I like checking in with you because I know some days can suck, but you seem in a decent mood today!
I talked with someone yesterday and she gave advice I have to follow
Had couples' therapy this morning and this week it ended up mostly being about me. I am sure I should remember more!
Experiment is happening and I am skilled.
This all sounds like positive movement! I am glad to hear it
As someone who has weekly therapy where it's always 100% about me, I understand that unique feeling of having a revelation that changes your perspective or your attitude or your behavior
It's always ... humbling, but also like a burden is being lifted off of you.
"You have to attack the deep structural inequalities that foment the use of such materials in the first place!", I screamed at the girl trying to get the ice cream place to stop using styrofoam cups.
One day bullfriend and I will have our own farm animal sanctuary/hippie artist commune, and then finally, in that brief window before the project collapses in figurative and literal flames, I’ll finally be able to enjoy scrambled eggs guilt free
Is there some I dunno... science or whatever behind the name "Teetotaller" or did someone pull random letters out of a hat, arrange them, and then go "This is to describe a person who doesn't drink"?
It's very old and people talked funny in the past
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Sir Landsharkresting shark faceRegistered Userregular
I am once again having Milski's Overindulgent Breakfast.
Two blueberry muffins, a pot of coffee, two eggs over easy, a large biscuit, a half plate of hash browns, and 2/3rds of a pound of hamburger steak covered in cheese. I might get some hummingbird cake or apple pie at the end.
I have the perception that you work interesting hours, but I am glad you're at least obscenely well fed
"Sir Landshark"
I'm sorry to hear work's being a dick again. Did that raise ever get applied, at least? I know more money doesn't buy back your time, but sometimes it eases the pain! >_>
oh yeah the raise went thru at the beginning of the year
and im paid hourly
but I haven't seen my daughter since sunday so
:bro:
That's not fair, I'm sorry to hear that, man.
I'm glad she's on the mend, though. I "wasn't here", but I was kept apprised of the situation and I was sending positive vibes toward the Landshark family
I'm glad I got Shadow of the Colossus but also I've been streaming it. Hard Mode actually quite hard!
I will probably never be able to compete with other streamers because I have a day job but it's still fun.
Most of them started with day jobs too. Probably a bit harder to break through these days though.
Still it could happen.
If someone influential hosted you would probably be the easiest way.
I'm still confused why I often have a woman with 10,600 followers watching me. I assume for the feet.
Yeah a big host so that people might actually see you for a few seconds and decide to stick around is a huuuge deal. I guess if I want to grow my stream more I should do more networking. I did get a sea of thieves host once of like 50 people that rapidly dropped down to 20 but that was still pretty cool. And/or get a camera for feet.
are you trying to do this as a second job type thing?
I was under the impression that most of the chat stream community was just into it as like a way to hang out with their internet friends
growing beyond chat would probably take a lot of effort. good luck!
Second job is probably a bit too serious, but I would love to build an actual following and get a twitch paycheck every once in a while. I'm getting pretty close to my first twitch paycheck actually. I definitely want to focus on it more as a hobby, but part of the fun of the hobby for me is trying to grow the stream I think. Fiddling with audio and video settings and making things look/sound as professional as I can has been really fun and interesting.
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OnTheLastCastlelet's keep it haimish for the peripateticRegistered Userregular
I am once again having Milski's Overindulgent Breakfast.
Two blueberry muffins, a pot of coffee, two eggs over easy, a large biscuit, a half plate of hash browns, and 2/3rds of a pound of hamburger steak covered in cheese. I might get some hummingbird cake or apple pie at the end.
I have the perception that you work interesting hours, but I am glad you're at least obscenely well fed
"Sir Landshark"
I'm sorry to hear work's being a dick again. Did that raise ever get applied, at least? I know more money doesn't buy back your time, but sometimes it eases the pain! >_>
oh yeah the raise went thru at the beginning of the year
and im paid hourly
but I haven't seen my daughter since sunday so
:bro:
That's not fair, I'm sorry to hear that, man.
I'm glad she's on the mend, though. I "wasn't here", but I was kept apprised of the situation and I was sending positive vibes toward the Landshark family
oh yeah she's 100% better and back to screaming at porp for looking at her the wrong way
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BeNarwhalThe Work Left UnfinishedRegistered Userregular
I am once again having Milski's Overindulgent Breakfast.
