Just a cascade of tiny bullshit nothing minor annoyances and all of a sudden I am angry and myself, the universe, and everyone in it.
I am listening to a love ballad in this guy's taxi and the lyrics are PISSING ME OFF SO MUCH.
I need to get home and meditate.
Micro-aggressions for being a foreigner or some other cascade of tiny bullshit?
It was weird, some days in Japan I could just shrug it off and other days it was a death by a thousand cuts as each one just got a little bit under my skin until I was fuming.
No, I find the little nattering ignorant comments are way less common in Taiwan. Nobody ever compliments me on my ability to eat with chopsticks for example.
This was me being stupid and my own insecurities about the future and myself as a person and Trump and my fucking phone not working and my love life and this fucking taxi driver talking to me when I don't wanna talk and just fucking
No, I find the little nattering ignorant comments are way less common in Taiwan. Nobody ever compliments me on my ability to eat with chopsticks for example.
This was me being stupid and my own insecurities about the future and myself as a person and Trump and my fucking phone not working and my love life and this fucking taxi driver talking to me when I don't wanna talk and just fucking
Deep breath.
That's really nice to hear!
And yeah I feel you. I think I've had like 5 Trump related stress incidents since the election results, or at least, compounded by Trump. Dude is like a cloud hanging over the world.
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I was chatting with a Canadian at a beer thing last night, and he was like, let's NOT talk about it, and it was really... Nice. Not that I don't think it's important to keep talking about it generally. But it was good to have conversation not about 2016: Hell Comes to Town
"Sandra has a good solid anti-murderer vibe. My skin felt very secure and sufficiently attached to my body when I met her. Also my organs." HAIL SATAN
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I'm so mad.
I would always have a thing where if I got super annoyed or frustrated then I'd get this pain in the base of my neck - the saying was actually true for me.
Like the past couple weeks it's now basically an entire shoulders-up aching pain that rarely subsides.
My job is wearing me down mentally so that despite a four days on, four days off schedule I feel like I need a day to recover and a day to prepare so it feels like I only really get two days off to be mentally away from the job. My housing situation, while great financially, just is exhausting and cramped with two roommates who I text more than actually see in person due to all of our weird schedules.
I keep telling myself I need to start meditating but if I actually get around to it we'll see how it works...
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edited November 2016
Yesterday morning, just four hours into being asleep, my upstairs neighbors decided it was THROW FURNITURE AROUND & POUND ON WALLS TIME.
For some reason, the two possibilities I can think of being the owner company of my building and several others trying to force me out because I've been here nearly eight years and I help raise a storm when shit is broken, or the other one being that they just thought they could charge more for a shitty studio if they ripped up all the carpeting and padding and replaced it with wooden slats. I've been up there, it's wooden slats against the concrete between floors.
So after some time of them sliding furniture around, banging on the walls, stomping about, rolling wheeled tables; shit that was actually starting to make my bed shake, I grabbed my mop (because the mop head acts as a buffer against punching a hole in the plaster) and finally shut them up by pounding against the ceiling and screaming at them.
They stop whatever the fuck they were doing, I put the mop away, it's way too hot in the apartment because the shitty steam radiator is on, so I open the window. Which immediately exposes me to the insane screaming match of some junkies fighting over a dumpster next door that then goes on for two hours.
Oh and then I had to go work the closing shift without a full staff on a party night and I'm looking at multiple eight day stretches after Tuesday because we're losing people.
I want to stab everything in the face.
edit: AFAIK the place upstairs is being rented out by some rich asshole who doesn't actually live there. I've seen inside a couple of times from confronting them about the noise, there's barely any furniture, no decorations. It's just this one really tall French kid and a bunch of random club girls. Like somebodies parents rented a place for the kid to have near the bars.
I blew off some steam with my buddies and they liked my seven layer dip and I got a turkey for thanksgiving and I'm gonna go out tonight and try to get phone numbers and learn where people go for salsa lessons and try to add something else to do to my schedule here.
And I wouldn't be totally pissed off if I met a nice girl who wants to play some games and get some tea once in a dang while.
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Well in the US the law already decides if you're guilty or innocent based on the color of your skin (obviously not 100% of the time), I don't see why using other biases is so shocking.
Infuriating, absolutely, but as long as people are people, I think there are going to be assholes doing incorrect shit.
Are you sure that the computer isn't just searching for the top bits of a dress shirt collar and suit jacket?
I'd also be wondering about microexpressions.
I mean, MAYBE they didn't train the classifier on mugshots vs professional headshots, because that would be incredibly stupid, right? Right?
But those sample images do not fill me with confidence. Who the hell reviewed this paper?
I want to punch my teenaged self in the fucking face
I've been here since the very early 2000's. I've grown a lot but still, goddamn there is a horrible monster inside of me that I constantly have to tighten the chains on.
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I want to punch my teenaged self in the fucking face
I've been here since the very early 2000's. I've grown a lot but still, goddamn there is a horrible monster inside of me that I constantly have to tighten the chains on.
Yeah I feel that feel, dawg. Like, I remember being an angry little fuckin misanthropic douche, but I sure worry that I'm still that dude in some ways and it fuckin sucks.
When I look at posts from my teenaged self I want to throttle past me not for being a horrid person, but for shit like naming a paladin Ferok Angelwing and then proceeding to RP fight with people who had Original The Characters from Naruto and Bleach (all of this on another forum that long ago died).
