Hmmm. I wonder what my name should be. My new name. I know it's too early to think about it, but it's kind of fun to do so.
Maybe I should let somebody else name me? It seems like that would be appropriate.
I was thinking Alice. Or Elizabeth. Or Casey. Maybe I should go through a baby name book.
I'm actually losing weight now again, so today I am basically ecstatic. Thinking about how I'm going to come up with the money for all these surgeries gives me the chills though. And before I even do that, I have to speak to a therapist. I think I need to sort out a few more things.
I'm sorry I keep posting about this. I know you guys are sick of hearing about it. But it's exciting!
Hmmm. I wonder what my name should be. My new name. I know it's too early to think about it, but it's kind of fun to do so.
Maybe I should let somebody else name me? It seems like that would be appropriate.
I was thinking Alice. Or Elizabeth. Or Casey. Maybe I should go through a baby name book.
I'm actually losing weight now again, so today I am basically ecstatic. Thinking about how I'm going to come up with the money for all these surgeries gives me the chills though. And before I even do that, I have to speak to a therapist. I think I need to sort out a few more things.
I'm sorry I keep posting about this. I know you guys are sick of hearing about it. But it's exciting!
e: Congratulations, ND!
Yeah you should pace yourself.
Yeah, I'm going to. I think for now I need to focus on moving my life forward and...figuring out exactly how I'm going to raise ~$60,000. I'd kind of like to get this done before I turn 30. That leaves me five years and some months.
I wish I could start a blog or something and take donations. But I'm pretty sure that would make me a giant whore, first of all, and secondly, I don't really know that my writing is strong enough or that the content would be enough to attract any kind of readership. I'm almost wondering if I could start some kind of nonprofit that would sponsor things like this, but again, I'm pretty sure that my reasons for doing that are selfish. Is that a bad thing? Am I a terrible person for thinking about these things? This is new territory for me.
EDIT: Never mind! 17 gigs isn't really enough for my casual playlist. Man, what the hell, though, my old, broke-ass Sony piece of shit has twenty gigs for just a little bit more than that and this was years ago. YEARS.
What the hell, technology? Are you getting worse or is the MAN fucking shit up again?
Many people realized that carrying 80 gigs of music around was kinda stupid. I have a ton of my favorite albums, and a couple time a week I switch out for albums I want to listen to.
There is nothing casual about a playlist that equals about 200 hours of music
I saw a peach-flavored salad dressing today at the store. I don't really like Paula Deen much, but that looked pretty good. Maybe I will buy it next time.
e: Oh, man. I think I figured out what kind of avatar I want.
EDIT: Never mind! 17 gigs isn't really enough for my casual playlist. Man, what the hell, though, my old, broke-ass Sony piece of shit has twenty gigs for just a little bit more than that and this was years ago. YEARS.
What the hell, technology? Are you getting worse or is the MAN fucking shit up again?
Many people realized that carrying 80 gigs of music around was kinda stupid. I have a ton of my favorite albums, and a couple time a week I switch out for albums I want to listen to.
There is nothing casual about a playlist that equals about 200 hours of music
The thing is I'm not just into some of my music some of the time, I'm into all of my music all the time, always, forever. Sometimes I get sort of tired of somtiny portion of the songs I have, but I just shuffle through those.
Anything less than 20 gigs is just completely insufficient for my musical needs.
Sigh.
I suppose I could tolerate an iPod, even though I really don't like them.
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Yeah, I'm going to. I think for now I need to focus on moving my life forward and...figuring out exactly how I'm going to raise ~$60,000. I'd kind of like to get this done before I turn 30. That leaves me five years and some months.
I wish I could start a blog or something and take donations. But I'm pretty sure that would make me a giant whore, first of all, and secondly, I don't really know that my writing is strong enough or that the content would be enough to attract any kind of readership. I'm almost wondering if I could start some kind of nonprofit that would sponsor things like this, but again, I'm pretty sure that my reasons for doing that are selfish. Is that a bad thing? Am I a terrible person for thinking about these things? This is new territory for me.
starting a blog wouldn't make you a whore any more than working a normal job.
Of course, this means that the next time you get down on yourself about your abilities for no good reason, I will use that opportunity to make derisive fart noises.
Holy shit, 60 thousand dollars?? I can understand not wanting to get a discount cut-rate sex change where you'd be lucky if your boobs ended up aligned horizontally rather than vertically, but how cow that is a fuckload of money. Best of luck to you pulling that together, at least you've got the fire of motivation under your belly to get you going. (Excuse my mixed metaphors there).
Of course, this means that the next time you get down on yourself about your abilities for no good reason, I will use that opportunity to make derisive fart noises.