Two blueberry muffins, a pot of coffee, two eggs over easy, a large biscuit, a half plate of hash browns, and 2/3rds of a pound of hamburger steak covered in cheese. I might get some hummingbird cake or apple pie at the end.
I have the perception that you work interesting hours, but I am glad you're at least obscenely well fed
"Sir Landshark"
I'm sorry to hear work's being a dick again. Did that raise ever get applied, at least? I know more money doesn't buy back your time, but sometimes it eases the pain! >_>
My hours are generally a standard 9/80 (but 6:30 to 4:30 to beat traffic) and I don't work too much overtime, being salaried. So its not bad, I just post when I go to turnarounds (which I volunteered for last year so I got an extra month of it).
Oh, okay, there's at least some logic to it! :P
Turnarounds are never fun, but a good way to get in your boss's good books, I bet.
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Powerpuppiesdrinking coffee in themountain cabinRegistered Userregular
I'm glad I got Shadow of the Colossus but also I've been streaming it. Hard Mode actually quite hard!
I will probably never be able to compete with other streamers because I have a day job but it's still fun.
Most of them started with day jobs too. Probably a bit harder to break through these days though.
Still it could happen.
If someone influential hosted you would probably be the easiest way.
I'm still confused why I often have a woman with 10,600 followers watching me. I assume for the feet.
Yeah a big host so that people might actually see you for a few seconds and decide to stick around is a huuuge deal. I guess if I want to grow my stream more I should do more networking. I did get a sea of thieves host once of like 50 people that rapidly dropped down to 20 but that was still pretty cool. And/or get a camera for feet.
are you trying to do this as a second job type thing?
I was under the impression that most of the chat stream community was just into it as like a way to hang out with their internet friends
growing beyond chat would probably take a lot of effort. good luck!
Second job is probably a bit too serious, but I would love to build an actual following and get a twitch paycheck every once in a while. I'm getting pretty close to my first twitch paycheck actually. I definitely want to focus on it more as a hobby, but part of the fun of the hobby for me is trying to grow the stream I think. Fiddling with audio and video settings and making things look/sound as professional as I can has been really fun and interesting.
Yeah, seeing you and VH actually try to be better has had a de-motivating effect!
Also probably moving, job and not having a comfy chair.
People who feel entitled to know why I don't drink and inquire with mocking hostility get a pretty shitty response from me.
Like, that kind of shit doesn't happen much anymore nowadays because I'm older and don't go to like, shitty house parties or whatever much, but every now and again I'll still be over at somebody's place and they'll offer me something to drink and go over a list of options and they're all booze and I'll politely decline or ask for a water or soda or something
And they'll wrinkle their nose like I farted in church and be like "what're you, a Mormon? It's a party, man"
At which point I will like, do a sharp exhale through my nose, sigh and say "Sure, and if I have serious health reasons I don't drink and I fucking die on your couch just because you felt insulted I didn't want some of your IPA would that bring the room down?" and then my wife sighs at me and I shrug.
Fuck off with that shit.
If someone is the kind of person who wants you to know why they don't drink, then brother, trust me they will fucking tell you.
Otherwise, leave them alone and just say "Okay, no problem."
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ShivahnUnaware of her barrel shifter privilegeWestern coastal temptressRegistered User, Moderatormod
How is PETA even on people's radars as a hate object
PETA is such a tiny and trivial organization
I can't remember the last time I actually saw a peta ad outside of some jpg compressed 2004 photo of a guy wrapped in plastic to protest meat being posted on Imgur or something for mockery
How are Tumblrinas even on people's radars as a hate object? Or reddit redpillers? Tiny and trivial amounts of people can disproportionately represent themselves through being loud and annoying. Signal repeating and reinforcement is part and parcel of the modern Internet.
Redpillers occasionally go on shooting sprees so...
(Or at least, the views espoused by them are the kind of thing that gets women killed, and they reflect unpleasant realities of our current society, rather than being weird reactionary outcroppings, even if that is some of the source.)
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IlpalaJust this guy, y'knowTexasRegistered Userregular
I am once again having Milski's Overindulgent Breakfast.
