; Is an E X P E R I E N C ERegistered Userregular
for supportive family members
I have briefly mentioned my mother's not-so-acceptance of my bisexuality, but my sister on the other hand has always treated it as completely normal. I "came out" to her at some point, but it was just a casual thing, like a pre-explanation for "why I'm about to talk about this dude I think is hot" and ever since then she's been completely supportive while also not making a big deal about it, which is exactly what I want. So now we talk about guys we're both into, or I'll be like "oh man, that Adam Levine m i rite" and she'll be like "eh, he's definitely attractive, but not really my type I think". I have been talking to her about dating guys recently and she's been giving me her honest perspective on it, and there's just absolutely no judgement at all or anything and gosh I just love her so much she's the best.
Erin The RedThe Name's Erin! Woman, Podcaster, Dungeon Master, IT nerd, Parent, Trans. AMABaton Rouge, LARegistered Userregular
HEY Y'ALL IT'S MONDAY!
Anything fun on the radar for you all?
We have another big interview on Wednesday with a super cool nerd. Trying to not freak out a little, as he's one of the co-creators of the game we've been playing for the past....3 years?
I have a bunch of fun new makeup. I should experiment with it soon. Hmmmm.
Brovid Hasselsmof[Growling historic on the fury road]Registered Userregular
I'm trying to be patient waiting for a therapist appointment. Reminding myself to be grateful that this is the biggest problem I have in my life right now, but it sure would be nice to talk to a person about some things.
Anything fun on the radar for you all?
We have another big interview on Wednesday with a super cool nerd. Trying to not freak out a little, as he's one of the co-creators of the game we've been playing for the past....3 years?
I have a bunch of fun new makeup. I should experiment with it soon. Hmmmm.
Brunch date-not-date! And the Overwatch League Puppy Bowl! And tomorrow I get to go to a notary and tell them I'm a lady!
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Erin The RedThe Name's Erin! Woman, Podcaster, Dungeon Master, IT nerd, Parent, Trans. AMABaton Rouge, LARegistered Userregular
Anything fun on the radar for you all?
We have another big interview on Wednesday with a super cool nerd. Trying to not freak out a little, as he's one of the co-creators of the game we've been playing for the past....3 years?
I have a bunch of fun new makeup. I should experiment with it soon. Hmmmm.
Brunch date-not-date! And the Overwatch League Puppy Bowl! And tomorrow I get to go to a notary and tell them I'm a lady!
Mmmmm brunch. Good luck with the notary! I'm sure it will all be fine and good and great.
I'm working from home today and feel weirdly cut off from the world, haha.
Had to do an active shooter training class online first thing. Which is a real fuckeroo for your morning
I'm trying to be patient waiting for a therapist appointment. Reminding myself to be grateful that this is the biggest problem I have in my life right now, but it sure would be nice to talk to a person about some things.
Yeah definitely. Waiting sucks really hard. I'm terrible at it. And I'm coming at all this from the other side of the coin, but if you ever wanted to just vent at, I'm here for ya
I finally got back to work (a little bit) on my first script from last year, last night. I've barely touched it since I got inspired to work on other stories and I've been wanting to get back to it for months.
I foresee getting more work done on it soon, but it's hard to say.
For now I go to bed, for I am a shadow and shun the light of day. Amara is very understanding of this, and I appreciate her patience.
I have briefly mentioned my mother's not-so-acceptance of my bisexuality, but my sister on the other hand has always treated it as completely normal. I "came out" to her at some point, but it was just a casual thing, like a pre-explanation for "why I'm about to talk about this dude I think is hot" and ever since then she's been completely supportive while also not making a big deal about it, which is exactly what I want. So now we talk about guys we're both into, or I'll be like "oh man, that Adam Levine m i rite" and she'll be like "eh, he's definitely attractive, but not really my type I think". I have been talking to her about dating guys recently and she's been giving me her honest perspective on it, and there's just absolutely no judgement at all or anything and gosh I just love her so much she's the best.
my favorite reactions to coming out have always been the nonplussed ones
it's the casual and perfect efficiency of them simply changing a variable in their minds
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I am an idiot. Literally stammered out "uhilikeyouandyoureprettyokaybye" as I was dropping her off after we had brunch and went to a shoe store together.
Then I went to the mall and thought about buying more makeup and a bra but instead I decided I'd start feeling intensely dysphoric and run away.
Great day, great day.
(Brunch was delicious)
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Erin The RedThe Name's Erin! Woman, Podcaster, Dungeon Master, IT nerd, Parent, Trans. AMABaton Rouge, LARegistered Userregular
I am an idiot. Literally stammered out "uhilikeyouandyoureprettyokaybye" as I was dropping her off after we had brunch and went to a shoe store together.
