So much of my facial hair is grey now. I know laser will miss a good portion of it and I will have to do the rest as electrolysis.
Honestly there is so much to do sometimes I am often overwhelmed.
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Starting to get things rolling on getting surgery. My tolerance for tits is basically gone. Probably going to need to get a loan, which I've never done before, so I hope it's possible and I don't accidentally sell my blood or something.
Everything feels absolutely nuts right now, like I'm zooming along at hyperspeed even though I've actually had a number of things delayed for at least another 3 months due to low levels.
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On a borderline whim, I came out to my supervisor at work? And it went great. Like, I didn't expect bad or I would have kept quiet, but I didn't expect great! While obviously clueless about any of the details (and pretty open about that), he couldn't have done better if he had researched "how to handle this" right before I walked in there.
And then I got acceptance from my parents? Felt kind of sudden but really, really amazing. I'm not completely sure what changed from this uncomfortable "let's just not talk about it" to putting actual effort in avoiding misgendering me (without success, mind, but they were trying, and it was kind of adorable). I think it's because they started watching I Am Jazz. But also whatever clicked in their heads to make them think watching that was a thing they should do.
Oh, oh, and
I, uh
I won a raffle at work?
For, um. Get this.
Three free laser hair removal treatments
I mean, goddamn.
I feel all kinds of guilty, like this isn't all supposed to be going so well. I was too awful a person pre-"awakening" to deserve this while I know so many others have been having it so hard. And I still know it's going to be hard, but like. Wow.
I think I'm just as suspicious of auspicious happenings as I am of compliments. Like, sure, thanks, but no way this is for real right?
Also I followed a bunch of trans blogs/meme pages on Facebook, and I'm just gorging on that stuff like it's a jar of pickles. My favorite so far was the transgirl sandwich, which consisted of a bottom slice of bread, a giant layer of just pickles, and another bottom slice of bread on top, and I just described a goddamn image meme, so clearly this has overwhelmed my mental faculties and I need to stop and go breathe.
Also, you're all beautiful and wonderful and amazing, and it's quite literally thanks to the people here that I was able to take those first steps, so thank you!
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I feel all kinds of guilty, like this isn't all supposed to be going so well. I was too awful a person pre-"awakening" to deserve this while I know so many others have been having it so hard. And I still know it's going to be hard, but like. Wow.
For the "survivor's" guilt I try to just focus on gratitude, that I get to lead this life and have these people in it. Still haven't figured out what to do with the impending sense of doom that my luck will run out, though.
I feel all kinds of guilty, like this isn't all supposed to be going so well. I was too awful a person pre-"awakening" to deserve this while I know so many others have been having it so hard. And I still know it's going to be hard, but like. Wow.
For the "survivor's" guilt I try to just focus on gratitude, that I get to lead this life and have these people in it. Still haven't figured out what to do with the impending sense of doom that my luck will run out, though.
As somebody who gets that for other reasons: pay it forward
Life is cruel, be kind
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With its brief on Friday, the Department of Justice is trying to impel the Supreme Court to issue a precedent-setting ruling that would give the green light to employers nationwide who are not encumbered by state anti-discrimination ordinances.
Just last week, the Justice Department filed a similar brief in a different case dealing with anti-transgender discrimination, arguing along the same lines that federal civil rights law does not protect transgender employees from losing their jobs.
Remarkably, the department argued in its memorandum that the reason anti-gay discrimination is not unlawful under the ban on sex-based discrimination is because, in cases of adverse treatment by an employer, both gay men and gay women would be addressed equally poorly.
this country deserves every shitty thing thatll happen to it in the next ten years
I think my doc is going by cis standards, which isn’t accounting for how estrogen is a derivative of testosterone. This doesn’t mean that’s the ONLY function of T, but rather if there should be a difference in range for cis vs. trans women. And the answer you get depends on whom you ask: I’ve seen some places just use cis standards, and others gives a way more ambiguous “well below male range.”
I had an anxiety attack because I had to see her again and she took that as a sign I was not ready for HRT and not stable enough in my emotions
Cos nothing's going to help stability of emotions better than having needed medical treatment dangled in front of your face and then taken away at the last second?
I had an anxiety attack because I had to see her again and she took that as a sign I was not ready for HRT and not stable enough in my emotions
Cos nothing's going to help stability of emotions better than having needed medical treatment dangled in front of your face and then taken away at the last second?
Doesn't help that my T levels are pathologically low and the lack of sex hormones probably factors into my depression and anxiety (my T was measured multiple times now and the level's stable so it seems like a concrete possibility)
I had an anxiety attack because I had to see her again and she took that as a sign I was not ready for HRT and not stable enough in my emotions
Cos nothing's going to help stability of emotions better than having needed medical treatment dangled in front of your face and then taken away at the last second?
Doesn't help that my T levels are pathologically low and the lack of sex hormones probably factors into my depression and anxiety (my T was measured multiple times now and the level's stable so it seems like a concrete possibility)
I honestly don't understand the medical mindset of deciding someone is not ready for something when they're perfectly capable of making that call themselves. It seems at best negligent, at worst malicious.
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it's simple, you have to be 110% sane and mentally perfect to get hormones and also needing hormones proves you're mentally ill. Logic.
This makes me incredibly mad, Platy. I'm sorry you're going through all that.