Two blueberry muffins, a pot of coffee, two eggs over easy, a large biscuit, a half plate of hash browns, and 2/3rds of a pound of hamburger steak covered in cheese. I might get some hummingbird cake or apple pie at the end.
I have the perception that you work interesting hours, but I am glad you're at least obscenely well fed
"Sir Landshark"
I'm sorry to hear work's being a dick again. Did that raise ever get applied, at least? I know more money doesn't buy back your time, but sometimes it eases the pain! >_>
oh yeah the raise went thru at the beginning of the year
and im paid hourly
but I haven't seen my daughter since sunday so
:bro:
That's not fair, I'm sorry to hear that, man.
I'm glad she's on the mend, though. I "wasn't here", but I was kept apprised of the situation and I was sending positive vibes toward the Landshark family
oh yeah she's 100% better and back to screaming at porp for looking at her the wrong way
#3 bragging to 1 and 2 "I said *looks around, whispers* biiiiiiiiii--"
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Mojo_JojoWe are only now beginning to understand the full power and ramifications of sexual intercourseRegistered Userregular
I would be the best streamer.
I usually play for bursts of up to an hour and a half but sporadically so those can be three nights in a row or two weeks apart.
Also I don't remember the last time I played something around its launch window
But I keep a camera on my crotch at all times
Homogeneous distribution of your varieties of amuse-gueule
Let's be real: teetotallers can possibly be as annoying as an annoying vegan
My experience is similar to that of a vegan: people treat me like shit out of defensiveness that I’m like, implicitly criticizing their lifestyle. Give me a vegan over a ‘for every cow you don’t eat I’ll eat three lol!!’ person any day. Same thing here.
Comparing just vegan to militantly anti-vegan is unfair
The equivalent is the evangelical vegan who is dumb as rocks. Your PETA people.
If I was locked in a room with one of those and one of the for every cow you don't eat I'll eat three lol people and I had a gun with two bullets I'd shoot myself twice
The point is that there aren't actually that many militant vegans. I've encountered militant vegans but they're pretty rare, and it's been a very long time.
While the opposite, somebody who responds with defensiveness and derision to the mere suggestion that somebody in their presence is vegan, is all too common.
I know, it is literally impossible to mention a vegan being annoying without someone piping up with "actually they're really rare!"
They're not that rare. A vegan, p much by definition, is someone who cares a lot about an issue, and people who care a lot about issues are insufferable far more often than people who don't
(Which is, incidentally, more or less the reason I'm not in politics. The ratio is too bad for me. Agreeing with them doesn't help.)
I am once again having Milski's Overindulgent Breakfast.
Two blueberry muffins, a pot of coffee, two eggs over easy, a large biscuit, a half plate of hash browns, and 2/3rds of a pound of hamburger steak covered in cheese. I might get some hummingbird cake or apple pie at the end.
I have the perception that you work interesting hours, but I am glad you're at least obscenely well fed
"Sir Landshark"
I'm sorry to hear work's being a dick again. Did that raise ever get applied, at least? I know more money doesn't buy back your time, but sometimes it eases the pain! >_>
My hours are generally a standard 9/80 (but 6:30 to 4:30 to beat traffic) and I don't work too much overtime, being salaried. So its not bad, I just post when I go to turnarounds (which I volunteered for last year so I got an extra month of it).
Oh, okay, there's at least some logic to it! :P
Turnarounds are never fun, but a good way to get in your boss's good books, I bet.
It seemed to pay off in my eval last year. I have mildly fumbled a few things at the start of this year, though, so hopefully that doesn't wipe it out.
I ate an engineer
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OnTheLastCastlelet's keep it haimish for the peripateticRegistered Userregular
I mean if you can get 2,000 subs at the base level you can make $50,000. Easy peasy. I wonder how many total twitch subs are out there right now.
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ShivahnUnaware of her barrel shifter privilegeWestern coastal temptressRegistered User, Moderatormod
I've never really been able to understand any discussion surrounding alcohol/alcohol culture, as the idea of drinking for the purpose of getting drunk is just completely alien.