Then I went to the mall and thought about buying more makeup and a bra but instead I decided I'd start feeling intensely dysphoric and run away.
Great day, great day.
(Brunch was delicious)
Oh no! Did you get any kind of answer? Or like... follow up via text with her?
The dysphoria thing is really rough, I'm sorry. If the opinions of others help any, I think you're a rad as hell lady and are killin' it in ways I could not dream of.
I am just about as cis as can be so I can’t speak to dysphoria and I don’t know if this actually helps but you are awesome. This is a blanket statement to everyone in the thread.
I am an idiot. Literally stammered out "uhilikeyouandyoureprettyokaybye" as I was dropping her off after we had brunch and went to a shoe store together.
Then I went to the mall and thought about buying more makeup and a bra but instead I decided I'd start feeling intensely dysphoric and run away.
Great day, great day.
(Brunch was delicious)
Oh no! Did you get any kind of answer? Or like... follow up via text with her?
The dysphoria thing is really rough, I'm sorry. If the opinions of others help any, I think you're a rad as hell lady and are killin' it in ways I could not dream of.
Today is not a day for answers.
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Erin The RedThe Name's Erin! Woman, Podcaster, Dungeon Master, IT nerd, Parent, Trans. AMABaton Rouge, LARegistered Userregular
I am an idiot. Literally stammered out "uhilikeyouandyoureprettyokaybye" as I was dropping her off after we had brunch and went to a shoe store together.
Then I went to the mall and thought about buying more makeup and a bra but instead I decided I'd start feeling intensely dysphoric and run away.
Great day, great day.
(Brunch was delicious)
Oh no! Did you get any kind of answer? Or like... follow up via text with her?
The dysphoria thing is really rough, I'm sorry. If the opinions of others help any, I think you're a rad as hell lady and are killin' it in ways I could not dream of.
Today is not a day for answers.
Ok. You know how to get to me if you need to talk!
But I won't pry.
Hugs
I am an idiot. Literally stammered out "uhilikeyouandyoureprettyokaybye" as I was dropping her off after we had brunch and went to a shoe store together.
Then I went to the mall and thought about buying more makeup and a bra but instead I decided I'd start feeling intensely dysphoric and run away.
Great day, great day.
(Brunch was delicious)
Oh no! Did you get any kind of answer? Or like... follow up via text with her?
The dysphoria thing is really rough, I'm sorry. If the opinions of others help any, I think you're a rad as hell lady and are killin' it in ways I could not dream of.
Today is not a day for answers.
always remember maladict's catchphrase
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I have an online therapist appointment booked for Friday. Feel like I should prepare things to say but not sure what.
The last day or so I've been feeling less enthusiastic about the whole thing. It just feels so awkward and embarrassing.
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While reading I kept hoping the story would turn to "and then I pulled out a knife and stabbed him" but it kept being sad.
I'm so so sorry
I'm definitely going to be able to work from home monday and finish a coding thing
I'm also definitely going to be able to happily tool around for the rest of my fmla like a vacation for a few weeks
When the painkillers are fully effective there's not any discomfort at all (when they aren't it's not amazing but also not unbearable or anything)
Very curious to see what's under the bandages but I have to wait until wednesday
Also having these drains attached to me is super weird, it's like I have a potions bandolier or something very genre. Kind of annoying also cause I can't really see my new silhouette because the drains are making weird lumps under my clothes.
Anyway yeah, all is well, would recommend procedure 10/10
Whoa, rad! Congrats!!
no, that's not a metaphor
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parents pls
get with the fucking program or stop expecting me to call and check in
I've low key committed to this strategy, recently
my mom has been the only one doing calls, now
and I can just tell she's noticed
hope she's feeling guilty as fuck about her inability to treat me with respect, but those are some high hopes
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I fucking love your name in the middle of that certificate. It made me think of a KO screen in a fighting game. So pretty much this:
Except instead of knocking out Ibuki you knocked out....I dunno, the patriarchy probably.
They don't deserve to know. Fuck 'em.
Sorry that some asshole decided to ruin your night like that.
What's it like having a rad sibling
Because mine sucks
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I now commonly refer to him as "Broseph Smith," or my as my "shitty older brother" during conversations
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It's good! She came with me for my first makeup shopping trip and was helpful despite being utterly fashion inept. She has her own troubles but she's a strong loving support and I would do anything to help her out.
Note that I have two shit siblings, though. It's a numbers game.
I have a really good support network of friends even before I include how awesome the friends I've made in this thread are. I am very very very very lucky in that respect and I thank my lucky stars every day.