Holy shit, 60 thousand dollars?? I can understand not wanting to get a discount cut-rate sex change where you'd be lucky if your boobs ended up aligned horizontally rather than vertically, but how cow that is a fuckload of money. Best of luck to you pulling that together, at least you've got the fire of motivation under your belly to get you going. (Excuse my mixed metaphors there).
If I'm not mistaken most of that cost is the hormones and drugs one has to take for literally years before any sort of surgery can actually take place.
Holy shit, 60 thousand dollars?? I can understand not wanting to get a discount cut-rate sex change where you'd be lucky if your boobs ended up aligned horizontally rather than vertically, but how cow that is a fuckload of money. Best of luck to you pulling that together, at least you've got the fire of motivation under your belly to get you going. (Excuse my mixed metaphors there).
If I'm not mistaken most of that cost is the hormones and drugs one has to take for literally years before any sort of surgery can actually take place.
That sounds like a pain. Aren't mad scientist-style brain swaps an option yet?
EDIT: Never mind! 17 gigs isn't really enough for my casual playlist. Man, what the hell, though, my old, broke-ass Sony piece of shit has twenty gigs for just a little bit more than that and this was years ago. YEARS.
What the hell, technology? Are you getting worse or is the MAN fucking shit up again?
Many people realized that carrying 80 gigs of music around was kinda stupid. I have a ton of my favorite albums, and a couple time a week I switch out for albums I want to listen to.
There is nothing casual about a playlist that equals about 200 hours of music
You've never met me then. I've got 320 hrs on my casual playlist. Which are all favorited songs I've heard at least twice.
That's not to mention the rest of the music I've never even heard yet, just sitting on my hard drive.
SO, ZUNE... Get a zune. For your price range, a zune is perfect. and is also not an ipod. Love my zune, great customer support too.
TRU STORY, My 8 gig zune had a critical failure less than a year after I bought it, I called tech support and said "Hey your shit broke." "Super sorry sir. We don't make 8 gigs anymore, but would you like a brand new 80 gig instead?" "Fuck yes!" and it was at my front door in 2 days.
A+++ buy a zune.
Also zune software is amazing. Thats how I have so much music.
If it doesn't make me a whore, then that's exactly what I'm going to do. I hope it's not a trainwreck. I rarely have interesting things to say. In fact, I'd say it'll be more like an online journal. Or maybe that's typical.
Holy shit, 60 thousand dollars?? I can understand not wanting to get a discount cut-rate sex change where you'd be lucky if your boobs ended up aligned horizontally rather than vertically, but how cow that is a fuckload of money. Best of luck to you pulling that together, at least you've got the fire of motivation under your belly to get you going. (Excuse my mixed metaphors there).
Actually that's a lowball estimate. Or more like middle of the road. It probably depends on how many procedures I will actually need to have done. I suspect that they will be pitching some that I don't need...so I think I have an interest in finding a really good surgeon.
The good news is that if I'm on a proper HMO at the time I can probably have the sex reassignment done on insurance, since I legally have to have a vagina to be considered female. The facial surgeries, hair removal, and hormone replacement are another matter. They aren't "medically necessary," so they aren't covered.
It's...really scary expensive. Like I thought my $700 computer was a feat of fiscal management.
Seems like a lot of girls on some of the boards I've been browsing have gone to Mexico or Thailand. Fuck that.
Though I thought that one of the reasons for going there besides cost (and I could be wrong) was that Thailand and Brazil (not sure about Mexico) are 2 of the few countries where gender reassignment surgery was covered by government healthcare, and subsequently would have more doctors experienced in those sorts of operations than countries where it's prohibitively expensive to pursue.
I suppose then, that it's something I will have to look into. I have a lot of research to do in any case. Not ruling anything out. I understand that "Fuck that" is pretty concrete language, but my head is spinning all the time right now. I can hardly form a cohesive paragraph anymore.
e: I'm thinking about commissioning an avatar. From whom, I don't know, and of what, I'm not sure. I was thinking about a girl's face drawn in the scott pilgrim style.
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You get to work at a game studio AND kick it with Curt Schilling?! WHHAAAaooo
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Oh god I studied German in highscool, I should at least understand some of that.
Mr vice president, I here have an example of.. book, bok, what is he saying aaaa
I will run through all of them with a laptop and Wacom tablet attached to my body, drawing furiously.
Yeah you should pace yourself.
Hahaha! I had a mental image of you running through studios with a laptop and a wacom attached to your body. you were drawing furiously!
Yeah, I'm going to. I think for now I need to focus on moving my life forward and...figuring out exactly how I'm going to raise ~$60,000. I'd kind of like to get this done before I turn 30. That leaves me five years and some months.