Alcoholic drinks were always, in my entire extended family, things which were served alongside food, typically wine, often homegrown grapes that were hand crushed (Italian family). Harder alcohols were served only when company came over, and usually with coffee, or right after supper while everyone's relaxing. Beer was only ever bought by my uncle or dad, being the youngest cohort, and then just before supper or alongside it if they weren't feeling wine.
So alcohol was always a substitutable beverage associated with food.
Are you American?
Canadian. Grandparents immigrated from Italy.
Ah, interesting. I was just wondering because I know English-speaking alcohol consumption is different from some other regions, and, at least in the US (I suspect Canada too), alcohol is a thing you drink lots of in college because everyone else is*.
*everyone thinks everyone else drinks more than they actually do, so they drink more to compensate, it's a hilarious and deadly psychological phenomenon.
Binge drinking culture is pretty universal in the English speaking world and outside it as well. US overall still tends to drink less than a lot of English speaking countries.
I technically never binge drink
But it also feels kind of close to my drinking style
I mean, have you at least tried not being a little baby and doing some keg stands though
Here are my drinking choices:
Wine or mead that I made, because I'm better than everyone else
Rum or brandy
That is it, end list, thank you.
Though adding cream soda to the rum or lemonade to the brandy tends to make dope drinks.
i obviously don't care if someone doesn't drink, but i do feel bad when they're stuck hanging out with a bunch of drunks
I legit don't mind at all
My extended family is largely a big bunch of drinkers (with a couple exceptions), and I love 'em all, so if they need a refill I'm the first to go get it for them
As they get drunker and the conversation gets sillier, I'm allowed to loosen up and be a little sillier too, it's kind of nice!
My friend group is largely sober, with a couple exceptions, but we'll alternate going to the bar and chilling at someone's house or going for coffee, it's all good
Ladyfish drinks in moderation, and mostly she's just very cute when she's had a few
The best kind of drunk to be is when other people (that you like when drunk) are drunker than you
I guess it's only a question of how much of a gap you can take
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BeNarwhalThe Work Left UnfinishedRegistered Userregular
I wish I cared more about streaming, I think it's definitely a thing I could be good at.
I got tiny tastes of big time streamer jobness during my span of streaming. There is a distinct difference when you get raided by that streamer with 100+ people in tow. Keeping up with chat and the like becomes much harder and it made go a big rubbery one when thinking of the job that the day to day full time streamers do.
Definitely one of those things where you have to love it.
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ShivahnUnaware of her barrel shifter privilegeWestern coastal temptressRegistered User, Moderatormod
I like checking in with you because I know some days can suck, but you seem in a decent mood today!
I talked with someone yesterday and she gave advice I have to follow
Had couples' therapy this morning and this week it ended up mostly being about me. I am sure I should remember more!
Experiment is happening and I am skilled.
This all sounds like positive movement! I am glad to hear it
As someone who has weekly therapy where it's always 100% about me, I understand that unique feeling of having a revelation that changes your perspective or your attitude or your behavior
It's always ... humbling, but also like a burden is being lifted off of you.
I like it, anyway.
Oh it is rare that I have revelations in therapy. I talk too much and introspect too much for that to happen super often. I just don't know how to fix my shit, sometimes.
I mean today it was mostly stuff related to OCD that came out, which I knew but I think was useful for Querry to hear (such as: I have a jealous streak, but it is definitely in the form of obsessive-compulsive intrusive thoughts, rather than a thing in and of itself. Similarly, thoughts of death and dying: how OCD comes out, sometimes.)
My wife and I went to a house party years back and the dude offered me a drink and when I politely declined all booze he started to get shitty and I made a face like I was gonna say some shit and his wife saw and just dived in that convo like Captain America on a grenade, redirecting the subject and my ire.
I am once again having Milski's Overindulgent Breakfast.
Two blueberry muffins, a pot of coffee, two eggs over easy, a large biscuit, a half plate of hash browns, and 2/3rds of a pound of hamburger steak covered in cheese. I might get some hummingbird cake or apple pie at the end.
I have the perception that you work interesting hours, but I am glad you're at least obscenely well fed
"Sir Landshark"
I'm sorry to hear work's being a dick again. Did that raise ever get applied, at least? I know more money doesn't buy back your time, but sometimes it eases the pain! >_>
My hours are generally a standard 9/80 (but 6:30 to 4:30 to beat traffic) and I don't work too much overtime, being salaried. So its not bad, I just post when I go to turnarounds (which I volunteered for last year so I got an extra month of it).