I had an anxiety attack because I had to see her again and she took that as a sign I was not ready for HRT and not stable enough in my emotions
Cos nothing's going to help stability of emotions better than having needed medical treatment dangled in front of your face and then taken away at the last second?
Doesn't help that my T levels are pathologically low and the lack of sex hormones probably factors into my depression and anxiety (my T was measured multiple times now and the level's stable so it seems like a concrete possibility)
I honestly don't understand the medical mindset of deciding someone is not ready for something when they're perfectly capable of making that call themselves. It seems at best negligent, at worst malicious.
a friend of mine basically had the rug pulled right out from under them by a psych, who had already been really demanding of them socially transitioning before they'd approve of HRT stuff, then right before the psych had said they'd write the letter they did a 180 and said it'd take at least 6 more months
I am honestly fuckin furious about it
and I feel kinda guilty about how supportive my medical professionals have been about my stuff
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Honestly there is so much to do sometimes I am often overwhelmed.
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There's more in the twitter thread and it's pretty heartfelt stuff
I wonder what they'll think of the pansexual trans woman they have working in their midst
Dun dun dunnnnnnnn.
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I'm picturing jaws music as you walk from room to room.
I'm picturing that scene at the end of Mad Men where Peggy is strolling down the corridor with a badass attitude and big ol' hentai picture
You’re awesome
Also today I saw a Subaru Outback with a bumper sticker reading “I’m so gay I can’t even drive straight!”
I got a chuckle out of it
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On a borderline whim, I came out to my supervisor at work? And it went great. Like, I didn't expect bad or I would have kept quiet, but I didn't expect great! While obviously clueless about any of the details (and pretty open about that), he couldn't have done better if he had researched "how to handle this" right before I walked in there.
And then I got acceptance from my parents? Felt kind of sudden but really, really amazing. I'm not completely sure what changed from this uncomfortable "let's just not talk about it" to putting actual effort in avoiding misgendering me (without success, mind, but they were trying, and it was kind of adorable). I think it's because they started watching I Am Jazz. But also whatever clicked in their heads to make them think watching that was a thing they should do.
Oh, oh, and
I, uh
I won a raffle at work?
For, um. Get this.
Three free laser hair removal treatments
I mean, goddamn.
I feel all kinds of guilty, like this isn't all supposed to be going so well. I was too awful a person pre-"awakening" to deserve this while I know so many others have been having it so hard. And I still know it's going to be hard, but like. Wow.
I think I'm just as suspicious of auspicious happenings as I am of compliments. Like, sure, thanks, but no way this is for real right?
Also I followed a bunch of trans blogs/meme pages on Facebook, and I'm just gorging on that stuff like it's a jar of pickles. My favorite so far was the transgirl sandwich, which consisted of a bottom slice of bread, a giant layer of just pickles, and another bottom slice of bread on top, and I just described a goddamn image meme, so clearly this has overwhelmed my mental faculties and I need to stop and go breathe.
Also, you're all beautiful and wonderful and amazing, and it's quite literally thanks to the people here that I was able to take those first steps, so thank you!
For the "survivor's" guilt I try to just focus on gratitude, that I get to lead this life and have these people in it. Still haven't figured out what to do with the impending sense of doom that my luck will run out, though.
As somebody who gets that for other reasons: pay it forward
Life is cruel, be kind
Not happy about the reason I need the dress but I'm glad I managed to buy one online and have it fit first try
this country deserves every shitty thing thatll happen to it in the next ten years
Mine went down to 7, but my endo was happy with that.
I think my doc is going by cis standards, which isn’t accounting for how estrogen is a derivative of testosterone. This doesn’t mean that’s the ONLY function of T, but rather if there should be a difference in range for cis vs. trans women. And the answer you get depends on whom you ask: I’ve seen some places just use cis standards, and others gives a way more ambiguous “well below male range.”
I suppose in the short term if it helps the hair situation I'll be okay with it for a bit? Then worry about low normal levels in the long term?
Trial and error lifestyle.
What about a Best Boy?
it's something between best and boy.
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I don't like going there. You can never find an employee if you need help, and they're always trying to sell you a damn membership card
I am a best boy
And really they only carry mid line mediocre boys.
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But then, today, somehow, a date has fallen into my lap.
A really hot guy messaged me on OkCupid, and is into kinky stuff like I am, and wants to go to a board game cafe with me this Thursday?
I even told him I'm fatter now than in my pics and he was like "don't worry about it".
He called me fucking adorable at one point?
What is happening?
Cos nothing's going to help stability of emotions better than having needed medical treatment dangled in front of your face and then taken away at the last second?
Doesn't help that my T levels are pathologically low and the lack of sex hormones probably factors into my depression and anxiety (my T was measured multiple times now and the level's stable so it seems like a concrete possibility)
I honestly don't understand the medical mindset of deciding someone is not ready for something when they're perfectly capable of making that call themselves. It seems at best negligent, at worst malicious.
This makes me incredibly mad, Platy. I'm sorry you're going through all that.
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a friend of mine basically had the rug pulled right out from under them by a psych, who had already been really demanding of them socially transitioning before they'd approve of HRT stuff, then right before the psych had said they'd write the letter they did a 180 and said it'd take at least 6 more months
I am honestly fuckin furious about it
and I feel kinda guilty about how supportive my medical professionals have been about my stuff
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Or a quest to profit off of desperation
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