I did laundry, cooked some food, just ate a lemon. The girl I have a mile high crush on messaged me this morning and we talked about crushes and kissing Chris Hemsworth and then she asked me out to brunch tomorrow so kinda panicking about that.
Gotta wait until Tuesday to do paperwork for my gender change-up but I'm really excited for that.
Also congrats on the date! You got this. Just be your cool normal self and you'll kill it.
We'll seeeee. It's stressful for sure, I gotta come clean about my crush on her otherwise this is never going to end.
I couldn't have wished for it to go any better! We talked a lot about gender, feminism, queer identity. She's already involved in the lgbt community so I didn't have to explain stuff, or give any terminology or anything. It was a huge relief to be able to skip the whole.."Ok this is what dysphoria is... This is what transition involves..." Steps and go straight to talking about how I know I'm transfeminine, but not sure whether I will end up identifying as a woman or enby, and have that not be a foreign concept to her. And also to have it met with complete acceptance and support, and understanding, and reassurance that my identity is valid, and she's on my side no matter what i choose. She told me about a bunch of trans youtubers / bloggers she follows, and suggested we go to a queer trivia night that one of her friends runs soon. She's the best.
Coming out to a family member is a huge hurdle that makes this all feel so much more real, and to have it be such a nice experience fills me with so much confidence that yes, I am doing the right thing.
I feel ... Calm, in a way that I don't think I've felt in a very long time. I just let out my deepest secret and the world didn't explode and I'm not dead and everything is still fine.
I have briefly mentioned my mother's not-so-acceptance of my bisexuality, but my sister on the other hand has always treated it as completely normal. I "came out" to her at some point, but it was just a casual thing, like a pre-explanation for "why I'm about to talk about this dude I think is hot" and ever since then she's been completely supportive while also not making a big deal about it, which is exactly what I want. So now we talk about guys we're both into, or I'll be like "oh man, that Adam Levine m i rite" and she'll be like "eh, he's definitely attractive, but not really my type I think". I have been talking to her about dating guys recently and she's been giving me her honest perspective on it, and there's just absolutely no judgement at all or anything and gosh I just love her so much she's the best.
Just wanted to tell you all that Erin and Christine are the best and I love them.
Anything fun on the radar for you all?
We have another big interview on Wednesday with a super cool nerd. Trying to not freak out a little, as he's one of the co-creators of the game we've been playing for the past....3 years?
I have a bunch of fun new makeup. I should experiment with it soon. Hmmmm.
Brunch date-not-date! And the Overwatch League Puppy Bowl! And tomorrow I get to go to a notary and tell them I'm a lady!
Mmmmm brunch. Good luck with the notary! I'm sure it will all be fine and good and great.
I'm working from home today and feel weirdly cut off from the world, haha.
Had to do an active shooter training class online first thing. Which is a real fuckeroo for your morning
Yeah definitely. Waiting sucks really hard. I'm terrible at it. And I'm coming at all this from the other side of the coin, but if you ever wanted to just vent at, I'm here for ya
I finally got back to work (a little bit) on my first script from last year, last night. I've barely touched it since I got inspired to work on other stories and I've been wanting to get back to it for months.
I foresee getting more work done on it soon, but it's hard to say.
For now I go to bed, for I am a shadow and shun the light of day. Amara is very understanding of this, and I appreciate her patience.
my favorite reactions to coming out have always been the nonplussed ones
it's the casual and perfect efficiency of them simply changing a variable in their minds
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And Seven years ago today I came out on FB.
That's a lot of emotion in today's On This Day thing.
Edit:
Six years. SIX!
Good lord my association with time is really weak.
Literally stammered out "uhilikeyouandyoureprettyokaybye" as I was dropping her off after we had brunch and went to a shoe store together.
Then I went to the mall and thought about buying more makeup and a bra but instead I decided I'd start feeling intensely dysphoric and run away.
Great day, great day.
(Brunch was delicious)
Oh no! Did you get any kind of answer? Or like... follow up via text with her?
The dysphoria thing is really rough, I'm sorry. If the opinions of others help any, I think you're a rad as hell lady and are killin' it in ways I could not dream of.
3DS: 1607-3034-6970
Today is not a day for answers.
Ok. You know how to get to me if you need to talk!
But I won't pry.
Hugs
always remember maladict's catchphrase
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The last day or so I've been feeling less enthusiastic about the whole thing. It just feels so awkward and embarrassing.
That's a good place to start!
What did you have? Brunch is becoming my favourite meal.
that's my personal self-improvement goal
hoping that it leads back to the point where I enjoy taking selfies again
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If only I were allowed to wear them during the week
But I got enough for a few weekend rotations to start off with so yayyy