Oh, okay, there's at least some logic to it! :P
Turnarounds are never fun, but a good way to get in your boss's good books, I bet.
It seemed to pay off in my eval last year. I have mildly fumbled a few things at the start of this year, though, so hopefully that doesn't wipe it out.
Emotionally complex post! Hard to choose reaction button! :P
You work in an intense field, I'm sure a couple fumbles are baked into the expectations. Nobody never drops the ball except for Adrian Peterson!
Oh, the unwanted plate of shots. The definition of read the goddamn room.
A good plate of shots is when everybody is excited about being stupid and just getting silly drunk together.
The guy who buys a round of shots to a bunch of people who go "uh" because they were sipping beer while practicing the art of good conversation, is the guy who calls you "buddy" and laughs really loudly at his own jokes with a laugh that makes you want to stab him in the eyes
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BeNarwhalThe Work Left UnfinishedRegistered Userregular
I'm glad I got Shadow of the Colossus but also I've been streaming it. Hard Mode actually quite hard!
I will probably never be able to compete with other streamers because I have a day job but it's still fun.
Most of them started with day jobs too. Probably a bit harder to break through these days though.
Still it could happen.
If someone influential hosted you would probably be the easiest way.
I'm still confused why I often have a woman with 10,600 followers watching me. I assume for the feet.
Yeah a big host so that people might actually see you for a few seconds and decide to stick around is a huuuge deal. I guess if I want to grow my stream more I should do more networking. I did get a sea of thieves host once of like 50 people that rapidly dropped down to 20 but that was still pretty cool. And/or get a camera for feet.
are you trying to do this as a second job type thing?
I was under the impression that most of the chat stream community was just into it as like a way to hang out with their internet friends
growing beyond chat would probably take a lot of effort. good luck!
Second job is probably a bit too serious, but I would love to build an actual following and get a twitch paycheck every once in a while. I'm getting pretty close to my first twitch paycheck actually. I definitely want to focus on it more as a hobby, but part of the fun of the hobby for me is trying to grow the stream I think. Fiddling with audio and video settings and making things look/sound as professional as I can has been really fun and interesting.
being around drunk people is definitely the worst part of not drinking. as aziz ansari said, 'woo girls' especially. i basically can't go out with my college aged female coworkers because jesus christ.
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This all sounds like positive movement! I am glad to hear it
As someone who has weekly therapy where it's always 100% about me, I understand that unique feeling of having a revelation that changes your perspective or your attitude or your behavior
It's always ... humbling, but also like a burden is being lifted off of you.
I like it, anyway.
If you hate booze then forcing yourself to drink it seems super unhealthy.
It's very old and people talked funny in the past
if you don't care then who cares right
:bro:
That's not fair, I'm sorry to hear that, man.
I'm glad she's on the mend, though. I "wasn't here", but I was kept apprised of the situation and I was sending positive vibes toward the Landshark family
Second job is probably a bit too serious, but I would love to build an actual following and get a twitch paycheck every once in a while. I'm getting pretty close to my first twitch paycheck actually. I definitely want to focus on it more as a hobby, but part of the fun of the hobby for me is trying to grow the stream I think. Fiddling with audio and video settings and making things look/sound as professional as I can has been really fun and interesting.
I don't get what you mean. Sometimes I do stream when I'm in a bad mood and not many people watch and I'm not very engaging. Is that what you meant?
My energy level being up seems to lead to my bigger snowball days where people keep coming in.
oh yeah she's 100% better and back to screaming at porp for looking at her the wrong way
Oh, okay, there's at least some logic to it! :P
Turnarounds are never fun, but a good way to get in your boss's good books, I bet.
i think he's just saying if you don't care about streaming who cares that you're not more into it
plenty of things you could be good at and streaming is not a lucrative career any more than playing the lottery
if you are having fun doing it then no reason to wish you were more into it, just enjoy it for what it is
Yeah, seeing you and VH actually try to be better has had a de-motivating effect!
Also probably moving, job and not having a comfy chair.