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He probably should do a lot of things
I am very very angry
Just a cascade of tiny bullshit nothing minor annoyances and all of a sudden I am angry and myself, the universe, and everyone in it.
I am listening to a love ballad in this guy's taxi and the lyrics are PISSING ME OFF SO MUCH.
I need to get home and meditate.
Micro-aggressions for being a foreigner or some other cascade of tiny bullshit?
It was weird, some days in Japan I could just shrug it off and other days it was a death by a thousand cuts as each one just got a little bit under my skin until I was fuming.
This was me being stupid and my own insecurities about the future and myself as a person and Trump and my fucking phone not working and my love life and this fucking taxi driver talking to me when I don't wanna talk and just fucking
Deep breath.
That's really nice to hear!
And yeah I feel you. I think I've had like 5 Trump related stress incidents since the election results, or at least, compounded by Trump. Dude is like a cloud hanging over the world.
"Sandra has a good solid anti-murderer vibe. My skin felt very secure and sufficiently attached to my body when I met her. Also my organs." HAIL SATAN
I would always have a thing where if I got super annoyed or frustrated then I'd get this pain in the base of my neck - the saying was actually true for me.
Like the past couple weeks it's now basically an entire shoulders-up aching pain that rarely subsides.
My job is wearing me down mentally so that despite a four days on, four days off schedule I feel like I need a day to recover and a day to prepare so it feels like I only really get two days off to be mentally away from the job. My housing situation, while great financially, just is exhausting and cramped with two roommates who I text more than actually see in person due to all of our weird schedules.
I keep telling myself I need to start meditating but if I actually get around to it we'll see how it works...
If that ain't work mebbe I stay in and drink.
On the other hand, Ikea on a Saturday.
"Sandra has a good solid anti-murderer vibe. My skin felt very secure and sufficiently attached to my body when I met her. Also my organs." HAIL SATAN
Satans..... hints.....
Delivery is your friend.
And one of the things that is weirdly affordable.
"Sandra has a good solid anti-murderer vibe. My skin felt very secure and sufficiently attached to my body when I met her. Also my organs." HAIL SATAN
If I wanted animated balloons showing up in my text messages, I'd put in a gif or something.
And the lyrics of the song in the commercial are wrong.
And I really need to find a pillow to scream into.
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For some reason, the two possibilities I can think of being the owner company of my building and several others trying to force me out because I've been here nearly eight years and I help raise a storm when shit is broken, or the other one being that they just thought they could charge more for a shitty studio if they ripped up all the carpeting and padding and replaced it with wooden slats. I've been up there, it's wooden slats against the concrete between floors.
So after some time of them sliding furniture around, banging on the walls, stomping about, rolling wheeled tables; shit that was actually starting to make my bed shake, I grabbed my mop (because the mop head acts as a buffer against punching a hole in the plaster) and finally shut them up by pounding against the ceiling and screaming at them.
They stop whatever the fuck they were doing, I put the mop away, it's way too hot in the apartment because the shitty steam radiator is on, so I open the window. Which immediately exposes me to the insane screaming match of some junkies fighting over a dumpster next door that then goes on for two hours.
Oh and then I had to go work the closing shift without a full staff on a party night and I'm looking at multiple eight day stretches after Tuesday because we're losing people.
I want to stab everything in the face.
edit: AFAIK the place upstairs is being rented out by some rich asshole who doesn't actually live there. I've seen inside a couple of times from confronting them about the noise, there's barely any furniture, no decorations. It's just this one really tall French kid and a bunch of random club girls. Like somebodies parents rented a place for the kid to have near the bars.
And I wouldn't be totally pissed off if I met a nice girl who wants to play some games and get some tea once in a dang while.
Come to South Africa.
Up yours, meat sack.
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My boss is from SA, he is going back next year.
I will see if I can fit in his luggage. :P
Edit: Real talk, I feel SO MUCH BETTER, I am so glad I came out tonight.
https://arxiv.org/abs/1611.04135
http://motherboard.vice.com/read/new-program-decides-criminality-from-facial-features
actually I'm not sure if i'm mad or just horrified
Infuriating, absolutely, but as long as people are people, I think there are going to be assholes doing incorrect shit.
I'd also be wondering about microexpressions.
I mean, MAYBE they didn't train the classifier on mugshots vs professional headshots, because that would be incredibly stupid, right? Right?
But those sample images do not fill me with confidence. Who the hell reviewed this paper?
But I'd be more scared of Trump as a foreigner than a citizen.
“We have been accused on Internet of being irresponsible socially,” Wu said.
It's amazing what you can get away with nowadays just by saying it out loud.
I want to punch my teenaged self in the fucking face
I've been here since the very early 2000's. I've grown a lot but still, goddamn there is a horrible monster inside of me that I constantly have to tighten the chains on.
Yeah I feel that feel, dawg. Like, I remember being an angry little fuckin misanthropic douche, but I sure worry that I'm still that dude in some ways and it fuckin sucks.
I need to move to the tropics.
Man I hate my posts from last month. I'm not gonna go looking back to my early years.
Wait where? In Boston?
The entire northeast basically.
We've got about a foot this morning up here in Syracuse.
I half contemplated moving to Florida.