I wish I could start a blog or something and take donations. But I'm pretty sure that would make me a giant whore, first of all, and secondly, I don't really know that my writing is strong enough or that the content would be enough to attract any kind of readership. I'm almost wondering if I could start some kind of nonprofit that would sponsor things like this, but again, I'm pretty sure that my reasons for doing that are selfish. Is that a bad thing? Am I a terrible person for thinking about these things? This is new territory for me.
Many people realized that carrying 80 gigs of music around was kinda stupid. I have a ton of my favorite albums, and a couple time a week I switch out for albums I want to listen to.
There is nothing casual about a playlist that equals about 200 hours of music
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e: Oh, man. I think I figured out what kind of avatar I want.
The thing is I'm not just into some of my music some of the time, I'm into all of my music all the time, always, forever. Sometimes I get sort of tired of somtiny portion of the songs I have, but I just shuffle through those.
Anything less than 20 gigs is just completely insufficient for my musical needs.
Sigh.
I suppose I could tolerate an iPod, even though I really don't like them.
starting a blog wouldn't make you a whore any more than working a normal job.
Congratulations on the job, NightDragon.
Of course, this means that the next time you get down on yourself about your abilities for no good reason, I will use that opportunity to make derisive fart noises.
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I have a 30GB original zune I could sell you. I got a 30gb zune HD for christmas.
I'm new. :>
Followed a friend here, but I figured I'd post and say hiiiii before I go back to just lurking.
Hiiiii.
Holy shit, 60 thousand dollars?? I can understand not wanting to get a discount cut-rate sex change where you'd be lucky if your boobs ended up aligned horizontally rather than vertically, but how cow that is a fuckload of money. Best of luck to you pulling that together, at least you've got the fire of motivation under your belly to get you going. (Excuse my mixed metaphors there).
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meowmix - OH MAN your avatar...I remember watching that as a kid, haven't seen it in forever! That sequence was mildly horrifying.
Fuzzy - welcome!
If I'm not mistaken most of that cost is the hormones and drugs one has to take for literally years before any sort of surgery can actually take place.
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The avatar references the book -- off to watch the movie now.
edit: It's narrated by PDQ Bach, even!
Well, if you're going to animate Maurice Sendak, that's the way to go about it.
That sounds like a pain. Aren't mad scientist-style brain swaps an option yet?
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yesssss do eeeet
I think I may've been introduced to the movie before the book, even.
[edit] OH SNAP, all those with websites remember to update your © to 2011. Literally seems like last month that Bombs mentioned that for 2010.
Alice is a pretty spectacular name, if I do say so my self.
Also, CONGRATS ND, SO PROUD!
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You've never met me then. I've got 320 hrs on my casual playlist. Which are all favorited songs I've heard at least twice.
That's not to mention the rest of the music I've never even heard yet, just sitting on my hard drive.
SO, ZUNE... Get a zune. For your price range, a zune is perfect. and is also not an ipod. Love my zune, great customer support too.
TRU STORY, My 8 gig zune had a critical failure less than a year after I bought it, I called tech support and said "Hey your shit broke." "Super sorry sir. We don't make 8 gigs anymore, but would you like a brand new 80 gig instead?" "Fuck yes!" and it was at my front door in 2 days.
A+++ buy a zune.
Also zune software is amazing. Thats how I have so much music.
PS. GRATS ND!!! (what's 38 studios? googles...)
Also yes I am quite partial to Alice.
Actually that's a lowball estimate. Or more like middle of the road. It probably depends on how many procedures I will actually need to have done. I suspect that they will be pitching some that I don't need...so I think I have an interest in finding a really good surgeon.
The good news is that if I'm on a proper HMO at the time I can probably have the sex reassignment done on insurance, since I legally have to have a vagina to be considered female. The facial surgeries, hair removal, and hormone replacement are another matter. They aren't "medically necessary," so they aren't covered.
It's...really scary expensive. Like I thought my $700 computer was a feat of fiscal management.
Seems like a lot of girls on some of the boards I've been browsing have gone to Mexico or Thailand. Fuck that.
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Though I thought that one of the reasons for going there besides cost (and I could be wrong) was that Thailand and Brazil (not sure about Mexico) are 2 of the few countries where gender reassignment surgery was covered by government healthcare, and subsequently would have more doctors experienced in those sorts of operations than countries where it's prohibitively expensive to pursue.
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e: I'm thinking about commissioning an avatar. From whom, I don't know, and of what, I'm not sure. I was thinking about a girl's face drawn in the scott pilgrim style.
No, I haven't met you, but I have met people like you. Hur hur hur.