As in, tea makes up the totality of my strong drink consumption
Like, that kind of shit doesn't happen much anymore nowadays because I'm older and don't go to like, shitty house parties or whatever much, but every now and again I'll still be over at somebody's place and they'll offer me something to drink and go over a list of options and they're all booze and I'll politely decline or ask for a water or soda or something
And they'll wrinkle their nose like I farted in church and be like "what're you, a Mormon? It's a party, man"
At which point I will like, do a sharp exhale through my nose, sigh and say "Sure, and if I have serious health reasons I don't drink and I fucking die on your couch just because you felt insulted I didn't want some of your IPA would that bring the room down?" and then my wife sighs at me and I shrug.
Fuck off with that shit.
If someone is the kind of person who wants you to know why they don't drink, then brother, trust me they will fucking tell you.
Otherwise, leave them alone and just say "Okay, no problem."
Redpillers occasionally go on shooting sprees so...
(Or at least, the views espoused by them are the kind of thing that gets women killed, and they reflect unpleasant realities of our current society, rather than being weird reactionary outcroppings, even if that is some of the source.)
#3 bragging to 1 and 2 "I said *looks around, whispers* biiiiiiiiii--"
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Fuck Joe Manchin
I usually play for bursts of up to an hour and a half but sporadically so those can be three nights in a row or two weeks apart.
Also I don't remember the last time I played something around its launch window
But I keep a camera on my crotch at all times
I know, it is literally impossible to mention a vegan being annoying without someone piping up with "actually they're really rare!"
They're not that rare. A vegan, p much by definition, is someone who cares a lot about an issue, and people who care a lot about issues are insufferable far more often than people who don't
(Which is, incidentally, more or less the reason I'm not in politics. The ratio is too bad for me. Agreeing with them doesn't help.)
It seemed to pay off in my eval last year. I have mildly fumbled a few things at the start of this year, though, so hopefully that doesn't wipe it out.
Here are my drinking choices:
Wine or mead that I made, because I'm better than everyone else
Rum or brandy
That is it, end list, thank you.
Though adding cream soda to the rum or lemonade to the brandy tends to make dope drinks.
The best kind of drunk to be is when other people (that you like when drunk) are drunker than you
I guess it's only a question of how much of a gap you can take
This seems like a positive development! Good luck, friend :bro:
I'd say keep us posted but this is certainly private between you and her, so only share what you both feel comfortable sharing
But I hope it goes well
How many people seriously try to make fifty grand a year on twitch versus how many people achieve it
How long do they put in building the steam for no dollars, beyond the initial hobbyist investment
Would they be better off working minimum wage for that time plus the first year
I do not think it is easy peasy in practice
I got tiny tastes of big time streamer jobness during my span of streaming. There is a distinct difference when you get raided by that streamer with 100+ people in tow. Keeping up with chat and the like becomes much harder and it made go a big rubbery one when thinking of the job that the day to day full time streamers do.
Definitely one of those things where you have to love it.
Oh it is rare that I have revelations in therapy. I talk too much and introspect too much for that to happen super often. I just don't know how to fix my shit, sometimes.
I mean today it was mostly stuff related to OCD that came out, which I knew but I think was useful for Querry to hear (such as: I have a jealous streak, but it is definitely in the form of obsessive-compulsive intrusive thoughts, rather than a thing in and of itself. Similarly, thoughts of death and dying: how OCD comes out, sometimes.)
Wait what?
Im missing something here.
Good woman, definitely his better half
WHY WOULD YOU SHOW THIS TO ME.
Ive seen someone have this breakdown on stream before, its sad and heart breaking.
Emotionally complex post! Hard to choose reaction button! :P
You work in an intense field, I'm sure a couple fumbles are baked into the expectations. Nobody never drops the ball except for Adrian Peterson!
A good plate of shots is when everybody is excited about being stupid and just getting silly drunk together.
The guy who buys a round of shots to a bunch of people who go "uh" because they were sipping beer while practicing the art of good conversation, is the guy who calls you "buddy" and laughs really loudly at his own jokes with a laugh that makes you want to stab him in the eyes
Your new mic is A+, by the way!
Honestly? It kind of is. I mean, of all the service jobs it's the least service minded.
Which can be nice.
Don't listen to him, share it all with us, the social vultures.